As he held me. My whole body went numb. My hands stop shaking.

"Are you alright?" He asked me again.

"I AM ALRIGHT." I screamed whispered and released my hands from his. He started looking at the board. My heart was beating, faster than ever. I could feel my heartbeat on my fingers. He didn't talk to me after that.

ZAYN'S P.O.V

As I entered in the school. I could see the girls running at me. And I hated it. "Damn." I mumbled to myself.

I managed to walk to the corridor anyhow, but that was it. There were a lot of girls. I couldn't go through; I said a bit harshly.

"Can I go? I am late for the class." It calmed them down a bit and I went to my classroom. My first class was off history. I entered in the class and here it went again. I heard some girls calling my name. I ignored them and went to the teacher

"I want to talk to the class before I sit. Is it alright?"

"Sure" Teacher said to me and then called the class.

"Attentive class"

And then I began,

"This is me Zayn Malik. And I am doing really fine" I answered the girls who were asking about my health and then continued

"I am here to study so please consider me a regular guy, not as a member of One direction. I will appreciate your cooperation. Take it easy, please." When I was done teacher asked me to select a seat for myself.

I scanned the whole class, and all were like 'sit with me.' But then there was this one girl. Her eyes were closed, and she was praying something. I went to her and sat beside her. Her fingers were crossed. She was hoping something. I was staring at her like a fool when she opened her eyes. She was really shocked to find me beside her. She wasn't happy. I could tell. She smiled at me. So, I smiled back and asked.

"Are you okay?"

I don't know why I asked that. But as I spoke the words, her eyes filled with tears. I felt guilty, I don't know why or what I did wrong, but I felt guilty. I shouldn't have asked.

She turned her face and nodded. I saw a tear on her cheeks. I started looking at the board and then I felt her hands were shaking and she was trying to stop them. I don't know what was bothering her, but I was feeling for her. I don't know why she was crying. But I felt that it was somehow my fault that I came to sit beside her. Maybe she was praying that I wouldn't come to sit with her. I couldn't hold myself. I hold her hand and she stopped shaking. I asked her again

"Are you okay?"

She went angry this time and whispered at me

"I AM ALRIGHT." And moved her hands. It hurt me. I was feeling for her and she was being rude to me. I tried to ignore her after that.

MARY'S P.O.V

I entered in the house. I was so disturbed. My crush was in my school. My love for him was waking up. I couldn't afford it. I couldn't afford loving him again and then not having him again. I ran to my room and started crying. All the memories were coming back. I opened a drawer and all of his posters were there. I stared at them for a minute. Panic was hitting. I started shivering. I was crying but the crying couldn't release my heartache. I started screaming, screaming on the top of my lungs and started tearing the posters. Aunt Emily heard the screaming and ran to my room. As she entered in the room. I started screaming at her.

"What are you doing here? WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING HERE?" She tried to reach me and hold my face, but I pushed her and screamed again, pointing my finger to the door. "OUT! GET OUT OF HERE. NOW!" And she left silently.

I cried a lot. And I screamed a lot. But she didn't come back when I let all the anger out. I realize that I did wrong to my aunt. So, I went downstairs.

"Aunt Emily." I shouted her name. She was in the living room. I went to her.

She looked at me but didn't smile. I sat beside her and said

"I am sorry. I am really sorry." She smiled at me and said.

"I promised your mother that I will take care of you. And I will keep you happy, but I guess, I am not keeping up with my promise." As she said that, she started crying and I started crying too.

"No Aunt, you are keeping your promise. It's me."

She held my face and asked me politely

"What's wrong, if you tell me. I know I can help."

"I don't know. I am just... scared." That's all I said. She didn't reply me, so I went to my room.

Morning light woke me up. I moaned and realized that I slept on the carpet. I looked at the clock it was 7 in the morning. I dressed myself up and went downstairs. Aunt was there making the breakfast. I sat on the table and ate breakfast silently. After that, I said.

"I am leaving for school."

I didn't want to go to school. But I wanted to go school. Aunt came to me said.

"Okay, have a nice day."

I was about to turn but then she continued

"If you face the fear. It will not scare you." I stood there for a minute, giving thoughts to her words then she said.

"Now go."

On the way to school, I only thought about what she said to me. In other words. She said to me that If I face Zayn, he will not scare me. So, I decided that I will make myself face Zayn today.

***

"I am sorry Amy. I got to go. I will see you at lunch." I said Amy. I was so anxious to see Zayn.

"I will talk to him and I will wait for him eat me." I mumbled to myself.

I sat silently on my desk, waited for him to sit with me.

At last, he came like a perfect angel and my heart lost the rhythm of beats. He sat with me and started answering the other girls. I remained silent and then, I finally spoke.

"Hi, I am Mary." I introduced myself with a shaky voice, like a dumb fool.

He turned to me and I lost in his eyes.

"Hello." He replied me back and his voice sent chills in my whole body. I smiled back

"How are you?" I tried to extend the conversation.

"I am good. How are you?" He replied calmly.

"I am fine. Thank you." I said.

He smiled and yawed a little covering his mouth.

"Didn't sleep well?" I asked him. Shocked at my confidence.

"Yeah, I don't know. In my neighborhood there was a woman or a girl screaming. I just couldn't sleep because of it... I don't know, It was really disturbing." He said rubbing his hand on the back of his neck

When he mentioned a girl screaming, my heart skipped a beat. My mind could only think of me screaming last night. My legs started to shiver and Panic hit me like a wave.

Teacher called the class and we didn't talk after that. The class ended and he went away after waving me goodbye. All other classes were blur to me. My mind was absent. I couldn't think of anything.

School ended and I went to my home. When I reached my home, I stood on the street and looked every house. There were kids playing, Women chattering. No sign of anything new. It was all same old. I satisfied myself that might be, she was someone else. And I entered in the house.

ZAYN'S P.O.V

She talked to me today. I thought as I walked out of class. I liked it. I liked her. She was different from all other girls. She didn't shout at my face when she saw me. She was managed. Disturbed, but managed. Thinking this, I moved to my next class

I didn't want to go to my new house. My first night in it sucked really hard. Her screams where depressing. I shook my head and called Harry and went out with him. But at night I had to come to my house. And thank God, it was a peaceful night

MARY'S P.O.V

After the dinner which I barely ate, I went to my room. I sat on the corner of my bed and started thinking, what if he heard me screaming and then my mother's last words rang in my ear

"May be physically, I won't be present. But spiritually I am always with you. Please never make yourself sad because I am not with you. I will be with you. You just have to think about me"

I started crying silently...

"Mum" I whispered. "Please I need you. I miss you"

And then the time came. I, again, wanted to scream, wanted to let out all the sorrows which was buried deep inside of me. But I stopped myself this time. I walked to my table and tore a paper and wrote "I NEED TO STOP MYSELF" I colored it dark and paste it on my wall. I stared at it for a while. It controlled me and I lied down on my bed to sleep.

I could feel his body touching mine. His lips were soft but strong. I grabbed his neck and kissed him back. He was kissing me hungrily. I was running out air I needed to breathe. I whispered during the kiss

"Zayn." He stopped for a minute and looked into my eyes. I breathe in the air and then he started kissing me again I wrapped my legs around him and kissed him back. He was so passionate. I never wanted this to end. I hugged him tightly and he smiled a little. I could feel it.

THUG, my eyes got open. I saw a bird collapsed with my window. I took a deep breath and throw myself on the bed I growled.

"Ahh it was a dream." I pressed my head.

I could feel the heat of my body. I threw my blanket away, I was sweating. I checked the time, It was six in the morning. I went downstairs. My aunt was still in her room. I went outside the house to see the weather. It was foggy and peaceful outside. I sat on the stairs of my porch and rested my head on my knees. I sat there for a while thinking about that dream. I laughed a little on my mind and then realized it's been awhile, I didn't laugh. My eyes filled with tears, I blinked them twice to avoid them.

"Mary?" I heard my name.

It scared me and I jerked my head up. There he was standing with a question mark on his face. That was it. That was me. He heard me screaming. I hate myself a lot. I wanted to bash my face so hard that he won't recognize me, but it was too late. I didn't reply.

"You live here?" He continued with the same tone. But I just stared at his face like a fool.

He clapped in front of my face and made me jerk.

"Yes." I replied to his question.

"Wow you are my neighbor that's... really nice." He said and sat beside me on the stairs. And then continued.

"What are you doing outside. It's cold and..." He hesitated a little but said it anyway "You are even wearing any pajamas."

As he spoke the words, I realized that I was in my shorts. I shivered a little because it was cold.

"Oh, I just came to see the weather"

"You are weird." He said to me and laughed a little and I faked laughed with him

"What'd you know." I mumbled under my breath.

He then continued, "Can I ask you something?"

My heart stopped.

"Yes." I said with a shaky voice.

He replied calmly "You were screaming the other night, weren't you?"

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A/N: I am putting some parts together. So i can began writing the new parts.