Completely lost track of time, sorry! Going back to posting every 5 days, sorry to keep y'all waiting.

Also got an idea on how I will end this book, let's just say that uhh- how do y'all feel about a bad ending 😈⁉️ (HYPOTHETICALLY, if y'all prefer a good ending I'll go with that)

Muichiro's pov

I sat on a bed, staring out of a window while Tanjiro was hanging out with his friends in the living room. I refused to even move an inch until Tanjiro came to tell me that they were gone.

I heard what they said, most of the conversations were about relationships, some drama from school and other stuff I wasn't really interested in until one of them said.

“Daamn Tanjiro, what's this?”

“Nothing”

“Nothing? It doesn't seem like nothing to me, I see some long hair, it's everywhere! Did you have a giiiirl over~?”

“Haha so funny”

“Then who’s is it? Come on, I know it's not yours”

“Don't worry about it, okay? It's none of your fucking business”

I didn't think much of it, I knew that there was no chance that they'd know it was mine.

…

I sat in front of a mirror in the bathroom while Tanjiro stood behind me with a pair of scissors in his hand “do we.. have to..?” I mumbled quietly.

“We can't risk anything, Mui, it'll be better like this” he replied and cut off a huge chunk of my hair, throwing it into a bin.

I wasn't sad but I wasn't happy either.. I just felt kinda numb about it, everything felt kinda numb for the past days.. maybe weeks? I kinda lost track of time.

“You're not upset?”

“Nah not really” I replied simply and looked back at him “they don't know about me though.. So why are you cutting them?”

“Just in case” he repeated and I just nodded, letting him do what he wanted to. I kept thinking about yesterday, the melody he sang ran through my mind all day.

I wanted to ask about it but when he hummed the melody he seemed upset, I didn't want to trigger another outburst. He's been acting nice all morning and I didn't want to ruin that.

“What do you think?” He asked and I looked at myself I'm the mirror. It was short but not too short, he did a good job “it's good” I said and looked back at him with a small smile.

He smiled as well and kisses my cheek, saying “I am glad”

…

Couple days have passed and there hasn't been any problems between me and Tanjiro. I was trying my best not to accidentally trigger his anger and it was going pretty well.

I felt like there was still so much I didn't know about Tanjiro, like why he specifically picked me and why he was doing all this just to be with me, it didn't make sense to me.

“What would you like to do this weekend?” Tanjiro asked and sat down on a couch next to me.

“I.. want to go out.. please..?” I asked hopefully, I haven't been outside since the time Tanjiro took me to a store.. and I missed it a lot.

He thought for a little before leaning closer and whispering “okay.. I know a place, but you better act nice, yea? No escaping” he said, this creepy grim appearing on his face again.

…

(Sorry for so many skips, your girl is running out of ideas :\)

“As I said, keep your hood on, even when we are in a car” Tanjiro said and pulled it over my head. I nodded a little and walked outside together with Tanjiro. I got into the passenger seat and waited for Tanjiro who was putting our luggage in the trunk.

“Are you excited?” Tanjiro asked while getting into the driver's seat. I nodded a little and mumbled “I am.. where are we going?”

“You'll see” Tanjiro smiled and kissed my forehead.

We sat there in silence for some time until I thought to myself “maybe I could ask Tanjiro about why he picked me.. or why he's so obsessed over me”

“Hey Tanjiro?”

“Yea Mui?”

“Why are you.. ehm.. so like.. obsessive..? I know that you love me but.. love doesn't look like that”

I mumbled and his eyes just widened, he gripped the wheel tighter. Did I say the wrong thing? Is he mad?

“Tanjiro..?”

Tanjiro's pov - 5 years ago

It was around midnight, I laid in bed, listening to my parents fight again. They were being so loud I couldn't sleep, every single time I closed my eyes I just heard another loud crash.

I knew my mother would come to my room at some point and hold me like always… but not this time.

I stood up and walked  downstairs, listening to my parents fight more closely so I heard what they were saying.

“You are fucking inside! Do you actually fucking think I'd stay with some crazy bitch like you?!”

“Crazy!? Don't you fucking dare call me crazy! I am doing this for you! For us!”

“Then stop being obsessive! Stop ruining my relationships with other people just because you are fucking insecure!”

“I am not obsessive! I just care! Is that a problem!?”

They continued with that for maybe an hour.. it was a long, draining fight. My father left the house and my mother sat in the kitchen, crying.

I came to the kitchen with a worried look “mama..? Are you okay..?” I asked and sat down on a chair next to her.

She shook her head, her eyes wide and her nails digging into her skin “t-that fucking bastard.. now you see what happens, Tanjiro?”

I slowly shook my head and she leaned down, grabbing me by my shoulders forcefully, saying “this is what happens when you love someone, they will hurt you.. betray you.. no matter how kind you are..”

“Mama.. is that true..?” I said with a trembling voice and she nodded “yes Tanjiro.. they'll leave and hurt you.. until they have no one else.. until you have them all to yourself..”

Muichiro's pov

“You'll leave..”

“What..? What do you mean?” I ask with a worried tone as Tanjiro just stared at the road ahead of him, his breathing picking up on speed.

“You'll leave.. I'll be alone, you'll hurt me, you'll use me, you'll destroy me because I didn't do it to you first!”

He yelled out and slammed his foot on the pedal, making the car speed up. My eyes widened as the car drove faster and faster.

“Tanjiro, that's not true! I-I won't l-”

“You wouldn't even fucking look at me if I didn't do what I did!” He yelled out aggressively, looking at me with tears streaming down his face.

“Tanjiro, we were friends before that! What are you talking about?!”

He didn't answer, he just looked at the road ahead, the car speeding down the road as he refused to slow down.

“Tanjiro, slow down!” I unbuckled my seat belt and got out of my seat, stopping the car immediately. I slumped back against the passenger seat and said “Tanjiro I won't leave.. why.. why would you think that..?”

He just began to sob, resting his arms on the wheel and laying his head on them. My eyes softened, it was clear that there was something serious wrong that happened for him to be this way.

“Tanjiro I won't leave, I just.. want you to treat me well.. I tried to run away because you beat me.. I told the women I got kidnapped because I was scared of you, I-” my heart dropped when I realized what I just said.

“What?” he said in disbelief and turned to me with tears filled eyes “you told someone?!”

“I was scared, okay?!” I yelled out, tears filling my eyes as well “I was terrified of you! I still am! How do you expect anyone to love you when you beat them! Lock them in a basement! Don't even let them go outside!”

There was a moment of silence, Tanjiro just stared at his lap as I gathered more courage to say “I don't know what made you this way but.. this is not the way you get someone to love you..”

Tanjiro looked at me and asked “So you don't love me..?”

That question hit me like a truck, I had no idea how to answer. I wanted to say no but that answer.. didn't feel right..?

“I understand..” he said and started up the car again. He wiped his tears and said with a calmer voice “let's just.. continue.."

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