Sorry, forgot to put TW's on the last chapters

TW - abuse, angsty smut, vomiting

Smut is not overly described, it's clear that something happened but there are no "bad" words used so I hope that's okay, it's very short too

Day 34

Muichiro's pov

Tanjiro and I sat on the couch, watching a movie on TV. Tanjiro held me in his arms and ran his fingers through my hair. I still couldn't stop thinking about that time I saw my parents in the news.. it was weird, I honestly didn't know what to think.. if I should believe their words.

"You seem tense, everything okay, love?" Tanjiro asked and grabbed my chin, making me look at him. I gave him a small nod "Y-Yes, everything is okay" I replied quietly, knowing that if I mention my parents, he'll get mad.

"If you say so" he mumbled under his breath and nuzzled his cheek into mine. There haven't been any outbursts lately or times where Tanjiro got mad at me which I was very happy for, the fear of doing something wrong faded a little.

"Hey Tanjiro..?" I said softly, looking him in the eyes "is it okay if I use my phone..? When you're away it's pretty boring here" I said, hoping he'll agree.

He thought about it for a second before nodding "alright then, but I'll have to do something first so you can't text anyone"

My face fell a little but it was at least something.. at least I wouldn't be bored out of my mind all day. "Thank you Tanjiro" I said with a smile and he leaned down to give me a small kiss on a cheek "anything for you, you've been acting good lately, I told you it's only a matter of time before you fall in love with me"

"Yea right, fall in love with a murderer AND a kidnapper? In your dreams maybe" was something I told myself everytime he said such a thing but it was getting harder and harder to believe because of how well he's been treating me lately which.. I never got from anyone.

I was just so confused.. I didn't know what to do, if I wanted to stay with him or still try to run away from him.. but later I had my choice clear.

...

Around evening, Tanjiro was acting weird. He was weirdly touchy and kept kissing me even though I told him to stop multiple times but he didn't and later on it got even worse.

He leaned down and started kissing my inner thighs. I couldn't even explain how uncomfortable that made me, I felt so dirty and disgusted "T-Tanjiro, please stop.." I mumbled quietly, my breath hitching as he nibbled on my thigh.

"Come on, just for a bit" he said and continued to do his thing. The second he pulled his lips away, I saw a small purple mark. My eyes widened and I yelled out in anger "I said stop!!"

I kicked him hard into his face, making him fall back against the table. I immediately covered my mouth and pressed myself against the couch, my body trembling in fear "T-Tanjiro I am sorry I-I didn't mean to.."

He just sat there, staring at the floor before a small drop of blood fell on his lap, making my heart sink. He looked up at me, his eyes bloodshot with anger. "How dare you"

"How dare you KICK ME?!" he yelled out in anger and slammed me down onto the couch, pulling his fist into the air and hitting me hard into my cheek.

"I-I am sorry Tanjiro!! I am sorry!" I yelled out desperately, crying out loud but he didn't stop, why didn't he stop?! He usually stops when I cry!

"You are gonna pay for what you just did" he grabbed me by my hair, slammed me against the wall and unzipped his pants.

Before I could realize what was happening, he forced me to open my mouth and slammed himself in, making me let out a loud gag.

"Come on, you gotta pay for what you did" he said and kept on moving his hips. I felt like I was going to throw up, I couldn't stand it. I grabbed onto his bare thighs, trying to pull him away from me but he held on tight.

It didn't take long for me to let out another gag that was soon followed by vomit spilling from my mouth right onto Tanjiro's thighs. He quickly backed away and started yelling at me.

I didn't even hear what he was saying, it was like everything fell silent and all I heard was my sobs and panting. I then just felt a hard hit on my head, with that I fell on a floor, curled up in a ball and sobbed.

I just wanted to stay there and just sob my heart out but that didn't last long. Tanjiro came back not too long after with a bucket of water and a cloth "you better clean it before I come back"

...

I don't even know how much time passed but I just laid there, sobbing before finally deciding to clean up the mess. I felt so sick and disgusting, I couldn't believe that Tanjiro did something like that.

I felt like everything nice he did to me suddenly disappeared, like this blinded every good thing and I didn't want to do anything else but to just curl up in a ball and sink to the floor.

Once I was done cleaning, I just pulled my knees closer to my chest and continued to sob.

Tanjiro's pov

I was driving home, regretting everything I did "you fucking dumbass!! How could you do that to him!?" I yelled at myself while waiting for the green light. "Fuck fuck fuck FUCK!!" I yelled out in panic, remembering his tears and the fear in his eyes.

The second I pulled over in the driveway I just sprinted inside and straight to the living room where I found him, still sitting on the same spot.

"Love?" I said quietly, trying not to scare him but it was no use. The second he saw mez he started to cry again, apologizing over and over again.

"Mui, no no don't cry, I am sorry.." I tried to move closer to him but he just pressed himself more against the wall.

I knew that I fucked up badly and I didn't know how to fix it.. so I just left him alone for a little.

...

Around 10pm, I went to check on him and he was still sitting in the same spot. He hadn't eaten since breakfast and he ended up vomiting it up.. he must be starving.

I quickly grabbed some leftover lasagna from the fridge, placed it on a plate and heated it up a bit in the microwave. Then I headed back into the living room and placed it in front of him.

He looked exhausted, his stomach was rumbling but he didn't even touch the plate, he just stared at it. I also brought him a blanket with a pillow, knowing he'll definitely stay there the whole night but he didn't touch those either.

"Mui, I am really sorry for what I did, I lost control and I just.. you know how much I love you.. I couldn't hold back.. I promise that I will get better.. I really will.."

I begged desperately, hoping he'll forgive me but it was no use, he just kept looking at the floor without doing anything. "I understand that you probably hate me now but.." I sighed "I promise I will make this right.."

Muichiro's pov

Liar.

A fucking liar.

You'll hurt me again.

You'll act like this for a while and then do this to me.

How could I.

How could I've been so stupid to believe that things were getting better

Once Tanjiro left I pushed the food away, having no appetite even though my stomach was begging for it. I curled up into the blanket and just stared at the floor.. For minutes, hours maybe, I don't know how much time passed but the only thing I remember is that I fell asleep feeling cold and miserable.

I need to get out.

~Week Later~

After the incident, Tanjiro has been trying his best to act nice, wasn't touching me and didn't talk much too. If I pushed him away, it was clear that he was mad but kept his cool until he was alone and broke stuff around his house.

It was scary to catch him doing so but I was just glad it wasn't me who was being treated this way.

"Hey Mui, I made your favorite" I heard behind me and turned around to see Tanjiro carrying a plate with furofuki daikon.

My eyes widened with excitement as my hands moved towards the plate but I stopped myself, looking at him with a skeptical look.

He just gave me a slight smile and placed the plate next to me "you don't have to eat it I just.. wanted to make you happy" he said and left the room.

I looked at the plate, my mouth watering at the sight of my favorite food, I couldn't even explain how much I wanted to eat that right now.

I grabbed a fork and as I was about to dig into it, I heard a knock on the door.

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