[12.06.2018]

The water is so warm... I think I could relax but...

Hold on. You can do it. You've always did that, why should you give up now?

I look at the blade in my right hand.

Because I'm tired.

First cut.

I'm tired of all of this.

Second cut.

I'm tired I'm not perfect, not even enough...

Third cut.

I'm tired of myself, I'm tired of throwing millions of attempts, I'm tired wasting love for someone that doesn't need me in his entire life.

Are you talking of...

Yes. I hate him. And I hate myself.

But now you have him... what about this...?

I love him... I really love him...

But...?

But I don't think I'm the right person for him...

So, are you still determined...?

Yes... I'm sorry for him but... I'm not the right person...

As you wish...

I am determined. The water is so warm... but the blood is warm too...

The last cut...

Goodbye...