There are monsters
Ones in my head ones at the foot of my bed and ones all around my body
They never go away
They are bossy and scary
I have hard times with making friends with them living
They stay were they should
They taunt me and tell me what to do
They send me away
It is really sad when it comes to it
I cry out they are coming for me
But no one will listen
For I try to hold these secrets inside me my mind is like a deadly disease
I have burned many holes in my mind and in my heart
I'm bigger than my body I'm colder than this home I'm meaner than my demons. I bigger than these bones
I can't stop they tell me what to think and what to type and what to say.
I can't help this awful energy
I want to be myself but I just can't
It is hard being the only white girl at your school
I am not always fitting in and controlled by my friends.
I'm grown familiar with villains that live in my head. They beg me to write them so I'll never die when I'm dead.