Okay call this my awakening, call this just confusion, call it what you will. Fate. Destiny. sorry tangled reference. Lordy this is gonna be chaotic.
      Okay so I wasnt AWARE that I was even questioning but like I knew something's up.  Like people all thought I was gay a little and in 5th grade, my friend let's call her Barney (oh gosh). So Barney-..*dies laughing*... decided to start a rumor (omg I'm actually laughing to the point of tears rn lmaooo)
that I was gay because we were on a sports team and there was this girl LETS CALL HER SPORKY (I-...bahaha)  so apparently I was looking at sporky...*dies*...like in a "gay way" (that's what she FRICKING said to everyone)
Okay so I vividly remember this. Barney and everyone were crowded on the tire swing and talking about me...being G A Y....so 5th grade me decides to walk up there and scream "I AM NOT A HOMOSEXUAL"

yes.

I said that.

I know..  HEY DONT LAUGH AT ME. I was in 5th grade okay?!?!?

So barney is like prove it. And naturally I'm like how in the h3ll do you want me to prove I'm not gay...??? (I didnt actually say h3ll. I was a lil baby.)

And they were like tell us who you like and so I told them and they were like your lying and I'm like WHADDYA WANT ME TO DO

so the rest of that year I was considered gay. I wonder why..

Okay so 6th grade. So basically that was the year the G L O R I O U S  hit of realization hit me. I was questioninggggg!!! Yayyy!
I found out it wasnt normal to wonder what it would be like to have a girlfriend and want a girlfriend and like all that jazz. So that was fun. Everyone knew I was gay. Except me. Like-...did I not think MAYBE I was TOO OBVIOUSLY gay when like twenty girls asked me out that year? Not even a lil? Like I was the weird kid. H3LL I HAD A PIXIE CUT THAT YEAR. jesus lord. I wore guy clothes. I-..I was so..so..gay.

*intense laughter*