(March 7, 2016)

I'm still at PBH, but I've gotten a little better. I've been here for three days, now. Adam didn't see me yesterday, because of church. I look around, and find out I got a roommate over night. I head out into the living area, and see that the techs are already out there, waiting on people to come. I was the first person out this time. I want to go back to sleep, but I can't since I'm already out here.

I go to my room to get my sketchbook. I come back out and sit in silence, just drawing. Draw an eye with three crosses in the pupil. In the middle cross, I drew Jesus hanging by the nails that kept him up there. I want to give this to Adam, but I don't know if he'd want it. It would be from me, after all.

I look up and see that people are out here. I see a new girl, she must be my roommate. She comes up to me, "H-hi.. I'm V-Venessa."

"Hey Venessa, I'm Meisei. It's nice to meet you." I say.

"H-hi Meisei.. I-it's nice to meet you t-too." She dwindles off, but sits next to me.

I see out of the corner of my eye, she watches me finish the drawing. I ask a tech if I can use some colored pencils. He says yes, so I grab them from the book/game shelf. They don't have the color I want for the skin, but they have the colors I want for the eye, green and blue. Green on the inside and blue on the outside, just like my own eyes.

I finish the drawing right when the breakfast comes in. I get up to put the colored pencils away then I grab my breakfast. Today we are having pancakes with sausage.

I can't stand the smell and taste of syrup, it gives me headaches. I, once again, don't eat.

Nurse Susie is back for the goals, and I am no longer in first. Venessa Agate is the first to be called.

She goes through hers, then it's my turn.

"Depression level?" She asks.

"7" I reply.

"Anxiety?"

"6"

"Anger?"

"About a 2"

"What's your goal for today?"

"To eat at least once today."

"That's a good goal. Have you still not eaten, yet?"

"No, I haven't."

She moves on to the other 12 people that are here with me.

I draw something else.

***

'He's here, he's actually here!' Trinidy whispers. We're currently eating lunch and I finally decided to eat, one meal at least while I'm here. That's... two meals in a week, I think. I've lost track of days. I'm losing weight, as well. I can tell Trinidy is too.

 'Wait, who is actually here? Is it Adam?!' I ask her.

 'Yes!'

I can believe he actually came! I pretend not to notice when he walks in the cafeteria. I look up and see him looking around, for me. Is... is he actually concerned? I figured he wouldn't care about me after I told him. He actually cares!

I run up and hug him. I ask one techs, Austin, if we could get in one of the meeting rooms. He said yes, and showed us to one of the five meeting rooms.

"So, Meisei, what brought you here this time?" Adam asked once we were alone.

"Well, after Delila rejected me for not wanting to be the Pack Lunas, I got super depressed. I then came to you, after about a week or two, and you pretty much just made me even more depressed. I wonder why I'm here." Wow, now THAT was too harsh. "I-I'm sorry, I-I didn't mean anything by that... We werewolves can be very emotional."

"It's fine, I should've listened to you, and actually believed you. But i looked in the Bible and tried to find something to help you. I found this verse. Just one second please."

He reached for his Bible and flips to a page he has bookmarked. He slides it over to me and has me read the highlited section out loud.

"James 1:18 For He chose to give birth to us by giving us His true word, and we, out of all creation, became His prized possession." I read.

"What does this mean to you?" He asks.

"Well..." I think about it a moment. "To me this means that we are all loved by God, and we are all important to Him."

"Very good. Now, do you promise you won't come back after this?"

"I can't promise that.."

"Why not?"

"I don't know what will happen in the rest of my life. I can't promise that."

"Do your best, okay. I've got to go now, the hour we have together is almost up. When you're out, come talk to me, please. I have some things I'd like to discuss with you."

"O-okay, Adam."

***

After he left, I went to another group, which I missed most of. I was there for about five minutes and then it was over.

It is now time for the movie. We watch a different movie every night. Everyone voted on watching Big Hero 6 for tonight.

I am ready for bed, but I don't want to sleep.

I'm called back to take my meds.

I 'take' them then go straight to my room. I take a drink of water and pretend to take my meds. I really put them in my water AFTER I took a drink, then dumped the rest out.

I head to my room and sit on my bed with the light on.

I sit in silence, and just think. All the sudden I hear a woman's voice, not one I've heard before. I look up and see the woman that died when I was a baby. I've seen pictures of her before, but I never knew her voice, I never imagined her to be this beautiful.

"Hello my baby girl." The woman says

"M-Mom?!" I almost scream.

She walks over to me, but makes no noise. I know this is her ghost, but how am I seeing her? We are not supposed to see dead family members. Not even humans can see dead family members.

"Listen my angel, I don't have much time. I need to tell you this. You have to escape this place. They found you out. You have to get out of here, right away! If you don't, they will test on you... They heard your conversation with Adam. You... you must get away, NOW! I don't want my daughter to die because she was tested on by scientists. Besides, you do have a reason to live. You have another mate waiting for you outside these walls."

Wait, what?! I thought we only had one mate?

Before I was able to ask her anything else, her ghost disappeared.

Hello everyone, I'm sorry this chapter is late. Was it worth the wait? I really need to update I am ThePlantLover. I'll get to that as soon as I can. I don't know when it will be, because I have school.

Until then, bye!

~Lexi B.