AVREIN

"AVREIN! What the hell happened, Avrein? Answer me! Your silence worries me the most!" Napabalik ako sa reyalidad nang marinig ko ang malakas na boses ni Ate Aiyell. Hindi ko alam bakit dito ako dinala ng mga paa ko sa bahay nila ni Kuya Claw.

Tumingin lang ako sa mga mata niya at hinayaan kong basahin niya ako rito.

"Stop playing puzzle game with me, Avrein. I'm not good at this," anito sa akin, saka yumuko at kinuha ang telepono sa gilid nito. "I'll call Aei."

Narinig kong kinausap nito sa Aei sa kabilang linya, saka ibinaba ang telepono. "Where's Ayler and Ayce?" tanong ko sa kaniya tungkol sa kambal niyang anak.

"They're already sleeping. Mas komportableng matulog si Ayler pagkatabi niya ang Daddy niya, while Ayce is more comfortable 'pag mag-isa siya sa kuwarto niya," paliwanag nito.

Tumango lang ako bilang sagot.

Nakabalot ako ngayon ng malaki at makapal na tuwalya na bigay ni Ate Aiyell. Hindi ko na naalalang dalhin ang kotse ko papunta rito sa bahay ni Ate Aiyell. Basta ang alam ko lang ay mula nang umalis ako sa bahay nila Vience ay naglakad lang ako nang naglakad hanggang sa abutan ako ng malakas na ulan. Nakakatawa ngang isipin na pati ang langit ay nakikidalamhati sa sakit na nararamdaman ko.

Kapwa lang kami walang kibo ni Ate Aiyell at nagpapakiramdaman nang makarinig kami ng katok na bumasag sa katahimikan.

Tumayo si Ate Aiyell at pinagbuksan ito. Hindi na rin ako nasorpresa nang makita ko si Aeickel ang pumasok.

Tumingin ako sa gawi nila ngunit isang malamig na tingin lang ang ibinati ni Aei sa akin bago naupo sa kaharap na sofa ng inuupuan ko.

"Aei—"

"I already told that he was going to reject you and the baby, but you just never listen," malamig at walang emosyon na putol nito sa akin.

"What— Baby? Anong baby!?" Ate Aiyell suddenly exaggerated.

Hindi ko pinansin si Ate Aiyell at ibinaling ko ang tingin ko kay Aei. "If only I saw that one coming, minabuti ko na lang na hindi ipaalam—"

"Teka nga! Naguguluhan ako? Ano 'to? Sinong buntis? Anong pinigilan? Ano!?" sabat ni Ate Aiyell kaya sabay kaming napalingon ni Aei sa kaniya.

"Wala—"

"She's pregnant and that guy named Vience Kent Montealegre is the one responsible for it."

"Aeickel!" I exclaimed. Ayaw ko na muna sanang ipaalam sa iba hangga't hindi ko pa naaayos ang sitwasyon ko.

"I just don't want you to get hurt, Ate Avrein," she replied in very cold and dangerous tone. Ramdam ko ang galit niya at ang pagnanais na protektahan ako.

"Aei," tawag naman sa kaniya ni Ate Aiyell.

"You wouldn't want to hear what's running on my mind, Ate Avrein," malamig na pag-ignora nito sa pagtawag ni Ate Aiyell sa kaniya. "I am capable of killing someone that ruins my family. Just surrender chasing him, he'll eventually realize that the baby was his."

Lahat ng tao sa paligid ko, sinasabing sumuko na ako. Dapat na nga ba akong sumuko?

NAALIMPUNGATAN ako nang dahil sa walang humpay na pag-doorbell na natanggap ko.

Bumangon ako at tiningnan ang orasan sa side table ko. Ala-una na ako nakauwi ng unit ko mula sa bahay ng mag-asawang Mondragon at ngayon ay alas-tres 'y media pa lamang. Iilang oras ko pa lang naitutulog ang sakit na nararamdaman ko, ngayon at ito na naman at may nanggugulo.

Pumunta ako sa pintuan at walang sabi-sabi itong binuksan. Ganoon na lamang ang panlalaki ng mata ko nang mabungaran ko si Vience na madilim ang anyo na nakatingin sa akin at umaalingasaw ang amoy ng alak na nagmumula dito.

"Anong ginagawa—" Hindi ko na natapos ang sasabihin ko at mabilis niya akong kinabig at marahas na hinalikan.

Shit. Am I insane for liking this type of kiss? Am I insane for letting him kiss me after what happened? After he pushed me away?

He's drunk and I'm aware of that. I could taste the bitterness of the liquor that was left in his mouth.

He pushed me to step backward without breaking the kiss. As we entered my pad he immediately locked the door.

I was literally lost for words to say when he laid me in my sofa.

"God . . . I missed you!" he declared that made my eyes widened.

"Vience—" His kisses went to my earlobe as he gently sucked it.

"I missed you so damn much. I missed you, my angel," he whispered again as his kisses went down to my jaw line . . . down to my neck. "I missed how you can make me insane for wanting to touch you, to hug you, to kiss you, to be inside you." His whispers were so drowning.

Hindi na ako nagulat ng isa-isa niyang alisin ang butones ng damit kong pantulog.

"Vience, y–you're just d–drunk."

"Damn me for loving a pure girl like you, Avrein. Damn me!" I could sense the pain and suffering in his voice. Dama ko rin na tila may nakabara sa lalamunan niya.

My body arched involuntarily as I felt his hand gently squeezing my right chest. I'm not wearing any bra for I'm already sleeping a while ago.

He was kissing and touching every inch of me with gentleness. He was doing every move with care.

"Ohhhh. . . ." I groaned in ecstasy as I felt his hand replaced by his mouth. He's gently nipping my nipple. He was nipping it and it was so tickling.

I was busy thinking about his mouth on my nipple until his right hind made its way down to my core.

"Vience!" I protested. This wasn't the first time but it was still so awkward.

"Trust me, babe. Just trust me." he said as he looked at my eyes while still sucking my nipple.

"Hmmmmm. . . ." I couldn't help myself from moaning when I felt his fingers gently playing with my clit. This feeling was so good. My mind and body were betraying my heart who was in so much pain.

I wanted to protest when his mouth and hand suddenly left my breast and core.

Tumayo siya at bahagya akong tinitigan nang matiim bago niya tuluyang inalis ang lahat ng saplot na suot ko at ganoon din ang sa kaniya.

I'm not dreaming right?

Dumagan siya sa akin ngunit hindi ko ramdam ang bigat niya. Mas ramdam ko ang bagay na tumutusok sa puson ko.

"Felt that? That is how you could make me go crazy about you." I blushed from what he said. "Damn! You're beautiful whenever you blush and it gives me more pleasure knowing that it is because of me."

He then again kissed me. I knew he wanted more so I opened my mouth. He slid his tongue inside my mouth and started searching for something inside it.

"V–Vience . . .!" His finger was once again pleasuring my core.

"I love you," he whispered between our kisses.

His kisses went down . . . and down . . . and down.

"V–Vience!" His fingers were replaced by his mouth that took my sanity away. He nipped my womanhood as if savoring its flesh.

Hindi ko alam saan ibabaling ang nararamdaman ko. Hindi ko alam kung anong puwede kong gawin o saan ako puwedeng kumapit.

"O–oh my gosh, V–Vience. . . ." He was thrusting his tongue inside me!

I'm starting to like this feeling. It was making me go crazy.

Hindi ko alam kung anong nagtulak sa akin na sabayan ang bawat pagpasok ng dila niya sa akin. I just did.

Something came rushing in my abdomen and it suddenly wanted to explode.

"Give it to me, babe," those words are like magic words because I felt my first release.

"Ready?" he asked after my release and I nodded.

He positioned himself between my legs as he made his entrance. It was full of love and pleasure. It was full of caution not to hurt me in any way.

Our bodies were dancing with each other as if it was perfectly made to be one.

"Hmmm. . . ."

"Avrein . . . I love you!"

"I–I love you too, V–Vience . . .!"

His thrusts went faster and faster. I met his every thrust until I felt his juices suddenly rushed inside me.

We both reached our climax. I felt him filled mine and I am so tired.

He removed his manhood inside me when he already felt the satisfaction.

Tumayo siya at tinitigan ako. Tama ba ang nakikita ko? His eyes were full of regret, love, confusion, and pain.

Binuhat niya ako at dinala sa kwarto ko, saka inihiga. Nahiga rin siya sa tabi ko bago ibinalot ang kumot sa hubad naming mga katawan.

"Sleep now, Avrein."

"V–Vience."

"Just sleep. I love you," wika nito bago hinalikan ang ulo ko.

Just when I decided to give up on you, you suddenly showed yourself and made me feel the love I've been asking from you. I wanted to move on from you, pero paano ko namang gagawin iyon? Kung sa bawat tingin ko sa 'yo, nakikita kong totoong mahal mo 'ko ngunit may pumipigil lang sa 'yo?

"I thought you're drunk?"

"I am, Avrein, and I still hate you and I want you to stay away from me." I was in so much shock. His voice was cold but it was in so much pain.

"V–Vience, what are you saying?"

"Avrein, I want you to remember this night as a dream and not a nightmare. I want you to forget about what happened as you wake up. We're not meant for each other. I'll tell Luis about your baby for him to take his responsibility."

Nang marinig ko ang tinuran niya ay tumagilid ako paharap sa kaniya, saka ko ipinaikot ang mga braso ko sa katawan niya at tahimik na lumuha.

Kahit ngayong gabi lang na matatawag kong akin ka, Vience, ayos lang. Kahit ngayong gabi lang, okay na. Kahit hindi mo na ako paniwalaan at pagkatiwalaan. Kahit isipin mo na si Luis ang ama ng batang nasa sinapupunan ko at hindi ikaw, okay na ko. Susundin ko ang gusto mo, kakalimutan ko na nangyari ang gabing 'to. Basta . . . ngayong gabi lang hayaan mo akong yakapin ka at maramdaman ko na sa 'kin ka. Pagkatapos nito . . . papakawalan na kita.

Iyan ang gusto kong isatinig pero hindi ko na nagawa.

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