Tiffany's POV

It's been 4 days since Erika disappeared, I tried to find her with all I can. She has no place to go. I didn't go to my work too, I took sick leave. I asked Siwon and Baekhyun to help me find her but until now, she's missing.

Siwon and I were in his car, it was raining outside. I wonder if Erika has shelter in this pouring rain.

But what if she doesn't have? She'll be sick. I'm so worried about her, I regret that I pushed her away.

Now I realized that I want her to just be with me, live with me and I want to take care of her. My heart was longing for her. I'm uncomfortable without her and just thinking that she's suffering somewhere makes me insane, weak and dreadful.

"Tiffany, I think you should rest now. We can do this again tomorrow," Siwon said.

I was crying and I couldn't stop myself "No, it's raining. What if she has no shelter? She will be sick. She has no place to go and this is my fault!"

"Have you contacted your relatives? Maybe she'd go there?" Siwon trying to figure it out. But no, she's not my cousin and I don't have relatives.

I sighed.

He doesn't know the truth that Erika has amnesia. I was very scared of the thought that Erika remembered everything then she just went home to her family without saying good bye to me. She left me? I shuddered with that thought and it made me out of my mind.

I cried and sniffled very hard, I could see sympathy through Siwon's eyes as he rubbed my back to comfort me.

Siwon took a deep breath "I will drop you off at your apartment, you need a rest," then he drove off.

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In my apartment, it's quiet and I'm not used to it. Erika was childish who always do dork things to get my attention or even not.

I like her presence near me, it soothes me. And now that she's gone, I'm like a lost puppy here.

I have my place but I feel that I don't belong here because I only belong where Erika is.

What's happening to me? I just met her few weeks ago but I feel like I've known her for a long time.

Erika just reminds me of my best friend, Taeyeon. They're look alike, they're both dorks and childish. I know it's wrong to compare them, Taeyeon is dead and I feel like she came back for me as Erika. I'm really crazy to think that.

I miss Taeyeon so much, she's my best friend. I always remember the day she confessed to me but I rejected her, it's the same day that she got her accident and died.

I wish I didn't reject her or what if I went out with her that day, and not with Siwon, maybe she's still alive. It's my fault, I hate myself for hurting her. She don't deserve to die and I don't deserve her love for me.

I took can beers from the refrigerator, I'm glad, I bought some when I went to the grocery store. I hope it could help me to forget Erika for awhile.

After I drank 5 can beers, I feel tipsy already. I don't have high tolerance when it comes to alcohol drinks. I get drunk easily.

I found myself crying again, I miss Erika so much. 

All I want is to see her again, to be with me. I will treat her better when she get back here. I want her touch, I want her kiss, I want everything about her.

I feel like she's Taeyeon and I will admit it now or never. I really don't love Siwon but Taeyeon. I love her, I'm just coward to accept the fact that I love her more than a best friend. I'm afraid what people will think about us. I'm so stupid that time!

I thought the beers will make me forget about Erika and Taeyeon. It just made my feeling worse. I leaned my arms and head on the table. I feel like I'm going to puke but there's none in my stomach. I haven't eaten anything yet this day, just water.

Then I heard the doorbell rang. In the middle of the night? Seriously? Don't tell me it's Siwon. Just go away. Get lost! I'm so bad.

The person outside the door was annoying because my doorbell kept buzzing. Shit. I groaned loudly. 

Wait. What if it's Erika?

I stood up in reflex, I rushed to open the door. I didn't care if I stumbled on my way there. My focus was to open the damn door. 

I wish it's Erika. Please. Oh gosh. Please.

I opened the door revealing Baekhyun, he's so wet maybe because of the rain. My heart race when I saw the girl that Baekhyun was carrying in his arms. Erika! She's all drenched too. She's unconscious. Gosh, she's lifeless. My heart twitched seeing her like this.

"Are we going to stand here forever Tiffany? Erika passed out. She's exhausted," I stepped aside making way for Baekhyun.

He entered my apartment and I closed the door then I followed him in the living room. He laid Erika on the couch.

I'm a sober and I feel so alive seeing Erika "Wh-where did you find her?"

"Um... I... I saw her near at your... apartment. Yeah... She's standing in the rain then passed out. So I decided to take her here," Baekhyun explained as he scratched his head.

"Thank you so much Baekhyun, I'm really thankful that she's back here," I stepped closer to the couch, knelt down and caressed Erika's face.

"Maybe she hasn't eaten anything that's why she passed out," Baekhyun concluded.

I nodded and stood up "Can you help me take her to the bathroom? She needs to shower or she'll gonna be sick."

"Okay," Baekhyun took Erika in the bathroom and placed her in the bathtub.

I gave him towel to dry himself then I bathed Erika. She's not that dirty but the rain was.

Baekhyun left after he placed Erika in my bed, I'm really thankful to him because he found her.

I'm in bliss seeing her in my bed, sleeping. She's curled and half of her body was covered by my comforter.

I joined Erika in my bed, I laid myself on side to see her beautiful face. I began to play her hair with my fingers. It was so smooth and soft. Then suddenly, Erika came closer and hugged me. She buried her face on my chest. 

My heart was pounding hard. 

Am I nervous or what??

I looked down at her to see her face, she's smiling. Her smile was infectious as the corners of my mouth quirked up. This was one of the best feelings, I love being next to her.

I stared at her face, I studied every part of it and my eyes stayed at her lips. Her light pink lips were captivating, I was mesmerized by it. I don't know if the beers still have effect on me but I want to kiss her, I'm so hungry to taste her lips.

Unconsciously, I was leaning down so I just went with the flow and fulfilled what I wanted. I kissed Erika, it was so amazing. I started to eat her lips, literally. I know she's sleeping and I know I won't have response from her but I missed her so I kissed her feverishly.

I opened my eyes slightly, I saw her glowing. 

Maybe I'm drunk, I don't care. I'm just savoring this moment.

Then my eyes widened when I saw Erika was awake!

I pulled myself away but my eyes never leave hers "Taeyeon..." I mumbled. She really looked like Taeyeon. Her hair's blonde now just like Taeyeon and her eyes, it's exactly the same as Taeyeon.

When I first saw her, I tried hard to avoid eye contact because she's like Taeyeon's twin sister but now, she's precisely the same as Taeyeon.

"Pani ah," she gave me goosebumps as I heard her. 

Am I really drunk? Her voice, it's Taeyeon's.

I shook my head, impossible. It's really impossible! I looked back at Erika, she's sleeping again and I smiled. I just want her here with me so I hugged her.

Erika hugged me tightly as she buried her face into the crook of my neck. I could feel her breathing, I nuzzled her hair. This was comfy.

I would like to do this for every day and night of my life.

"Erika please... Stay with me." I mumbled.

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