Asalam Wa Aleikum , been a ........ long time , how r u all? i do not know how to say this but i have been not updating becoz of a big reason , a reason that has changed my life or should i say the reason was my life and heres my story!

my Abu , my hero , my first love , the best father in the world passed away on 28th feb , yesterday it has been one month since he left us! he got suddenly sick in the start of this year , we thought it is just some pain , we took him to the docs in hk and they admitted him and said he has liver problem (main reason he smoke,we whole family hated his smoking habit)later he got home he use to just lay down on bed all day and at night he couldnt sleep and would scream with pain , it was hard hearing him! ami use to stay awake with him , abu got cranky (chirchira) ! u know abu loved ami soooo much and so does ami loved abu a lot , the best couple i have seen! one day ami started crying and abu held her hand and said: jhalliye na roh main tenu kadi vi chorke na wenda---crazy , dont cry i will never leave u! i wish what he said was true................
soon we all decided abu , ami and one of my brother will go to pk for treatment as abu's health was getting worse , he was all yellow , eyes also yellow and super weak! we were super confident and had no tension as we left it on ALLAH that he will be all good and healthy and will come back to us smiling!the day he was going to pk he hugged me and said: main wapas murke osa--i will return back to u! and no time he was gone to pk!!there everyday we were told he is getting better and at that time he was no more yellow ! babu as in my brother use to make my dad laugh so much , he was getting better and was getting happier!
after all those days the hospital gave him the permission to leave the hospital! let me remind u all the tests they did reports came normal!it was weird them asking to leave! u know wha.... the doc there already told one of my cousin he is going to ..... die moreover the docs told that cousin the moment they took dad to hospital that he is not gonna survive long , he has a week or a few days but he *that cousin* didnt told anybody neither my brother neither ami nor us!! the same day he left hospital and went home , in the evening they were taking dad to toilet and dad suddenly said there is no strength in my feet and they lay abu on the bed and soon nobody realized as they were all present there were rubbing abu's hands and feets and suddenly abu shifts on the right side with his head in the lap of my brother , looked at him , relaxed and started saying LA ILAHA ILLAHHU MUHAMMAD DUR RASULALLAH , babu heard him say this and he was struggling to say this so they gave him abe zaam zaam and he clearly read the kalma and with that he closed his eyes!
whatever it was but abu died a good death with kalma on his lips and his head in his son's lap!it was a miracle he spoke the kalma himself while others were so confused that with abu saying the kalma they read it with him instead of abu reading with them! for me and my oldest brother as we were in hk and that day we went to chachus*uncle*!house and there chachu got a call first and the people there told chachu he is getting worse and the call got cut , after sometime they called again and they said something to chachu and he left the phone and started crying , i didnt knew what to do , i couldnt believe what he could have heard , i just couldnt abu said he would come back to me i then felt water flowing down my cheeks maybe that was it , i hugged my brother and asked him that abu said he will come back but he didnt why but he had no answer ! we were broken totally and still are , this bruise is never gonna heal!we the next took the plane to pk !!
abu ka janaza hua there !! i saw my mom more than anyone she was the one whos heart was not hers anymore abu took it with him and left ami alone ,my babu *second oldest brother who was in pk with abu* hugged me and i couldnt help control the flood in my eyes! i even asked babu why everything bad happens to us and he only gave one reply ALLAH tests the one he loves , maybe ALLAH loved our family too much!( i asked this as actually all bad things happens to our family as while abu went to pk for treatment , my bhabi was having operation here in hk as she had brain tumour , ALHUMDULILLAH , she is fine now at least she didnt leave us like abu)
soon abu was buried in his grave , i use to go to his kabr to meet him , i couldnt see him for the last before he died!! i know he watching and listening to me , ABU JEEE I LOVE U SOO MUCH AND ALWAYS WILL TILL MY LAST BREATH , U WILL ALWAYS BE MY HERO ! before coming back to hk we finally found out the reason of his death , he had liver cancer from the past 8 months and we never knew , he got cancer at the tome when last he came to pk for my dadi as she passed away at that time!! let me tell u fact , my dada i mean my abu's father also died because of cancer ! history repeats!
now i am back in hk by the way 31st ko abu ki bday hai!!! many things have changed and will change even more day by day , i miss him so much i cant express , i remember him everyday and i cry everyday though crying is not gonna bring him back it just makes me feel better! i have one main motive in life that is to make abu super proud and i am gonna work hard for it and show everyone what a great human being's daughter am i ! another is to be my mothers arms , love and support till i die!!make my brothers proud of me too , they have many expectations from me !!life is not gonna be the same or easy though it wasnt easy before either but now its even more difficult but INSHALLAH we will get through it ! may ALLAH grant my abu jannat and forgive him for his sins !! once again abu i lubbbbb u so so soo much , uncountable , undescribable love!!!!
this is my life and my story and the reason!!!i might see u all next time till then ALLAHHAFIZ , remember me in ur prayers as thats all i need !!!