I usually have a easy time going to sleep as soon as I lay down in my bed. But when I stay up it is because I am either thinking about something or I am worried about something. I talked to Josh on Facetime before I went to bed like we always do. We were talking about his stupid job at the Salem Willows and how he didn't have a lunch break for the second day in a roll. I was mad about that because it is illegal not to have a lunch break and if I was his wife like my mo with my dad I would do something about it. We were talking about different things. We plan on seeing each other Thursday in Salem for seeing the fireworks. I'm coming back to Salem with my parents and I planned for Josh to be there and if his parents could come too so my parents could meet his parents. I was planning for us to go somewhere away from our parents so it will be a date and romantic kissing underneath the fireworks.  He would be the first boyfriend I get to spend the 4th of July with and this would be our first 4th of July. So I been excited but now I am worried that might not happen and I don't know if we could do plan B if this doesn't work out because I can't just go to Salem whenever I want. I have to have a reason to go back so that way I could convinced my mom to bring me. It's easier for me to go back at least ones a month. 

His usual day off from work is Mondays but apparently he has to work today too and not only that but he has no days of this week. Which again is illegal. This include the 4th of July (Thursday). He has to work on holidays which is stupid. So no I'm upset. I really want to see him Thursday.