It had been about three weeks since that night. Three weeks of passing Calvin in the hallways and him not even taking one glance in my direction.

He was upset with me and it was dangerously evident. He doesn't come by the house anymore, my brothers don't want me to feel awkward around him.

My brothers were somewhat mad at him for awhile before they just let it go and became friends again. They will always hang out at school or anywhere else but where I am.

As it may be my brothers that are taking my feelings into consideration, it is very evident that Calvin is the one who doesn't want to come over.

I mean, I can't really blame him after I pretty much humiliated him in front of my brothers and dad.

But he deserved it, didn't he? I mean, he humiliated me really bad.. That's not the point; what I did was way worse and unforgivable.

Ugh, not to mention that night we were supposed to go for dinner for our last night with Aaron and I totally bombed that.

The car ride to the restaurant was absolutely horrific; for me anyways. Nobody said a word, except for my dad who tried to lighten the mood.

"So how's that for a last night with the Reynolds' huh? You sure you wanna leave, Aaron?" I remember my dads nervous chuckle as he gazed out onto the shinning asphalt.

"Oh, I'm sure, Dad." He retorted with a humourless laugh.

My heart sunk in my chest as I heard his painfully stabbing words. They replayed in my mind over and over again.

To be honest, I don't think those words will ever leave my head. They will be stuck in their for an endless eternity replaying their wicked rhyme.

Dinner ended shortly that night, dad managed to light Aaron up a bit and they were laughing. I didn't really talk, I just quietly ate my food.

Dylan and Lucas tried engaging me into their conversation but I didn't say much other than that.

So much fun for a last dinner that you'll have for five months with your brother, am I right? Yeah.

I said goodbye to Aaron as he was finished packing the car with his things. He just said goodbye and gave me a hug, I could tell it was forced.

Dad was driving him to the airport as they both made their ways into the car and drove away.

I just stood in the driveway and burst out into tears. I cried and cried and cried.

Aaron left with us being on bad terms, I had ruined dinner, completely humiliated Calvin. All my feelings just rushed right out as I fell to our stoned driveway, not even caring about the scrape on my knee from the impact.

I cried into Lucas' arms as he held me, telling me that it was okay and that Aaron was just upset and that he still loves me.

I felt so beyond terrible, for being a bad person to Calvin; not giving him any respect. I was a bad sister, I lied to Aaron when he goes out of his way always to protect me from the world and what vicious things creep around in it.

He has always wanted the best for me and I just threw it back into his face and lied to him about everything.

I'm surprised Dylan and Lucas weren't mad at me, I lied to them too; about knowing Calvin and having a history with him prior.

I ended up crying myself to sleep that night, Lucas and Dylan tried to stay with me but I told them I wanted to be alone and they reluctantly left.

They did make sure that if I wanted anything that I would call them and they would get me whatever.

I'm thankful for my brothers, even if they may be upset with me they still make sure that I'm doing okay.

I was currently lying diagonally across my bed as babe rexha rang through the earbuds currently placed in my ears.

My eyes were closed. I had just finished all my homework for the weekend about an hour ago so I didn't have much to do.

A soft knock echoed from my door as I sat up and took one earbud out to make sure someone was actually there and I wasn't imagining things in my delusional state.

The knock echoed again and I spoke up, "It's open."

The door opened to reveal the two people in this world that could definitely succeed in lightening up my spirits.

"Hey guys," I smiled at the blonde and brunette. "What are you doing here?"

Mere gave me a sympathetic smile, "Well, since Amanda and I have been so busy this week and haven't had time for just the three of us, we're here for a sleepover."

"Yeah, we haven't had time to see how you're doing this week with the whole Calvin thing so we were thinking a girls night," Amanda smiled. "Mani petties, face masks, and a movie date with Freddie Prince Jr." She continued, pulling out the 'She's all That' dvd from her bag and waggling her eyebrows.

"That's really sweet of you guys, I'm happy you're both here. But, I'm fine. I'm not upset over this whole Calvin thing. We were not even really friends. Besides, it happened like three weeks ago." I lied.

Amanda gave me an incredulous look like she wasn't buying my bull as she plopped down on my bed beside me. "You're a terrible liar, my friend."

"If you need to talk, we're here. Please tell us what's on your mind, we really want to make sure you're okay and if there is anything we can do if you're not, Ly." Mere chirped as she took the spot on my right.

I smiled at her, "Thank you guys. I don't know what I'd do without you two."

They both leaned in and hugged me tightly as we all fell back onto the bed. We were laughing, our laughs only got more harder when we realized we were laughing.

After about five minutes lying there and giggling, I sat up. "Okay girls, it's time for our date with Freddie!" I laughed as I snatched the dvd from Amanda's bag and waved it in the air.

That was the first time I actually genuinely smiled in three weeks after Aaron left and I humiliated Calvin.

The weekend had went by pretty fast. It was now Monday morning as I struggled to get out of bed. Amanda and Mere ended up staying over the whole weekend and I was whipped.

I ran down our carpeted staircase as I was immediately greeted by an amazing aroma of freshly made crêpes. I moaned in delight as I hopped over to the fridge and grabbed a glass of orange juice.

Pouring it in a cup, I chugged it down before turning around to my brothers and dad who were just smiling at me.

"You seem happy." Dylan smiled as he poured batter into the pan on the stovetop for another crêpe.

I shrugged, "Amanda and Mere slept over."

"Yeah, I heard. The whole weekend they were here." He laughed.

Lucas gave me a plate with a crêpe on it as I took the seat beside my dad at the counter. "Good morning." I smiled at him.

"Good morning sweetheart, how was your sleep?" He asked, glancing at me from his newspaper.

"Good, thanks." I said.

"Good." He smiled, her green eyes glinting.

"You got ten minutes Ly before we have to go." Dylan said, packing his books into his backpack.

"Roger that." I said, finishing my plate and dumping it into the sink before running up the stairs to retrieve my bag.

To say I was a bit nervous for today was  not a lie. When Amanda and Mere were over, they advised that I talk to Calvin and figure things out.

They were right, that's what I needed to do. There's been this void inside me filled of just pure guilt that I haven't been able to shake. It's been with me what ever I do and wherever I go.

I can't stand the looks Calvin gives me in the hallways as I pass by him. The glint in his eyes that tells me he shouldn't have said anything for the sake of his vulnerability showcasing through.

That he knew he couldn't befriend me but then there's this other look. A look that shows utter pain. A look that makes him look stuck. A look that he doesn't know what to do or how to fix whatever it is that needs fixing.

My heart yearns and my breaks every time I see that look in his eyes that tells me he's broken.

I run down the stairs after I grab my bag and slip on my shoes as I walk out to meet Dylan getting into the car.

"First one to the car gets shotgun!" Lucas exclaims from behind me as we both bolt to the car. We get there at the same time and fight for the seat as we push and shove.

"I got here first Lucas." I exclaimed while laughing uncontrollably.

"No, I did!" Lucas shoots back. "Dyl, tell Lyla that I'm sitting in the front."

Dylan gets out of the driver's seat and looks at us, "Wow, I didn't know I had three brothers."

I looked at him menacingly as he laughed, "Back off Lucas, no chipping the paint on my car. Got it?" He smirked. "Ly gets shotgun."

Lucas rolls his eyes, "Only this time, Ly." He sticks his tongue out at me before getting into the backseat.

I stick my tongue out in response before slipping into the passenger seat.

"So I have three brothers and two of them act five year olds huh." Dylan realized as he smirked, the car engine roared to life.

"Shut up! It's a twin thing that you wouldn't understand." I say.

Dylan just laughs in response as we take off from the house to school.

"Ly." Dylan says as his eyes don't leave the road in front of him after about a couple minutes of driving.

I look at him absentmindedly, "Yeah?"

"Is everything okay?" He asks.

"Is what okay?" I ask confused.

"Like everything with Calvin and Aaron. Are you doing okay?" He explained further.

My breath hitched as Lucas listened intently to our conversation from the back. I stay silent for a minute trying to come up with an answer before it comes, "It will be."

He looks over at me once we reach the stoplight. He nods, "Okay. Good." He smiles and I return a smile to him.

"You think you're going to talk to Aaron soon?" Lucas chirps.

I nod, "Yeah, I feel terrible and I want to talk to Aaron and apologize. He deserves it," I pause for a second. "You guys deserve an apology too."

Lucas looks at me as I turn around to have them both in my eyesight, Dylan is looking ahead to keep his eyes on the road.

"I didn't just lie to Aaron, I lied to you guys too. I didn't tell you that I knew Calvin when I did. He was just really annoying and sometimes rude to me. I don't really know why I lied to you guys about it but-"

"Do you like Calvin more than a friend?" Lucas interrupts.

"What? No! Of course not. We barely know each other." I explain, shocked they would ask me that. "Why would you ask me that?"

Lucas shrugged, "I don't know. I was just thinking that could be a reason you didn't tell us in fear of us getting mad or whatever but, you don't like him so never mind. Go on."

I hesitated for a second before continuing, "You guys were there for me even when I lied to you. I don't even know why you guys haven't pushed me away like Aaron has. I just want to apologize now. I'm sorry for lying to you guys."

"We will never leave you, no matter what. We're your brothers and when you need us we will be there no matter if we're on good or bad terms. You can always trust us to be there." Lucas said.

"Exactly what Lucas said, Ly. We're family and we're going to stick by each other always. Just tell us if there's something wrong rather than just lying about it next time, okay?" Dylan smiled at me as we rolled into the parking lot of our school.

I hugged them both as we all got out, "Of course. Thanks, I love you guys. I'll see you later, okay?" I smiled at them as they nodded and I began to try and find Calvin.

I walked over to his locker and there he stood, but what he was doing was shocking.

I walked up to him slowly and hesitantly as I adjusted my backpack strap. He didn't look up, just spoke. "What are you doing here?"

His voice was laced with anger and disgust and sadness all mixed into one. My heart sunk but I had to ignore it, "I didn't know you read Shakespeare." I said, ignoring his question.

He just shrugged, "I like to try new things, I don't judge a book by its cover before I read it, y'know?"

I sighed at his comment about judging as we both stood there in silence. He looked up at me, closing his book. "Is there a reason you're here, or do you just want to judge me on my reading choices too?"

"Judge you?" I paused, sighing. "Calvin, I'm not here to judge you or start any fights."

"Then why are you here Lyla?" He questioned.

"I wanted to apologize for what I said, for embarrassing you-"

"You didn't embarrass me, Lyla. I'm a big boy, I can take crap."

"Calvin, can you let me finish without interrupting?" I asked, looking into his eyes.

"Maybe." He replied seriously.

I looked at him as a small smile tested the edge on the one corner of my lips. "Are you joking with me right now?"

"About what?"

I sighed, "Never mind. As I was saying, I wanted to apologize. What I said was way out of line and you don't have to forgive me but, I just hope you know that I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said what I said without knowing the whole story first."

He remained silent, his eyes boring into mine before they left my gaze and dropped to the floor.

I looked at him sadly, we were standing really close. Close enough, that I could feel his deep sense of brokenness that was hid by his tough exterior.

We stood there silently before I did something unthinkable. I leaned in and hugged him tightly.

I hugged him as an apology, to give him a sense of belonging, to tell him that I'm here if he needs anything.

He was caught off guard at first before he hesitantly hugged me back. It wasn't just any hug though. It was a hug that made it seem like we had known each other for years on end even if we only really started talking until the beginning of eleventh grade.

He arms hugged my waist tightly as we stood there in each other's arm for a couple seconds, and a weird feeling coursed through my body, making me numb at our contact.

The feeling formed butterflies in my stomach but, I just pushed it away. It wasn't anything I should worry about too much, I hoped.

I pulled away slowly, as the instant heat of his body was replaced by the cool air circulating around the school. "I'm here if you need to talk. I'm sorry, again." I smiled lightly as his eyes never left mine.

He stayed silent before nodding as I walked to my first class, instantly feeling a huge weight been lifted from my shoulders.

I smiled in satisfaction at what I had done. Now, it was time to make things right with Aaron.

The weird thing about talking to Calvin today and the hug was that I felt something different from what I have ever felt with anyone, even with Spencer and it confused me.

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