I wake up to an unfamiliar place, then I remember. I remember everyone here with me. The nurses that have been giving me sleep medicine, the tech guys/girls. I remember it all.

Today is March 5th, 2016 and I've admitted myself into a hospital. My depression has gotten out of hand again. I can't do it on my own, and I feel like God is too busy to help me, but I know He isn't.

I get up out of the bed that has my things on it. I really don't want to get up off of the bed, but I know I have to. But maybe five more minutes... And I lay back down.

***

"-sei. Meisei! MEISEI!" I jolt up and see Mackenzie, she's one of the tech girls. Hearing her scream my name is not good. How much longer was I out? "Thank goodness you're awake! Breakfast is almost here, and we're having fruit loops for the cereal, bacon and eggs, and apple juice..." She continued on about how today will be a great day. I can't hear anything after that, Trinidy was saying desperately that she needed out. I couldn't shift right now though, with everyone watching my every move.

"Meisei? Did you hear anything I said?" Mackenzie questions.

"Y-yes ma'am." I lie.

"Okay. Well, lets go eat."

I'm not going to eat, but I get up anyway. I head to the lounging area and sit down. Some teens are playing cards, so I ask if I can play.

"Sure!" Joey said. He showed me how to play Malarkey. I've played before, I just didn't know there were so many names for it.

We played the game for a little while, until it was time to do goals. I was first since my last name starts with B.

"Depression level?" Nurse Susie asked me.

"10" I said.

"Anxiety?"

"10"

"Anger?"

"5"

"And what's your goal for today?"

"Become better at dealing with my problems."

Once everyone is finished with their goals, it's free time. I decide to play cards. I think a lot as well. Was I too harsh on Adam, or was he too harsh on me? I decide to call him with his number I had memorized.

"Hello?" He answers. I thank God he actually answered. "Hello?"

"O-oh! S-sorry Adam. It's Meisei. I wanted to talk to you." I say desperately. I really need to talk to someone who knows I'm a wolf.

"Ok, could you come to the church? I'm working today."

"About that, I need you to come here. I'm not aloud to leave the premises. I'm... at PBH again..."

"Oh goodness. Have you been..."

"N-No!" I don't need him to say the last word. I already. Knew he would say that.

"Okay, I will be up there when visiting hours are open. Until then, bye."

"Bye."

And we hung up.

***

About an hour passed when it was time for a lesson.

***

I can't believe it took an hour for the lesson. It was almost lunch time, and I said I had to use the bathroom. I went into my room and locked the door. I then went to the bathroom, and locked the bathroom door as well. I closed my eyes and shifted. It hurts, but if I didn't soon, Trinidy would come out on her own, in front of everyone...

Once I am completely shifted into Trinidy, she decides to bark... I quickly shit back. Suddenly there's a knock at the door.

"Is everything alright Meisei?"

"Y-yea!" I holler out.

I quickly unlock the door and come out. The hospital has a key for everyone's room. Good thing I choose to shift in my bathroom.

"It's time for another group." Jacob said. He must be the one leading this group.

In the group we talk about Jacob's past and how he used to always get in trouble. We each got to share one thing we got in trouble for and then it was over.

***

It was supper time. I'm still not eating, and it's almost time to line up and go back for our last group for the day.

During the group I was called to take me nighttime meds. I wonder why Adam didn't come see me today. Did I tell him too late? He can't come tomorrow, because tomorrow is Sunday. He has to do announcements and work for the church and...

"Meisei? Please go take your meds." Nurse Becky said.

"Y-yes ma'am." I stuttered.

I head to the water fountain and fill up my plastic cup. I take my meds and go head to my room. I go to sleep.

***
Hello! This chapter is a tad bit shorter than usual, but I think it's good to end here. I will be working on my Minecraft book as soon as this is up. It won't be up today or tomorrow though, I have to go to a fair, but it'll be up by the end of the month.

Anyway, bye for now!

~Lexi