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Kneeling in front of SEKHMET, the Goddess of war and healing, Rameses Zayn stares off into space while his priests performs rituals and murmurs prayers to the Goddess for a divine intervention upon their Queen and the unborn heir.

He has been on his knees for the past two hours, praying for the well being of his Queen and his son. But after waiting for hours without any news from the healers, his faith began dwindling.

There were no words to describe the dreadful anguish the Pharaoh was feeling, knowing he could loss his Queen and his son again. He felt as if his heart has being torn inside of him.

A voice in his heart kept telling him to trust the gods, but everytime he remembers the amount of blood gushing out from Harry's body his hopes kept crashing.

He wants to prepare himself mentally for the worse, but the voice kept screaming at him to stand firm and have confidence in the gods.

He blinked his eyes and took a deep breath, then shifted his gaze to the goddess. The sadness in his eyes spoke volumes, at the immense pain that has struck his heart.

limadha hdha yubqi yhdth? (Why does this keep happening?) He whispered.

ma alkhatiyat alty airtakabatha fi hayati almadiat , li'ana alalihat tueaqibuni bihadhih altryq? (What sin have I committed in my past life, for the gods to be punishing me this way?)

A single tear rolls down his cheek.

limadha tastamiru fi 'iietayina amal zayifat , eindama taerif 'anak satakhudhuha eana? (Why do you keep giving us false hopes when you know you are going to take it away from us?)

limadha tastamiru fi jaeal nafrati taeani? (Why do you keep making my Nefertari suffer?)

limadha tastamiru fi jaeal li yaeani?(Why do you keep making me suffer?)

He squeezed his eyes tightly shut as tears slowly cascades down his face.

He opened his eyes and gaze over his shoulder when he felt a hand on it, then lifted his face up to the woman standing beside him with swollen red eyes and puffy cheeks, indicating she has been crying for hours.

um..(Mother)

He quickly stood up from his knees and hugged her. They engulfed each other in a tight embrace, until the Pharaoh released her.

The Queen cupped her hands around her son's face, wiping away his tears, Rameses Zayn then fluttered his glassy eyes open and looked into his mother's eyes.

ealayk 'an tabqaa qwyaan ya bunaya, nfrtary satahtaj 'iilaa kutf qawiin likay tataki ealayh. (You have to stay strong my son, Nefertari will need a strong shoulder to lean on if...)

She shut her eyes tightly and took a deep breath, unable to say the words, and wrapped her arms around her son again.

After a few minutes, they let go of each other, their eyes focused on the empty of space between them.

lm yaqul almuealijun 'aya shay' baed, lakanaha nuzifat kthyraan mithl al'awqat al'ukhraa. (The healers haven't said anything yet, but she bled a lot like the other times) The Queen blurted out.

The Pharaoh nodded and sighed kunt mutafayilana jiddaan hawl hdha alhamla. lkn alan, last mtakdana (I was very optimistic about this pregnancy. But now, I'm not so sure)

The Queen frowned slightly, daeunaan la nafqid al'amal fi alalihat, hunak sbb limadha barak nfrtary, tdhkr? (Let's not lose hope in the gods, there is a reason why they blessed Nefertari, remember?)

'aelam , lakunaniy 'akhaf min khasaratiha maratan 'ukhraa mithl almarat al'akhirat. (I know, but I'm scared of losing her again like the last time)

Rameses Zayn murmured drawing in a shaky breath.

sawf 'atawaqaf ean eibadat alalihat libaqiat hayatiin wahiatiin baed dhlk, 'iidha kan yanbaghi alsamah laha 'an tahadath maratan 'ukhraa. (I will stop worshipping the gods for the rest of my life and my after life, if they should let it happen again)

The Queen whispered in a trembling voice as her eyes tears up.

Rameses Zayn wiped his mother's tears away with his thumb. daeuna la nufakir fi almawt. (Let's not think about death)

The Queen nodded, staring at her son.

lm yakun ely tarakaha wahidat mae shakhs ghurayb kunaa balkad naerifuh. (I shouldn't have left her alone with a stranger we barely knew) She mumbled, with guilt.

lm takun walidatik mukhtiat, 'ana 'ulqi biallawm ealaa kl shay'. kunt alshakhs aldhy yurid min nfrtary 'an tusadiq ealayha. (It's wasn't your fault mother, I'm to be blamed for everything. I was the one who wanted Nefertari to befriend her)

la lm yakun khatak, laqad khadaena jmyeaan biha. (No it wasn't your fault, we were all fooled by her) The Queen stated.

The Pharaoh nodded, rubbing his forehead. 'ana dhahib 'iilaa zinzanat liaistijwabiha. (I'm going to the dungeon to interrogate her) He whispered.

lkn 'alays hdha maswuwliat aljinral? (But isn't that the responsibility of the General?) His mother asked.

ladaa aljiniral mashaeir tujahaha , jaealaha maerufat li baed yawm min albarihat. (The General has feelings for her, he made it known to me a day after yesterday)

mashaeirih balnsbt laha sawf hashd eaqlah.(His feelings for her is going to crowd his mind)

The Queen nodded her head, slowly.
hsnaan ybdw 'anah qad tahadath maeaha balfel , yadaei 'anaha bariya (Well it's seems he has already spoken with her, he claims she is innocent)

yurid altahaduth maeak ean alkashf aldhy aiktashafah. (He wants to speak with you about a revelation he discovered)

Rameses Zayn sighed frustratedly bialtabe sayusadiq 'akadhibaha. (Of course he will believe her lies)

hsnaan, adhhab wa'atahadath maeah, sa'akun huna li'usli. (Well, go and talk to him, I will be here praying)

The Pharaoh released a long breath and kissed his mother on the cheek. He made his way out of the room to the hallway where he saw the General pacing back and forth.

The General slackened his pace when he sense the Pharaoh's presence. Their gaze met and just as he was about to approach him, Rameses Zayn strode passed him.

The General sighed and walked after him, Rameses Zayn 'ahtaj liltahaduth maeak. (Rameses Zayn I need to speak with you) He grumbled behind the Pharaoh.

iidha kan ean habibik thuma la. (If it's about your lover then No) The Pharaoh responded.

anzur, 'ana 'aerif kayf tasheur walakun min fadlik la tade hdha al'alam yaemik. (Look, I know how you feel but please don't let this pain blind you)

The Pharaoh stop on his tracks and spun around, facing his General with a blank stare.

hal faqadat almar'at alty tahibuha, wabnak aldhy lm yualid baed min qibal altilqaayiy? (Have you ever lost the woman you love and your unborn son through miscarriage?)

As the Pharaoh spoke each word, you could hear the pain in his voice.

la..(No) The General shook his head and sighed.

thuma la tukhbiruni 'anak taerif kayf tasheur, eindama la tueani min al'alam! (Then don't tell me you know how it feels, when you haven't experience the pain!) The Pharaoh exclaimed.

Rameses zayn min fadlik la tatasarae fi 'ayi qararat hataa alana. lays hadha hu alwaqt almunasib liltafkir biqalbik. (Rameses Zayn please don't rush into any decisions yet. This is not the time to think with your heart) The General pleaded.

ana wahid 'ufkur mae qilbi? (I'm the one thinking with my heart?) The Pharaoh stared at him with an unbelievable expression.

ant wahid tasadaq kula shay' taquluh eashiqatuk. (You are the one believing everything your mistress says) He uttered angrily.

li'anaha alhaqiqa! (Because it's the truth!) The General affirmed.

alssadat al'afadil. (Gentlemen)

Both men averted their heads to the voice of the Queen. Unknown to them she has been standing by the door watching them.

alsaytarat ealaa alwade fi ghurfat mahsurat , hayth la samae 'ayi 'adhnin. (Take control of the situation in a confined room, where no ears will hear) She calmly stated.

laysat hunak hajat al'umi, lays laday ma 'uquluh. (There is no need mother, I have nothing to say to him)

Rameses Zayn whispered, then glared at the General before storming off.

The General sighed and walked to the Queen. ya malikat, 'ana bihajat li'ana 'ukhbirak bishay'. (My Queen, I need to tell you something)

nem ladayk balfel. (Yes you've already have)

la, hunak almazid. (No, there is more) The General mumbled and the Queen raised her eyebrows.

hasananaan 'akhbarani. (Alright tell me)

Then the General repeated everything his mistress had told him, especially on what transpired between Niall and
Istnofret Gigi. After he was done, the Queen was left dumbfounded with goosebumps all over her body.

She blinked her eyes rapidly, staring at the General stunned, she was speechless for a long moment before taking a deep breath, then whispered with an astonished tone.

la 'astatie 'an 'usadiq Istnofret Gigi wara' kl hdha? (I can't believe Istnofret Gigi is behind all of this?)

'ana last mtfajyana, 'iinaha aimra'at tamuha. (I'm not surprised, she is an ambitious woman) The General replied.

walakun hataa mae ma qultuh , yumkin linuyfitari faqat 'an tuakid ma 'iidha kanat eashiqatuk hi 'afdal sidiyq laha min alealam alakhira. (But even with what you said, only Nefertari can confirm if truly your mistress is her best friend from the other realm)

The General sighed desperately.
aelam, lhdha alsabab 'ana 'atuasal 'iilayk liltahaduth mae Rameses zayn liltashbuth bayat khatatih bkhsws nafarat. (I know, that's why I'm pleading with you to talk to Rameses Zayn to hold on with whatever his plans are, regarding Nefert)

iinaa sawf. (I will) The Queen whispered, then the sounds of footsteps running towards them, interpreted their conversation.

Baketamon halted in front of them and bent over, resting her hands on her knees, panting hard from the running, then lifted her face up.

hi mustayqiza. (She is awake) She said, gasping for air

Both the Queen and the General breathed a heavy sigh of relief and thanked the gods.

yjb 'an nakhbir Rameses zayn. (We must inform Rameses Zayn) The Queen mumbled.

The guards unlocked the heavy iron door with surprise looks on their faces, seeing the Pharaoh for the first time in the underground dungeon.

They quickly bowed to him then their leader stepped forward, with his head down.

fureawnaa, nahn. (My Pharaoh, we...

'ayn alsajiyn alshaqra'a? (Where is the blonde female prisoner?) Rameses Zayn stated without any emotion in his voice. He wasn't in the mood for any formal pleasantries.

ealaa hadha alnahw, ya fireawna. (Right this way, my Pharaoh) The leader, together with some of the guards led Rameses Zayn down to Niall's cell.

As they were going through the tunnels of the underground dungeon, there were few prisoners in their cells, whispering among themselves, wondering why the king was there.

They stopped in fornt of Niall's cell and spotted him sitting on the ground, with his face buried in his knees.

When Niall heard the footsteps stopping in front of his cell, he raised his head up with a smile thinking it was the General, but the smile quickly faded into a terrified look when his gaze met the bleak eyes of the Pharaoh.

Blood drained from his face and his eyes widened with fear at the intense rage in the Pharaoh's eyes.

Rameses Zayn stepped forward and Niall's body began trembling as he stood up from the ground.

alqaws lifireawn bik! (BOW TO YOUR PHARAOH!) The leader of the Prison guards growled loudly and used some sort of a metal to hit the iron bars, making Niall to jump with fright.

A whimper escapes his lips as he moved forward and bowed his head down. Disrespecting the Pharaoh is the last thing he wants to do.

sa'utrih ealayk bed al'asyilat wa'atawaqae mink al'iijabat ealayha bisadq. (I'm going to ask you some questions and I expect you to answer them truthfully) He heard the Pharaoh's voice.

iidha lm tafeal dhlk , fa'anaan sa'aqtae kl juz' min jasmik bbt' , hataa 'ahsul ealaa alhaqiqat mink. (If you don't, I'm slowly going to cut every piece of your body off, until I get the truth out of you)

wala hataa aljiniral sayakun qadrana ealaa tufirik. (And not even the General will be able to save you)

Niall gulped down nervously and nodded his head rapidly with tears already rolling down his cheeks.

min arslha lak? (Who sent you?)

"I-I ca-came on my own, I'm from the future. My-my name is Niall, Harry's best friend" He stuttered nervously.

Niall wanted to say more, but he didn't want to provoke the Pharaoh, the look on Rameses Zayn's face was enough to tell him that, he is a ticking time bomb.

ldhlk kunt ealaa haqin eank. (So I was right about you).The Pharaoh whispered.

"I di-didn't mean to harm Harry and the baby. I swear, I just wa-nted to take him back to our world"

"Istnofret Gigi gave me the herb, I didn't even know the herb was dangerous....

alsamt! (Silence!).. The Pharaoh shouted and immediately Niall kept mute, whimpering.

qad yusadiq aljiniral 'akadhibak lakuniy la 'afeal. (The General might believe your lies but I don't)

Niall dropped his knees on the floor, pleading with Rameses Zayn "Please, please, please it's the truth" He cried.

"You said it yourself, you know who I am. Now think about it, why would I come all the way here and try to kill Harry, it doesn't make sense"

"He is my best friend, I can never hurt him"

la yahmni min 'ant 'aw madaa airtibatik biniftari, fa'iin kl min yudhi eayilati sayuajih ghadabiun. (I don't care who you are or how related you are to my Nefertari, anyone who harms my family will face my wrath)

The Pharaoh mumbled in a cold tone tone.

yumkinuk 'an takun 'afdal sidiyq lieayilat nafrtariin 'aw eayilati , wasa'azil 'aqwam bitaeliq jusdik alhayi ealaa qiteat khashabiat thuma aiteamaha 'iilaa alnusur fi alsahra' 'iidha wadaeat 'isbeana ealayha. (You can be Nefertari's best friend or family and I will still hang your living body on a timber pole then feed it to the vultures of the desert if you lay a finger on her)

Niall lifted his face and stared the Pharaoh with a horrified look.

A guard run in their direction and bowed to the Pharaoh, then whispered into his ears.

Within seconds the whole demeanor of the Pharaoh changed, the coldness in his eyes disappeared and was replaced with calmness. He nodded his head after the guard was done and averted his attention to Niall.

sawf 'atueamil maeak lahiqana. (I will deal with you later)

Niall gulped down with fear as both the Pharaoh and the guards walked away, disappearing from his view.

"I hope you and the baby are okay" He whispered and cried.

Rameses Zayn stepped into Harry's chamber with a calm demeanor but inside he was yearning to take his Queen in his arms, when he saw Harry lying motionless on the bed with his mother sitting beside him.

He shut the door behind him with his heart pounding in his chest and took a deep breath, then turned his attention to the bald man standing beside Harry's bed, his head healer.

Their eyes met, then the head healer gestured his head to the corner of the room. The Pharaoh nodded and followed him.

The head healer bowed his head, mulki..(My king)

Rameses Zayn rubbed his forehead, frustratedly, yumkinuk alhusul ealaa alnuqtat mubasharatan waqitae almumataeih. (Can you get straight to the point and cut the pleasantries)

'ana asif, 'ana. (I'm sorry, I.) The head healer tried to apologise.

la, la bas 'ana last fi mizaj li'ayi shay' akhar biaistithna' sihat nfrtary. (No, no it's fine I'm just not in the mood for anything else except Nefertari's health)

The head healer nodded with understanding. qbl 'an 'ukhbirak 'ayu shay' yataealaq bisihat almalikat, 'urid 'an 'aerif shyyana. (Before I tell you anything concerning the Queen's health, I want to know something)

limadha lm tukhbirni 'ana almalikat qad wulidat mn jadid kadhkr? (Why didn't you tell me the Queen has been rebirth as a male?) The head healer asked, with a slight frown.

kunt 'ukhtit li'akhbarik ghdaan , eindama tati li'iijra' fahs 'asbueiin laha. (I was planning on telling you tomorrow, when you come for her weekly check up)

The Pharaoh answered and the head healer nodded his head.

hasna. (Well) The head healer paused with sadness in his eyes.

laqad faqadt altifl lakunaha bikhayrin. (She lost the baby but she is fine)

The Pharaoh squeezed his eyes shut, with a slight groaned then opened his eyes after few seconds with a blank face.

He nodded his head for the healer to continue talking, but behind the mask he was wearing on, there is sadness in his heart.

lm narghab fi 'iikhbariha lakanaha 'usirt. (We didn't want to tell her but she insisted) The head healer continued talking.

wamadha kan radu faeliha? (And what was her reaction?) The Pharaoh asked, with pain in his voice.

la shayy. (Nothing) The head healer replied.

The Pharaoh frowned, la shayy? (Nothing?)

nem la shay' waealaa alrghm min wujud alkthyr min almashaeir fi eayniha, fahi la tatasaraf ealayha. (Yes nothing and even though there are so many emotions in her eyes, she is not acting on them)

iinaha tuebi kula shay' dakhilaha walaysat jayidatan laha. (She is bottling everything inside and it's not good for her)

The Pharaoh palmed his face and sighed loudly, trying to keep calm. He removed his palms from his face and asked.

ayu shay' akhr? (Anything else?)

yumkinuk albad' bimuhawalat marat 'ukhraa litifl akhar baed athnyn min 'aqmar kamilat , sanabqaa lifatrat min alwaqt lilhusul ealayha fi sihat jayida. (You can start trying again for another baby after two full moons, we will be staying for a while to get her into good health)

The Pharaoh nodded and thanked the head healer. He strode towards Harry's bed, then placed his hand on his mother's shoulder, giving her a gentle squeeze.

His mother lifted her face up and gave him a tight smile, before standing up from the bed. Rameses Zayn nodded to her then sat beside Harry.

He took Harry's hand and kissed the back of it.

habibata. (My love) He whispered but Harry didn't respond or show any signs of body movement. His eyes were staring into space with tears slowly cascading down his cheeks, soaking the pillows.

sawf 'ata'akad min 'anaha tadfae lhdha. (I will make sure she pays for this) The Pharaoh whispered and emitted a shaky breath as a tear race his face. He kissed the back of Harry's hand again.

Nefertari, anzur 'iilaya. (Nefertari, please look at me) The Pharaoh pleaded but Harry was completely zoned out, barely blinking his eyes.

He was too sad to cry out or wail, he is just lying there as still as a statue while the magnitude of his loss swept over him.

In his mind, he kept asking himself if he is worthy of Rameses Zayn's love, when he can't even give the Pharaoh the one thing he desires most, a child.

He has lost another pregnancy again, just like he did in his past life.

habiy yanzur 'iilaya. (My love look at me) The Pharaoh pleaded once again, caressing Harry's cheek with his hand.

Harry responded to Rameses Zayn's touch by blinking his eyes, then averting his gaze to him. The Pharaoh smiled at Harry's responses and kissed his hand again.

Harry stared at Rameses Zayn, wondering if their son would have been the exact copy of him or looked like both of them.

The ends of his mouth curve up slightly, when the mental picture of their son's face, flashed in his mind.

Their son would have been the most handsome boy in the whole kingdom. He would have spoiled him with so much love and affection.

He visualized Rameses Zayn teaching their son how to fight with swords, bows and arrows and ride horses.

But that will never happen.

He will never get to see their son's face, never get to hold him or see whether he will have his green eyes or Rameses Zayn's brown eyes.

He is useless, a complete failure. He doesn't deserve Rameses Zayn's love. He keeps losing their babies again and again and again.

He blinked his eyes again then looked slightly to the side, glancing at the Queen who is standing beside Rameses Zayn. He realized everyone in the room had left, leaving the three of them.

He raised his head up trying to sit up.

la habia lilrrahat , la yazal jasmak deyfana. (No my love rest, your body is still weak) Rameses Zayn tried stopping him, but Harry shook his head, wanting to sit up.

The Pharaoh sighed then gently helped him to sit up, against the head board. He caressed Harry's cheeks again with his hand, We will talk about what happened later but for now you need to rest.

Harry avoided the Pharaoh's gaze as he stroked his hair and kissed his forehead.

aelam 'anani fashilat fik walam 'atamakan min hamaaytik kama yanbaghi , lakunaniy 'aeduk bi'anana sananjah fi dhalik. (I know I've failed you and couldn't protect you as I should, but I promise we will get through this.....)

"Where is Niall?" Harry cuts him off, his voice barely above a whisper.

The Pharaoh frowned slightly, kunt ealaa eilm tawal alwaqt wa'ant lm tukhbirni. (You knew all along and you didn't tell me?)

"Where is Niall?" Harry repeated again, his voice a little stronger this time.

sadiquk hu almakan aldhy yantami 'iilayh , fi alzinzana. sawf yadfae mqabl ma faealah bina wabinana. (Your friend is where he belongs, in the dungeon. He is going to pay for what he did to us and our son)

"Get him out, you shall not harm him in anyway. If you do I swear I will never forgive you"

The Pharaoh's frown deepened into a scowl lakunah qutil abnana. (But he killed our son) He whispered yelled.

"I told Niall to do it"

"I-I wanted to go back home to my father, but I can't do that when I'm carrying your child"

A loud gasp escaped the Queen's lips, her mouth agape as she stare at Harry in shock.

Rameses Zayn let go off Harry's hand gently, his heart started thumping violently in his chest. His eyes wide in bewilderment as a sudden silence fell the room.

talabat min sadiqik musaeadatak ealaa 'iinha' alhaml li'anak 'aradtu aleawdat 'iilaa almanzil , 'iilaa waldk? (You asked your friend to help you terminate the pregnancy because you wanted to go back home, to your father?)

"Yes" Harry whispered.

The Pharaoh took a sharp breath, staring at him dumbfoundedly. His hands began trembling.

laqad 'ukhidhat hayat abnana? jusidak wadumuk? (You took the life of our son? Your own flesh and blood?) The Pharaoh spoke slowly, painfully as tears coursed down his cheeks.

"I didn't ask for this, you tricked me remember?"

"If you had let me go like I asked you to, non of this will be happening"

Nefertari ma aldhy hasal lak. (Nefertari what has gotten into you?) The Queen covered her mouth with both of her palms, crying.

Harry glanced at her with an unreadable expression "My name is Harry, not Nefertari"

After Harry said those words the room became so quiet, you could hear a pin drop. Rameses Zayn kneeled beside the bed and held Harry's hands again.

hal taqul kl hdha hataa la 'ueaqib sadiquka? hal hadhana hu? (Are you saying all of this so I don't punish your friend? Is that it?)

He asked, hoping Harry would say yes.

"No"

"I terminated the pregnancy because I want to go back home, don't you understand?" Harry uttered.

iidhan abnana wahabuna la yaeni lak shyyana? (So our son and our love meant nothing to you?) Rameses Zayn whispered, the pain clearly etched on his face.

"Yes" Harry replied unable to look at Rameses Zayn in the eye.

A look of astonishment and disbelief flashed across the Pharaoh's face. He cast down his eyes, looking shattered and defeated.

He lifted his face up and looked at Harry for a long time before he spoke min fadlik la tatrakani. (Please don't leave me) He begged.

ana ymkn 'an tajealak taqaeu fi alhabi maeiun , faqat 'aetani bed alwaqt. (I can make you fall in love with me, just give me sometime)

ymknny 'an 'ajealak seydana , sa'uetik 'ayu shay' turiduh. (I can make you happy, I will give you anything you want)

"Anything?" Harry asked, with his face cast down and Rameses Zayn nodded. nem 'ayu shay' ya habiya , sa'afeal dhlk (Yes anything my love, I will do it)

"Then send me back, that's what I want" He whispered and stared directly into the Pharaoh's eyes, then quickly averted his eyes to his hands.

The Queen saw the lies Harry was hiding behind his eyes.

Rameses zayn la tastamie laha, 'iinaha tukadhib. (Rameses Zayn don't listen to her, she is lying)

The Queen said, choking on a sob.

Nefertari, limadha tafeal hdha. (Nefertari, why are you doing this?)

Harry turned his face, looking at the Pharaoh with a blank stare

"If you listen to your mother, your heart will be broken all over again. I can guarantee you that"

After minutes of silence, Rameses Zayn slowly hoisted himself up from his knees, while looking at Harry and wiped his tears with his hand.

hasananaan , sa'amnah lak 'amniatak. (Alright, I will grant you your wish)

wlkn faqat 'aelam dhlk, ma zilt 'ahbak raghm 'anak tahatamat qalbi 'iilaa 'ashla' (But just know that, I still love you even though you just shattered my heart into pieces)

The Pharaoh took a deep breath as tears trickle down his cheeks.

atamanaa lak alsaeadat fi alealam alqadim. (I wish you happiness in the next world)

wamal 'ana alrajul sawf taqae fi alhabi, sawf yueqad lak fi taqdir eal wa'ahabu lak mithl 'awad 'an yakun. (And I hope the man you will fall in love with, will hold you in high esteem and love you like I would have)

Harry refused to look at the Pharaoh as he spoke, he bit his lip and blinked back the tears threatening to fall from his eyes. He felt like dying as Rameses Zayn's words shoots arrows in his heart.

'iidha 'aradtu aleawdat , falan 'udie waqatk. sanadhhab 'iilaa almaebad alan. (If you want to go back, then I won't waste your time. We will go to the temple right now)

alhusul ealaa aistiedadaha al'um. (Get her ready mother)

The Pharaoh whispered and just as he was about to leave, the Queen grabbed his elbow and stopped him. She stared at the Pharaoh, looking at him unbelievable expression.

ant faqat sawf tatakhalaa wala tuqatil min 'ajaliha? (You are just going to give up and not fight for her?)

She shouted, angry Rameses Zayn is giving up that easily.

The Pharaoh stared at his mother
looking crushed.

hadhih hi almarat alththaniat alty tuhawil fiha alrahil, wahi almarat al'uwlaa mae shaqiq zawjiin, walan qatalat abnna limujrid alaibtiead eaniy. (This is the second time she has tried to leave, the first one with my step brother and now she killed our son just to get away from me)

hnak alkthyr min alrajul ymkn 'an yakhudh, alam. la 'astatie 'iijbaraha ealaa albaqa' 'aw tahabani. (There's so much a man can take, mother. I can't force her to stay or love me)

lakunaha tahabak. (But she loves you) The Queen whispered

rubama, walakun ybdw 'ana huba waliduha yatafawaq eali. (Maybe, but it seems the love for her father surpasses mine)

The Queen loosen her grib on the Pharaoh's arm and stare after him as he hurried out of the room, then turned her attention to Harry.

She sat next to him on the bed, looking straight at him, while Harry kept his head down.

wa'ana 'aelam 'anak takadhib wa'aerif fi 'aemaq qalbik , ladayk mashaeir liabini. (I know you are lying and I know deep down your heart, you have feelings for my son)

She calmly stated.

Harry averted his green eyes to the queen with trembling lips, tears welled from deep inside him and coursed down his cheeks.

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry but I'm doing this for his own good" He sobbed.

"He doesn't deserve me, I can't bear him a child. I'll bring him nothing but misery and regret"

la, la tifuli. (No, no my child)

The Queen shifted closer to Harry and cupped his face gently in her hands.

anzur 'ily, Nefertari. (Look at me, Nefertari) She lifted Harry's face to meet her eyes.

laqad baraktuk alalihat, yumkinuk 'an tahmil remsis zayn tflaan maratan 'ukhraa (You have been blessed by the gods, You can bear Rameses Zayn a child again)

ghiabuk fi hayatah sawf yudamiruh. (Your absence in his life will destroy him)

Harry squeezed his eyes shut and shook his head as more tears coursed down his eyes.

"But I'm not good enough to make him happy"

"If I should stay he will never get to hold the fruits of our love and Passion, in his arms"

Harry opened his eyes looking at the Queen. "He will never be able to make funny faces for our children to make them laugh or see them smiling and hear their giggles"

"He will never be able to hear the first word our son would have said.

"He will never be able to see our children taking their first step"

"I can never give Rameses Zayn those moments. He will have those moments with Istnofret Gigi, not me"

"I'm useless"

la, la tafalay'ant ghyr majdia. (No, no my child you are not useless) The Queen exclaimed, crying.

yumkinuk alhaml maratan akhraa. aedk hadhih almarat ln taqatieni. (You can get pregnant again. I promise this time i won't interrupt you two)

"No" Harry cuts her off

"I couldn't even give him a child in my past life and I've lost another pregnancy again" A sob tore from Harry's throat.

"Nothing has changed, I'm still going to kill my babies if I should get pregnant again"

Nefertari tawaquf ean qawl dhlk, 'ant lm taqtal 'atfaluk. tama 'akhadh hdha altifl biquat beyda eank. (Nefertari stop saying that, You didn't kill your babies. This child was forcefully taken away from you)

laqad barakatuk alalihat , 'ana mtakd min 'ana alhaml alqadim sayakun najhaan. (You have being blessed by the gods, I sure the next pregnancy will be successful)

"You don't understand, even in history books it was Istnofret Gigi who bore Rameses Zayn an heir, not me"

lkna alalihat la yukhatiyuwn abdaan. (But the gods are never wrong) The Queen whispered as tears rolls down her cheeks.

hataa law kan Istnofret Gigi yahmil wa Rameses zayn wrythana, fa'ant min yuhibu. (Even if Istnofret Gigi bears Rameses Zayn an heir, you are the one he loves, not her)

"But I don't want Rameses Zayn touching Istnofret Gigi or any other woman while I'm still here"

"I want Rameses Zayn offsprings to look like me and him, not like him and Istnofret Gigi"

"I'm that jealous and selfish and I will only be in the way of what Rameses Zayn desires the most, if I stay"

la yastatie 'abadaan 'an yalmus Istnofret Gigi 'aw 'ay aimra'at 'ukhraa mithl altariqat alty yumsik biha. 'ant tamtalik qalbah wajasidah waruhaha. 'alaa turiinaha? (He can never touch Istnofret Gigi or any other woman like the way he touches you. You own his heart, his body and soul. Don't you see it?)

abnay yuriduk 'ant wa'ant 'ant faqat. (My son wants you, you and only you)

la tatakhidh qarar altasarue hataa alana. albaqa'. (Don't make a rush decision yet. Stay)

Harry took a deep breath then shook his head. "If I should stay I'm only going to complicate things, I don't want to keep him from trying to have children with other women"

"He has to have an heir, he is the king but I can't give him that"

"I'm saving myself from the pain and him from the expectations that will never happen"

iidhan 'ant tughadar li'anak taetaqid 'anak la tastatie 'iieta' Rameses zayn tflaan? hal hadhaan hw? (So you are leaving because you think you can't give Rameses Zayn a child? Is that it?)

kunt tudamir kula min saeadatik min edm alyaqin kunt ghyr mtakd mn? (You are destroying both of your happiness of uncertainties you are not sure of?)

"I can't give him children"

walakun kayf yumkinuk alta'akud min 'anak lm tujribh maratan 'ukhraa. (But how can you be sure when you haven't tried it again)

The door pushed opened without warning, making Harry and the Queen snapped their heads towards it. Three guards entered the room and bowed their heads slightly.

laqad talab minaa maerifatan ma 'iidha kanat almalikat Nefertari jahz? (We were asked to check if Queen Nerfertari is ready?) One of them said.

The Queen turned to face Harry with a pleading stare. min fadlik 'iibqaa. (Please stay) She whispered.

fikr fi al'amr min fadlik. (Think about it please)

"No, it's for the best and I forbid you to tell Rameses Zayn about this" Harry whispered.

The Queen stared at Harry and sniffles as more tears race down her cheeks ya tiflatay, 'atamanaa 'an tuearif 'anak satundim ealaa dhlk. (Oh my child, I hope you know you are going to regret this)

Harry took a deep breath and announced to the guards.

"Yes, I'm ready"

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I'm sorry.😓

I guess we will be seeing Mr Evans, Kwame and the others sooner than we expected.

I'm not good at writing emotions. I tried.

Question: Would you like to see how I visualized some of the characters in the book?

@VampsvsWere God bless you, anytime I look at the pictures, my heart swells with appreciation and respect for you. Thank you dear 😚😘😊

Thoughts on the chapter.

Thoughts on Harry.

Thoughts on Rameses Zayn.

Thoughts on The Queen.

Thoughts on Niall

Thoughts on the General.

Thank you so much reading.❤️