My heart was broken. I loved him a lot, but he didn't love me back. He loved someone else. I was shattered. I was blacking out. I couldn't breathe. I needed to get out.

"Excuse me." I said and ran out of cafeteria without listening to him anymore.

I went to the parking lot and hid myself behind a car where nobody could see me. I was crying.

He doesn't love me. Why did I let my love take over my mind?

I hated myself. I didn't want to see him again, ever in my life.

I will never talk to him. He ditched me. But he never said that he loves me. But he tweeted me. He tweets this to his fans. No, whatever I will not talk to him. But I will lose a friend.

My mind was blowing up. I didn't know what to do.

"Be a friend... Be a friend..." I mumbled and relaxed myself and went to cafeteria.

"What happened? Are you alright?" He asked me in a concerned tone.

"Yes, I was feeling nauseous. That's why I ran. I am sorry." I apologized.

"It's okay." He replied me back.

"What were you saying?" I asked him in a fervent tone.

He hesitated a little, but then continued.

"I was saying, you need to help me. I want to buy some stuff for Sally, and I don't know any girl's thing. So, you got to help me with this." He was almost whispering.

"You have a girl and you didn't tell me?" I asked him in an angry tone because I was hurt.

"Shhh!" He shushed me. "Don't say it out loud nobody knows. You are my friend that's why I am telling you. Now help me." He whispered the word to my face, and I shivered.

"Okay." I whispered back. Our faces were so close. When I realized a moved back

"So, what's the plan? When are we going? I mean after school or tomorrow or when?" I asked him the plan.

"Today after school." He said to me while typing something on the phone

Must be talking to Sally. I thought to myself and it broke me a little.

"We will do some shopping and after that we will hang out with Sally." He suggested me when he was done typing the text.

"You want me to meet Sally?" I asked him, Shocked.

"Yes, you are my friend. You guys should be friends too. And she is really nice. you will love her."

I would rather kill her. I thought but didn't say anything just smiled.

"You want to eat something?" He asked me.

"No, I am good. Thanks."

He nodded and went to get him something to eat.

"Let's go." He said to me.

I sat in his black car. It was drenched with his smell. It was making me dizzy. I took a deep breath and tried to mesmerize the smell. We stopped at a shopping mall and then to another mall. We shopped at least for an hour. Finally, we picked a dress for Sally and then we went to meet her.

I hated this time. He was really happy, and my heart was broken into million pieces. He was so happy about Sally, telling me things they do together, their hangouts, their first meeting. I was crying inside if only he could see my tears.

He played the radio and it was their song playing "I Wish" it kind of suited my condition 'Oh how I wish that was me'. This song bought tears to my eyes. I couldn't control them anymore and tears streamed down my face. I turned my face to the window and show real interest outside. I cleared my eyes and relaxed myself. And he didn't stop talking about her.

Finally, we reached. We didn't come out of the car. He called Sally and asked her to come out.

A skinny brunette girl came out of the house. She was really pretty, green eyes with perfect nose. She was perfect and it made me jealous. I wasn't pretty at all. That was my thought when I saw her, and I realized why I am not with Zayn. She looked at me and frowned a little. I got confused.

I moved back and she sat in front seat with Zayn. I didn't like it at all. I wanted to run out of car, but it was Zayn who held me back. She looked at me and gave me a disgusting look. Now I was scared.

"Who is she?" She whispered but I heard it anyway.

Zayn introduced us

"Sall, this is Mary. The girl that I told you about." They talked about me. Ew

Sally gave me a sarcastic smile and turned to Zayn. My eyes were wet

"I know. What is she doing here?" She whispered. Zayn was embarrassed. He laughed and replied

"I told you we are coming." And eyed her a little. This was getting really awkward. I was about to say that 'I should go' but Sally spoke before me.

"Zayn, I need to talk to you alone." She said that out loud.

"Yes. I think I should go" I said awkwardly.

"Mary?" Someone called my name which made me jump, I turned around.

"Harry?" It was Harry. What Harry was doing here? "What are doing here?" I asked him

He didn't reply me just grabbed my arm and pushed me in his car. I saw some fans coming to him. He just rushed into the car and pressed the accelerator.

"Thank God. I found you." He said.

And got me confused

"Found me? I wasn't lost" I told him. Pressing my cheeks in an attempt to calm the heat coming off of them.

"I know..." He said but I interrupted him.

"What are you doing? Where are you taking me?" I asked him in a worry

"Zayn called me and said you took off on your own." What Zayn called him?

I didn't want to think about it again, even though it was the only thing I was thinking about.

"Yeah." I replied looking down because I was crying again. He saw me crying and asked politely

"What happened?"

"We were supposed to hang out with Sally..." I started saying with a shaky voice, but he interrupted me this time.

"Oh Sally. Now I understand what happened." He made a disgusting sound. It made me curious to know what he was thinking.

He parked the car in front of my house as I asked.

"What? What do you mean?" He turned his face to me.

"Sally is a mean bitch. I don't know why Zayn is so damn crazy about her. She doesn't even deserve his 1% love." He said in an angry tone.

I was lost. I didn't know what to answer. Was it Harry, his friend who called Sally, his girlfriend, a bitch? I was shocked

"Why Zayn loves her? I mean... if she is mean why...?" I asked him. I was inquisitive to know why he would say something like this.

"We don't know. You know one-time Sally tried to break up with Zayn. Zayn actually begged her on his knees to stay." As he said that I felt my heart stopped. Tear streamed down my face.

He loves her a lot. He forgot his ego in front of her. His image 'a Bradford bad boy'. It was nothing in front of her.

I couldn't stop crying. I was hating my life again. I loved my mum she left me alone. I loved my brother he left me alone and now I was madly in love with Zayn and he was madly in love with someone else.

Great

"I am alone" I sobbed. Uncontrollably.

He got confused on my over-reaction as I was just 'a friend' but, tried to relax me.

"Hey, you are not alone." He said placing his hand on my shoulder.

"I am. Everybody I loved left me. My mother, my brother..." I stopped and rubbed my cheeks to clean the tears.

"How did your mother and brother die?'' He asked me after a pause, almost whispering.

I took a deep breath and said "My brother died of leukemia, when he was 7 months old. I was 9. I still remember, how much I loved him. After that my mother got really depressed, because she couldn't have any more children. She got brain tumor and... died"

I started crying. I covered my face with my hand because my life couldn't suck more.

"And now Zayn. I love him to death and now he..." I spoke with my hands covering my face.

Then suddenly I heard Harry blows his nose. I looked up. His green eyes were red, he cried too but that time he was just staring at me, eyebrows pulled, mouth slightly apart. And then I realized that I confessed. I love Zayn

"You love Zayn?"

I stared at my hands and just nodded.

He let out his breath sharply and said "Great."

I looked at him from the corner of my eyes. I couldn't understand the expression on his face. He was disturbed. He was sad.

There were several moments of silence. it was irritating me.

"I am going." I finally spook.

He lifted his head in the shock. "Where?" and questioned.

"Home." I pointed at my home and gave him that "obviously" look.

"Oh" He replied and put his head on the head rest and let put a breath. he must have forgotten that we were already standing in front of my house.

"Bye" I said, and he just nodded not looking at me.

I got out of the car and started walking to my house. My thoughts were running like the speed of light. My day was worst, worse than ever. Now the last hope that I might get Zayn in my life was lost. I was lost.

That girl doesn't deserve his love. She is mean but no one can tell this to Zayn.

I was feeling for Zayn but at the same time I was hating him. I took a deep breath and cleared my blurry, wet eyes.

I entered the house. My aunt was in the living room. I went to her and sat beside her without saying anything. She looked at me and I smiled. But she didn't. She was worried. Something happened.

"What happened?" I asked her, placing my one hand on her shoulder. She took a deep breath.

"Your dad called." She stopped for a moment and stared at me. It caught my breath.

"He said that from now on he won't send the money because he is having some financial crisis." Lair. "He wants you to work because you are almost 17.". She completed and I sigh.

"I know my birthday is like in 25 days. How can I... find work in this short time?" I spoke but then realize it wasn't my call. My dad was responsible of all that shit happening. I just sigh and I went to my room.

I wasn't feeling anything. I was emotionless. I didn't know what to do. Should I scream or should I cry. I sat on the edge of my bad and stared at the paper on which I wrote 'I NEED TO STOP MYSELF'. I sigh and lied back to back. I started staring at the ceiling. I was confused which thing I should think about. Should it be Zayn and Sally thingy, or should I think about how to take care of myself.

Zayn is not going to be mine. He loves someone else.

My heart didn't want to believe it, but I had to accept the fact. I needed to be strong now. There was something else which was bothering me beside Zayn and my dad. I wasn't crying. My eyes were dry as a desert.

I took a deep breath as I thought that now I could not be a burden on my aunt anymore. I knew that if I tell her that, she would be hurt because she was the who wanted me to call her 'mommy'. But I knew that this can't go long. My aunt had to suffer a lot and I couldn't afford it. I needed to do something.

She didn't call me for dinner, and I wasn't hungry. I really wanted to talk to someone. I needed Zayn but I was not strong enough to call him. So, I searched Harry's number in my contact list. I remembered that I took it when we meet at his house. Finally, I found it. I hit the call, but I got scared and cancelled it. I threw my cell phone. I covered my face and started breathing heavily.

What have I done?

I was feeling nauseous. Now my view was getting blurry. My eyes were getting wet. I started crying finally. But it was silent. I didn't scream. I didn't even cry loudly.

My phone vibrated and my heart skipped a beat. I picked it up and it was Harry. My eyes bulged out.

I picked the call.

"Hello?" I spoke.

"Hey, babe you called?" He replied. Damn it, I cancelled the call late. I didn't know what to answer. I didn't speak.

"Hello?" He said again making me jerk. And a tear streamed down my face. Shoot I was crying. I knew that if I spook now, he will know that I am crying. I didn't speak this time too.

"Mary? Are you Okay?" He asked me now a bit worried

"Yes..." I finally replied. My voice was shaky, and he got that I was crying

"Are you crying?" He asked me in a loud shocking tone.

That was it. I couldn't hold any longer and I started sobbing.

"Hey... Hey... What happened?" He was suddenly so polite and concerned.

"My dad..." He cut me off

"Your dad? What did he do? What happened Mary?" When he asked this. I was shocked because I didn't tell him anything about my father. Does he know about my father?

"Mary. What happened?" He asked me again when he didn't get any answer from me.

"You knew about my father?" As the thought hit my mind, my mouth spoke the words.

"Yes, Zayn told me." He replied in an almost whisper.

Zayn knew about my father. How the hell did he know about my father.

My mind went somewhere else, but Harry brought it back

"Anyway, what happened?" He asked me again and i told him everything.

"He said that now he won't send me any money for myself and i have to earn myself. because i am almost 17 now. and he thinks that I should work." I said it all without breathing and took a sharp breath when I was done.

"Oh..." that was all what he said.

I stopped crying and breath heavily and spoke to him again.

"I don't know what to do Harry. I really don't want to be a burden on my aunt. But what should I do in this short time?" I asked him in my shaky voice. He didn't reply me. So, I continued.

"I have no idea what is going on in my life. It's like and explosive that occurred and boom every Important thing is flying away in pieces." I said, blowing my nose.

This time Harry spoke.

"Babe meet me tomorrow. After lunch."

"I have school." I told him coldly.

"It Saturday." He replied calmly.

"Oh! Okay I will be there." I said and hung up the phone. I laughed a little. How much I was lost that I didn't even know what day it was. I lied on my bed and tried to sleep. Finally, I hit the sleep.

The night was Dreamless but restless.

I woke up when my stomach growled. I stretched myself up and searched my cell phone to see the time

Oh! it's 1PM already and my aunt didn't wake me up. I threw myself up and ran to the washroom. I got ready. I kept my dressing simple. When I got ready, I ran downstairs.

"Hey baby, you are up." Aunt Emily said hugging me.

"Yeah. Why didn't you wake me up?" I asked her.

"I just wanted you to get maximum sleep." She said smiling. I smiled back.

We ate lunch, which was a silent event. I was excited to hear what Harry had planned for me.

Harry's house was far, so I went to my back yard and looked at my old car which was covered with a white sheet. My mom gave it to me when I turned 16. I didn't use it after the death of my mom because my school was near and that was the only place, I had to go

I turned on the car and it roared to life.

I sat there in silence as all the memories of me with my mum ran in to my mind.

My cell vibrated which broke the train of my thoughts. I sign and said

"Harry. I am coming." But when I looked at my cell phone it wasn't Harry. It was Zayn. My breath stuck in my throat. I picked up the call holding my breath

"Hello?" I said.

"Hey Mary. How are you?" He asked me, casually.

"I am good and you?" I replied, casually.

"Listen Babe," There he goes"What happened yesterday. I am so sorry for that. I never thought that it would turn out that way. Sally liked you a lot, but she was shocked to see you suddenly" Haa. Love bird, defending her.

I was hating Sally more because of what Harry told me.

"It's okay Zayn. I understand." I replied like it was not that much important. But it was important, very important to me.

You broke my heart and I don't love you anymore.I thought

I made myself to accept that I didn't love Zayn but deep inside I knew that if he had broken my heart into million pieces, I loved him with every piece. But I didn't accept that time.

"So, want to hang out?" He asked me, giving me the choice.

"I am sorry I have to go somewhere. Family Issues." As I said 'Family issues' he seemed to understand.

I needed to have a discussion with him about what and how, he knew about my family.

"Oh! Okay tomorrow then?"

"Yeah." I replied.

"Okay then. See you." He said and hung up the call.

I took a deep breath and went to Harry's house

"Hey babe." He hugged me as he saw me on his doorsteps

"Wow, you have a car." and continued as he saw my car. I just nodded and went inside.

I just wanted everything to be great for me. I just wanted Zayn in my life and a happy life which was kind of impossible for me.

I turned to Harry and opened my mouth to ask him what he wanted to say to me.

"So Har-- " I got cut of when Harry's lips crushed mine.

ZAYN'S P.O.V

"Why did you do that babe?" I asked Sally when Mary left the car.

I was feeling badly for Mary. I was worried for her because I knew that we were far away from her house. Sally was about to say something, but I lifted a finger and stopped her. Meanwhile, I called Harry.

"Yeah, Dude" I said to him as he answered the phone "Mary left the car and we are near -------- market can you just pick her."

"Mary left the car? What? Why?" He started questioning me and I couldn't afford his questions at the time.

"I will tell later." I said and hung up the call without listening another word.

As I hung up the call, Sally spoke

"Why did you bring her? You know I don't like girls with you." She was almost yelling at me.

She was angry. I needed to calm her down.

"Come on Babe, she can never replace you and you know it" I said hugging her.

I saw the gift I and Mary bought for her, but I planned not to give her.

All the remaining day I spent with her. We ate lunch together at her house. We both were quiet. She wasn't talking much and I, well I was worried about Mary. I left Harry a lot of messages, but he didn't reply. I was scared.

Is Mary alright? Is she reached home? Omg she must be so hurt. Why did I do that her? I should have stopped her. My thoughts were eating my head.

I looked up to sally, she was standing right in front of me. She was texting someone. I stood up

"I am going home." I said to her. I waited for a minute or two for her reply, but she didn't

"I AM GOING HOME." I said again, yelling a bit.

She looked up from her phone and replied

"Okay" That it. Okay? I was hoping a kiss but huh! Never mind.

I didn't say anything else and I drove myself home. I was distracted. Mary was on my mind all the time.

I stopped my car in front of my house, and I looked at Mary's house. It was peaceful. I didn't want to go to my house, so I called Harry

"Dude, where are you?" I asked as he answered the phone.

"I am home. Why?" He replied me.

"Nothing. I am coming over. You found Mary?" Finally, I asked

"Yeah, I dropped her home. And yeah, you better come. I need to talk to you"

"On my way." I said and cancelled the call.

I was tensed.

What Harry wants to talk to me about? Is it about Mary?I was losing my mind.

I sped up the car and tried to reach as soon as possible to get out of this mental torture. I entered the house as the door was unlocked. Harry was talking to someone on the phone. He saw me and smile. My face was straight.

"Babe, meet me tomorrow after lunch." He said on the phone and after a pause he said again.

"It's Saturday." And then he hung up the phone.

"Hi" I said. He looked at me and nodded.

"What happened?" Harry asked me as I threw myself on his sofa.

"Nothing dude Sally over-reacted when she saw Mary in my car and she just..." I was so embarrassed that I didn't even finish the sentence.

"Mary was hurt." Harry said stabbing my heart with his words.

I hated myself for hurting Mary. For all she had been through, now I was the one who hurt her.

I planned that I will try and make her happy and now she was unhappy because of me.

"I know." I almost whispered to Harry.

My head was exploding. I pinched the bridge of my nose and rested my head on the back of the sofa. I really wanted to sleep. And I slept on the sofa.

I woke up when something broke in the kitchen. I jerked my head up from the sofa to see in the kitchen. Harry broke something. I checked my mobile it was one message I checked but it was Sally. I was hoping Mary.

Why sally's message didn't brought smile to my face. I questioned myself. I read the text

"Good morning Babe. I am going out with friend can't meet you today. Sorry love you. xx"

I sigh and got up because it was almost Half past 1.

"Are you going?" Harry asked me when he saw that I am up

"No. Should I?" I asked him, giving him confused expressions

"No. was just asking. You want to sleep, use my room." He said.

I rose up from the sofa and went to his room. I was worried. I threw myself in his bed.

Should I call Mary? Oh! God how will I face her. But at least I should call her. I should apologize her. Yes, I will apologize her.I thought and I hit her number

"Hello" She said as she picked the call. I felt relive when I heard her voice. I don't why. I felt satisfied. I felt good.

"Hey Mary, how are you?" I asked her

"I am good you?" She replied me back

Apologize Zayn Apologize!

"Listen babe, what happened yesterday I am so sorry for that. I never thought that it would turn out that way. Sally liked you a lot, but she was shocked to see you suddenly." I tried to clear Sally because I really wanted Mary and Sally to be friends.

"It's okay Zayn. I understand." She replied but I knew that she was hurt.

"So, want to hang out?" I asked her because it was Saturday and I had nothing to do. And I really wanted to see her,

"I am sorry. I have to go somewhere. Family issues" She replied. And I understood.

"Oh! Okay. Tomorrow then?" I asked again hoping to get a yes that time.

"Yeah" her 'yeah' actually made my heart really happy.

"Okay then, see you" I said with the huge smile on my face and hung up the call.

I went to washroom and washed my face. After sometimes, I heard Harry Greeting someone. I went downstairs

"Wow you have a car" he said

And I stopped right on the second last stair as I saw who he was greeting. It was Mary. I couldn't see her face, but I knew it was her. Harry was watching me and then Mary and then me. I gave him a 'What the hell is going on' look and he turned his face back to Mary. Mary started to say something

"So Har..." But Harry grabbed her waist and kissed her lips.

My jaw dropped.