You'll never see through my disguise
You'll never see the pain in my eyes
You'll never see the world the way I see the world
'Cause you'll never know the girl behind the girl you think you know

I'm living in a body that's fighting to survive
While my fucked up mind is trying to die
And you'll never feel the way that I always feel
You'll never see behind the things you see all the time

'Cause every thought is a battle
And every breath is a war
But to me it doesn't matter
That I'm not winning anymore

But if life is a game
And my body's trying to survive
It's already game over
'Cause my mind's already died

So you'll never see through my disguise
You'll never see the tears in my eyes
Even when I'm shouting for help and you're also shouting for help
You don't know I'm shouting to myself, I wanna help myself

But help needs to be given, it can't be taken
But my mind won't give me help until my life has been taken
So I'll take my life tonight and you'll say you hate your life
But you have so much to live for, you have so much to do and the person you need to live for is you and only you

You have so much to live for
You have so many open doors
I have nothing to live for and I'm not worth living for
Because all my doors are shut and I'm the one who shut those doors

So don't shut those doors before people come in
'Cause I shut all those doors the second my worry kicked in
Live your life to the fullest, even when I have no life
Live life like it's the last day but don't ever choose your last day

Maybe one day, when you're old and grey
That day will be your real last day
Don't take your life the way I'll take my life
Just stay alive for me and stay alive for you

Ugh basically I wrote this song about my friend and me because we both have constant cravings for death 😬😂

Idk. I was gonna send this to her but it turned out so shit. Idk why I even post if I say my things are shit, y'all must think I'm and idiot

But idk. I like hearing ur opinions on what I write. Plus, I haven't updated anything since 26 Days Of Klaine finished so take this as a peace offering  

Also
That casual tøp reference