BEAM'S POV

​I knew that I shouldn't have accepted to tutor the Nong, it was too dangerous. How come I end up in this situation ? Even I don't know myself.

But it's good for you to know better about me. First, I will tell you about myself. I'm Beam, Beam Vongviphan. I am a medical student, currently in second year, along with my only friends Phana and Kit. They are the only ones that I talk to, in the entire Medical faculty, well not so much but they are the only ones with whom I have been in contact with since I have known them. Usually I don't keep in touch with people for a long time, but with them it was inevitable. I consider them as my bestfriends, they are the only ones that I sometimes go out to drink with at the bar and that has always been a great experience for me.

Going back to my problem, almost after entering the middle school I have been keeping a secret, that for nothing in the world should be discovered. If my secret is discovered, then all my efforts will go straight to waste along with my five years of hardwork.

I have kept a low profile all these years, I don't want to be popular, it's better if no one notices me. I'm only interested in finishing my studies, nothing more. I have never had relationship before, it is not that I don't want to but be with another person for a long time and more if it's as intimate as a courtship, it would be too dangerous.

Due to my good grades during the last exams, I was one of those students who were selected to be part of a tutoring program for the juniors, who help them with their studies to pass different subjects. I couldn't reject the Professor's word since she was very persistent. In the end, much to my regret, I ended up accepting the deal.

(A/N : Phana Kongthanin on left side and Kit Intochar on right side.)

Pha and Kit were there among the other selected students, that calmed me down a bit, at least I would not be alone. With a lot of young people mainly alphas, I was scared, since they could easily discover my secret. But being an optimistic as I am, I have lived with Phana for almost three years and although he is an Alpha, he has not discovered me yet. I pray with all my being that this continues in this way and that none of the Nongs' discovers my secret.

I started giving the tutorials a few weeks before the exam week begins, so that the Nongs won't have a hard time studying for all the subjects together that come their way, especially in Medical faculty, the exams were extremely difficult. Therefore some of the subjects that were taught, needed tutoring.

But well, we are deviating from the main path for which I find myself in such a situation from which I don't know how to get out.

It all started when a Nong who is very sweet and so much cute, whose name is Tony, who confessed to me in the middle of the tutorials, in front of all the students. I didn't know how to react to that, I just remained stunned without being able to speak. Until I fixed my gaze on Tony, who looked very flushed and embarrassed, he still smiled at me though. It is worth mentioning that the Nong has a beautiful smile that fits perfectly with his cute face, short stature, well it is not that I am much taller than him, but I beat him with a few centimeters. His hair is almost brown and he has beautiful eyes. After thinking about it, I realized that N'Tony is a beta, he would be perfect since he wouldn't notice a thing about me, so I don't have to be tensed about it. I wasn't quite thinking about it when N'Tony spoke again but this time he was so loud that it echoed throughout the room.

“P'Beam... Will you be my boyfriend ??”

“Well N'Tony is well behaved person,” I thought to myself.

I don't know what was the reason why I accepted to date him, maybe the longing to have a relationship or I feel confident enough knowing that N'Tony is a beta.

“Well N'Tony, I think you have a new boyfriend.”

I answered with a warm smile, and at my response he pounced on me and gave me a big bear hug.

“Really P'Beam... you will be my boyfriend..?”

The Nong asked me while hiding his face in my chest but still I could notice how red his face was due to blushing, it was really cute and adorable.

“Of course, why would I lie about it..!”

He smiled at me and hugged me again, after that he tiptoed to peck my lips and that gesture caught me off guard. The squealing and cheers from the other students brought me out of my thoughts and we both just scurried back to our seats and I continued the tutoring class.

A few days passed since I started dating N'Tony and it was really good to be in a relationship. We met everyday to eat our lunch together, of course Pha and Kit would accompany us. After classes, I would accompany him back to his dorm and before parting our ways, we would give each other a goodbye kiss. I felt comfortable and it was quite good.

My Nong was always smiling which makes his eyes shine, he looks so cute and adorable. He looks at me with those bright eyes which are always filled with hearts accompanied by a tender smile.

But within all that I noticed something that I didn't like, N'Tony was hiding something from me and I had to discover what it was.

“Nong did something happens to you? You are very quiet and you look sad.”

He just looked at me and sighed.

“You know you can tell me anything,” I said it in a calm voice.

“I know P'Beam, but I don't know how you will take it..”

Hell it's making me worried, I hope it has nothing to do with my secret.

“We won't know until you tell me Nong,” I encouraged him with a smile.

“The truth is when I asked you out or to be precisely when I asked you to be my boyfriend, I was not free,”

“What do you mean by that ????” I was trying not to sound angry.

“Well it was something like I had a boyfriend at that time.”

By hearing what N'Tony said, my eyes were wide open, that I thought it will pop out anytime soon. I opened my mouth to say something but my brain couldn't process anything to say. I just kept my mouth shut then.

“But I swear P', that when you accepted my feelings, I ended up the relation with him the next day itself.”

“Tell me Nong, you ended up the relation in good terms with him.. right?” I asked impatiently.

“I thought so too, but past two days I have noticed that some of the guys from his gang are following us and looking at us from afar.” Tony said.

“What ???”

What... a boyfriend? A gang? Then a thought passes through my mind and it terrifies me.

“N'Tony please tell me that your ex-boyfriend is a beta who belongs to that gang..?” I pray internally that it would be the case but the face that N'Tony was making, told me it wasn't just that.

“P'Beam my ex-boyfriend is an alpha, who leads that gang.” What N'Tony said, made my worst fear come true now.

“Nong, please tell me that this will not cause any problems for me...??” I say looking into his eyes and begging him to settle the matter.

“P' I promise that I will talk to him and make things clear so that you won't have any problems.” He said with a smile, well that calms me a little. But I have a strange feeling that it will not turn out that way.

“I hope so Nong.” He just nods.

We started walking again, all the way to his dorm we were in absolute silence. I gave him a kiss but not very long one on the lips and turning around I walked away from his dorm.

I was walking slowly to my apartment when I heard a click of a camera and I instantly turned to where the sound came from, but I didn't see anyone. Will they be from the gang that the Nong was talking about ???

Hell, I really hope that the ex-boyfriend doesn't do anything strange. But this feeling doesn't leaves me alone. I find it terrifying myself.

After those strange sounds on my way back, I went directly to my dorm. I quickly entered my room and locked the door, I also put all the door locks as well as the window locks. I just hope that it's me being paranoid and nothing else. I pray with all my might that it will only be that.

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Published on 27 May 2020.