Chapter Twenty

Three days later…

Abigail:

I watched out the window as Victoria and Shay held they’re hands together and each were given pecks here and there as they talked and laughed, looking happier than ever.

I sighed heavily, closing my eyes, and dropped my head. I wanna be that happy, but the stupid wall won't fall down. My eyes watered up, both in anger and sadness since I never had the right kind of love from my parents. They both always told me they hate me and no one will love me. Saying things to get my spirit down.

Needing some air, I turned around and grabbed Scott’s jacket. The woods look like a good place to walk around and think. As I walked down the steps, I slid on the jacket. I saw the boys sister Lena’s playing with Tyler.

I couldn’t help but feel a little jealous. I haven’t taken that much care of Tyler see last few days and it’s starting to feeling like he doesn’t need me anymore. I always was the one that he smiled at and giggle, now it’s Kelly, Lena, or Haley.

“I’m going out for a walk.” I told her.

She didn’t even look at me, “Okay,” she said before going off in baby voice to Tyler about saying her name, which he called her ‘Le’.

I went through the back way so I wouldn’t disturb Shay and Victoria. Tristan, Skyler Sir, Skyler Jr, and Scott all ran off somewhere. I was doing school work in my room when they left to somewhere. Weird, I didn’t even hear the car leave.

I stuck my hands in the pockets as I walked into the forest. It has been really quite to live in the mood. I have never been use to living near the woods since the houses my dad would get would be the cheapest house for rent. I kind of like living out in the wood though. The sky is nice to look out when it’s night and unlike living in a town, there isn’t much noises.

I looked up the sky, noticing how dark it was getting. It was only five o’clock, but the sun was already half down. I noticed how almost full the moon was and how pretty it seemed.

The moon just made the image of Scott appear in my mind and I couldn’t help but smile. Is it normal to feel gushy over a guy even though your still questionable to attentions? I have never felt more closer to him these last few days, but I can’t help but have a guard up.

I want it to fall, letting the thoughts of being happy and loved it okay, but look how I was raised. With no love.

Scott…I don’t know…I just feel self-conscious around him, but I also feel so beautiful about myself. Is that normal? Like when he’s holding me, I feel protected and cared. But when he’s kissing me, I feel like I’m doing something right.

Ugh, he makes me feel like a normal teenager girl! I never felt like that.

Ten minutes later, it was finally dark out. I knew I wasn’t far from the house because I knew I was actually just walking in a circle around the woods near the house. I have been walking around with Scott whenever he wants to be alone with me.

Another things, my hormones are betraying me! Is it normal to want…more? And what’s adds more to my shock, it’s him that wants to stop! He'll leave me alone to feel a way and I don't even know what to do but squeeze my legs super tight!

It sucks being a teenage girl.

Deciding it was time to go back, I turned around, but something—or something’s ran passed me!

I screamed, falling back on my butt. I heard whatever they were stop running and my head snapped to my left. Horror passed my face when I saw four large wolf staring back at me!

Scott:

I watched Abigail’s shocked face turn to horror and fear when she looked at us. A gasp escape her mouth and I heard her gulp. I stepped forward, but all I got was a cringe and her shaking her head quickly, crawling back until her back hit a tree.

Scott, no, my dad warned me.

Why? I can shift back now and she can find out. No more secret. I thought.

Oh yeah. Shift back into your naked self and not expect her to pass out or scream her head off. Skyler sarcastically thought.

I turned my head to him and snarled at his smart ass. He snarled back, but I saw the amusement in his eyes.

Damn, it looks like she’s about to have a heart attack. Tristan suddenly commented.

Shut up, I thought. Dad, come on. Like you always say, it’s easier to rip off the band aid instead of taking your time.

This is way different, he growled. Maybe if you haven’t been so hesitate to tell her, we wouldn’t be in this problem. Look at her, she’s to scared right now. You better tell her soon before the family comes for Jaime transformation next week. Lets go cause Tristan right, she’s freakin’ out.

I breathed out my nose heavily, not liking the fear look on my mates face and it was me that scared her. I turned around with my brothers and dad, we continuing on our run.

Abigail:

I could hear my heart beat pounding in my ears like a drum. I have been scared my whole life—living with my dad is like living in hell—but I literally saw my life flashing threw my eyes! I mean, there so much I didn’t do in my life and I’m about to be eaten alive by four large wolves!

Oh my god, I’m going to die! Something going to happen what I fear most: leaving Tyler behind. Reasons why I never told anyone about my dad—because I didn’t want to be separated from Tyler!

And there’s so much more than I realize! I realized I do want to finish school, do something with my life, become a happy person, and yes, fall in love! Not die and it being attacked by wolves!

So why does Scott face appear in my mind right now? There’s soooo much I wanted to say and do with him! I wanted to work on how I feel about Scott. Go to dances with him and go on dates. I wanted to do normal teenage couple stuff and worry about stupid things like I don’t even know! I want his arms around and holding me, telling me everything going to be okay and that he’ll protect me.

I want his lips on mine and his warm hand caressing my face. The way he speaks my dad and my stomach feels like popcorn being made. I want his warm breath next to my ear and saying something to make me blush. Like how when he says he loves me….

My chest squeezed up at regret from telling Scott how I felt. I think I do love him, I’m not very sure since I never had that situation before, but I think I really do.

But now because of my boredom, I’m going to die!

My eyes watered up as I looked at the wolves. They all looked at each other and it was really added confusion to my reactions. Why aren’t they attacking me or something? Why are they just standing there, growling and snarling at each other?

It look like they were literally talking to each other.

Something shocked me.

They all turned around and left!

Still getting my guard up just in case, I watched until they were out of sight before I let my shoulder down and I tried to control myself. After a few minutes, I was able to control my heart rate and relax the best I can.

One thing came in mind: I had to get the hell out of here!

“Abigail!” I heard a dozen feet away and I looked to my right and saw a flash light pointing my way and Kelly’s voice.

I stepped out from behind the tree and saw Kelly, Haley, and Colleen running towards my way. They all came up to me and saw my paler-than-usual look and asked me what’s wrong.

I was in to much to even speak, so they ignored me and Colleen and Haley put their arms around me as we walked back to the house.

It took a good fifteen minutes, but we stepped out of the woods and the door opened.

“Everything okay?” Skyler Sir. asked as he and the boys stepped out.

“We think Abigail seen something that scared her half to death.”, Kelly said, angrily to my surprise and sternly, but I ignored it.

I didn’t even realize I was walking quickly to Scott. He looked for some reason guilty, but when I went into wrapped my arms around him and kiss him, he looked shock, but I continued and wrapped my arms around, pressing my lips down on his hard.

Oh my god, what happened was a big life opener. I just realized I do have much to live for and be happy! No more! I feel that stupid wall breaking down and bright light shinning down on me!

I felt Scott’s hand wrapped around me and I pulled back, “I love you. I love you so much!” I said, not caring everyone was around. I’m going to say it a thousand times and not care! I saw Scott’s confused look, but I was the happiness in his eyes. I smiled and each time I pecked him, I said each word, “I love you.”

I wrapped my arms around him and placed my head on his chest, holding onto him tightly. I never felt so happy.

Scott:

When I thought she would be even more distance and cold towards me, I was totally shocked to find her holding, kissing, and telling me she loves me. Did her really seeing me in my wolf form scare her so much, it made her do this?

If so, I wished I knew waaaaay sooner.

I held onto her tightly like how she did me. Even though I was happy that she was finally becoming being like this instead of her protective guarding way, I gave my brothers and father an awkward look. They knew what it was.

How is she going to act when she finds out it was us she saw?

*

I chuckled when I lifted Abigail up from me, “Whoa, must I remind you we do breath?” I asked. We were in her bedroom making out, her on top of me and it was very weird if you tell me. This new her is so different, it’s more than surprising. It’s like someone slapped her and a switch was turned.

She giggled and leaned down, kissing me one more time, “I know, but I like your lips.” she said.

I chuckled, “Well thanks, I like yours to.”, I said. She leaned down to kiss me again, but I stopped her. “You do know it’s,” I said, looking at the clock next to her bed, “One in the morning.”

She chuckled, “So? We don’t have school and there’s nothing on tv.”

“True, but my boxers are tight enough and I’m actually pretty tired.” I said, leaning up.

She pouted, “You always do that.”

Giving her a confused look, I asked, ‘What do you mean I always do that? What am I doing?”

Her cheeks blushed up and she looked away, “Always leaving me hanging. You get me all…” she trailed off, her cheeks heating up more, “you know.” she said and it took me a moment, but I got it and realizing half of what she was trying to say. “It makes me feel…I don’t know, self conscious.” she admitted. “Like you don’t actually want me or something.”

Realization hit me. I didn’t know that. I put my hands on her shoulders and rubbed them, “Hey, I’m sorry. I didn’t know that, I do, if you just look down, you would know.” I said and her cheeks—if possible—look like tomato’s. “But that’s what I’m stopping us, I’m being respectful cause it would be to quick.”

I guess she was to embarrassed to speak cause she just nodded.

I chuckled at how cute it was and I put my hands on her face, turning her face to look at me and I kissed her softly, “It is okay to feel like that, you know.”

“I know, it’s just…kind of embarrassing.” she admitted.

I took a strand of her hair and twirled it around my finger, “You don’t think it’s embarrassing for me? Believe me, it is cause, unlike you, you have an easier way of see my arousal. I just have more confidence to make the awkwardness go away.”

A small smile appeared on her face and her arms went around me, “Wanna know what I was thinking when I saw those wolves?”

Curious, I nodded, “Tell me.”

“I was thinking of Tyler, but also you. How lucky I was to have you and that’s when I realized how I felt. I was scared of the thought of never seeing you again. Funny how it take something that scares you to realized things.” she said. “I love you, Scott.”

Trying to keep my face from turning into guilt for reason I did not even understand why, I smiled back, “I love you, Abby.” I said and she kissed me. I hope she still loves when she find outs. I don’t see why she wouldn't though.