Tiffany's POV

I opened my eyes as I feel nausea, I grimaced. I remember the party in the bar and so on. I looked down and I'm wearing my nightgown, not the party dress anymore. I slowly sat and pulled away the comforter on my body. I saw blood marks on the bed sheet. Then something flashed in my mind, I slapped my forehead and sighed. 

I had sex with Erika last night! Oh no, this is wrong. I thought she's Taeyeon. 

She's my friend, I shouldn't have done that. I know she have feelings for me and I took advantage of it. 

I shook my head.

But you liked it Tiffany. Yes! I liked it! But because I thought she's Taeyeon! I'm so bad. She'll be hurt.

You're lying, you love Erika too. No! I mean, yes, I love her as friend. I'm confused. I feel like she's Taeyeon.

"Pani ah?" Erika held my shoulder. And I turned around to face her. She's beside me, I didn't notice her. "What's wrong? Are you alright?"

I shook my head "Last night, it shouldn't have happened. It's wrong, I'm sorry. I thought you're Taeyeon."

Erika shushed me "It's okay..."

"No Erika! It's not! You're my friend! I really don't like that to happen! I thought you're Taeyeon!" I got hysterical with my confusion.

Erika pulled her hand back as she stood up, she looked dejected and upset. I quickly hugged her, I know that I hurt her.

"I'm sorry but we're friends right? Friends don't do that. We had sex for damn's sake! I'm drunk Erika."

"We didn't just sex, we made love Pani!" She exclaimed as her voice trembled.

"But I don't..." Should I say it?

"Yeah, you don't love me. I know," Erika finished my sentence a I feel a pang in my heart.

"I'm sorry Erika..." I hugged her tightly.

"I understand Pani... I said it before, I won't force you to love me," she softly said.

I pulled myself from her "Thank you," I feel arrows directly hitting my heart.

Erika weakly smiled "I'll just call Baekhyun, excuse me," she was about to leave but she lost her balance as she stumbled on her way. Still, she managed to stand still and she's holding her forehead and looked pain.

"Are you alright Erika?" I asked. I was worried, I think she's sick.

"I'm fine," she shortly replied then she walked out of the room.

Baekhyun again? In this early morning? Is he a rebound to her?

-

As I said, Erika was sick. She has a fever and it melts my heart to see her like this. She looked pale and spiritless, her eyes were just blank.

I made her congee or porridge rice, she was lying on the couch.

I helped her to sit up, she's lack of energy and she barely move. I sat beside her and held the bowl of congee then I fed her.

"What happened to you? You're just fine yesterday and now, you're sick?" I chided her.

Erika smiled, it was a broken smile. I'm so nervous, I feel like she will go away and leave me. 

Why would I think of that? Erika will not die, stupid mind Tiffany!

"I'm sorry if I'm a burden to you. Don't worry, I will not cause you trouble again Pani," she weakly said. 

I frowned. 

She's not a burden! And why did she say that as if she will leave me?

I shook my head "You're not a burden please, don't say that huh?"

"Take care of yourself Pani ah... Promise me that you'll live your life even without me," she said with her hoarse voice.

A line appeared between my brows, I didn't like what she said "Why are you saying that? Are you going to leave? No! No! You're not gonna leave me! You'll just stay here Erika!"

Erika nodded and I calmed down "I will guide you," but it sounds unusual. I'm having a bad feeling about it.

I put down the bowl of congee on the table in front of us and looked at Erika intently.

"You're being weird, it's like you're saying... good bye," my heart squeezed. I hate goodbyes.

"Let's face it Tiffany, when I remember everything I will go back to place where I really belong. I mean, to my family." She averted her eyes from me, I think she's hiding something from me.

"It's okay if that happen, we can still see each other. We're friends and I want to meet your family," it's not a big deal if she remember her past. I'm so willing to meet her family.

Erika looked back at me, she's fighting back her tears and my eyes softened "Tiffany..."

"Pani," I corrected her. I like it when she calls me Pani. I'm comfortable with that "Call me Pani."

"Pani ah..." Erika held my hand and squeezed it tightly. She's taken aback then she took a deep breath. "Okay, sure. We'll meet them soon," she smiled. I sighed in relief but there's still something that bothers me, I don't know what it is.

Erika stood up "Where are you going?" I asked.

"I will just take a bath, you wanna come?" She giggled and I smacked her arm.

I raised a brow "But you're sick."

"I feel better now Pani, because of the porridge thank you. And I want to cuddle and kiss you so I need to clean myself first," Erika waggled her brows. I rolled my eyes and acted irritated.

"Let's watch a movie later while cuddling? Let this day be one of the best days okay?" Then she walked into the bathroom like a granny. She's acting weird today and it frets me.

-

After Erika took a shower, we started to watch a movie but instead of watching, we're here kissing. We're on the couch, I'm lying while she's on top of me. She kissed me intensely like there's no tomorrow and I like it. Her hands were holding my cheeks and I snaked my arms around her waist. Gosh, I'm feeling so hot.

Erika pulled away, we need to breathe. We're both gasping and I smirked.

"I thought we're gonna watch a movie and just cuddle?" I asked with a smug on my face.

Erika tittered "I just missed your lips and I'm so hungry to eat it," she bluntly said. She's so bold today then she leaned down and licked the side of my lips.

"You tastes really good Pani ah, I'm so fond of you." A tint of pink started to form on my cheeks.

I held her face and caressed it "Taeyeon..." Damn it! It slipped out of my mouth.

Erika looked sad as she pulled herself up and sat on the couch, I did the same.

"I'm not Taeyeon," she flatly said.

"I know, I'm sorry..." I ducked and I feel guilty.

"Do you really love Siwon?" She suddenly asked and I looked at her. Her eyes were glued on the tv screen but I know she's all ears to me.

"It... it doesn't matter," I don't love Siwon, it's Taeyeon. I don't want to hurt Erika.

Erika looked down on her lap with her stoic expression then she faced me as our gazes met "It does to me," she gulped. "What am I to you? We're cuddling, dating and kissing. Friends don't do that."

"Yes, friends do that. And... and we're friends," she was jaw dropped with my answer. I know it really sucks.

"Me and my best friends always kiss, it's just a friendly kiss on lips," I added. What a dumb excuse Tiffany?

Erika laughed as if she knows that I'm lying, yes, me and Taeyeon didn't do that.

"I thought you're not gonna force me Erika?" I'm talking nonsense now. Shut it Tiffany!

Erika nodded "I'm just asking," she looked back at the tv screen as her chest rose and fell with rapid breath.

I laid myself and used her lap as a pillow, I stared at the tv screen. Erika held my hand while her other hand was stroking my hair and she never talk to me again that time.

What's wrong with me? 

Erika is something, I'm not sure but I want her mine. 

Why am I restraining my feelings to her? I don't want to hurt her.

Maybe I just need more time to realize it, I hope she can wait for that time when I'm ready to love again.

But you love Erika! It's not Erika! It's Taeyeon!

You're gonna lose Erika if you continue that! She will not leave me, she loves me.

You're so full of yourself Tiffany, no one knows what will happen in the future so don't waste your time. I can't force myself, I'm confused.

You'll just realize it when Erika is gone. No! I said she will not leave me! She will stay here with me!

You always hurt her Tiffany, we're just human. She has her limitations too. I don't know. I'm scared to admit it. I can't. I still remember Taeyeon, she reminds me of Taeyeon!

It's just your excuse, you're still afraid to come out. You're really coward Tiffany. You'll gonna regret this.

My mind, no, my heart kept pushing me to Erika. Am I really coward? Am I still afraid of what people will think? And I'm being insensitive hurting the most important person in my life?

Erika is important to me.

And I think she's the most important person in my life yet, I'm just giving her pain.

What's wrong with me?

Taeyeon... will you forgive me if I will love Erika?

I don't know. What will I do now?

Wait for the right time?

Maybe.

-

Erika and I didn't talk about it anymore, we ate dinner and just continued to banter. I think we're back to normal, she became dork again... what a relief.

Now... We're here in my bed cuddling, she's sleeping already. She looked peaceful, so cute. I kissed her forehead and closed my eyes. I'm ready to sleep.

Then suddenly the darkness light up, it's all white as I looked around. Did I open my eyes? Where am I? Then I saw a blonde girl, I drew closer to her then she turned around.

"Taeyeon?" I asked and she smiled.

She's glowing and I hugged her.

"I'm so happy to see you again," pulled back and faced her. She's just smiling. She's wearing full white gown. She's like an angel.

"I miss you," I said. She lowered her head, I could see the sadness in her features.

"Why are you not talking Taeyeon?" Then she looked at me. We stared at each other and she tilted her head.

"Erika?" I asked.

But she's Taeyeon! I know, I could feel it.

"Pani ah," she said. Oh no, she's Erika? How can I be wrong?

"I'm in your dream to formally say goodbye to you," I frowned. 

Goodbye? This was a dream?

"What? Goodbye? Why? Don't leave me please..." I pleaded.

Erika shook her head "My time is up Pani... Anyway, I remember everything and I'm your guardian."

"Guardian?" She remembered everything?

"I'm your guardian angel. My mission was to protect you and also, for you to love me but I guess I failed. 25 days aren't enough," Erika stated.

Then her wings spread wide opened, it was stunning white with red shadow on its edge. It's sparkling, I walked closer to her and scrutinized it. It's a bizarre to see this kind of thing. 

So Erika is an angel?

"If you fail, what will happen to you?"

"I'm still a human Pani, I just have angel abilities. Now that I failed my mission my soul will go where it belongs," she explained.

I hugged and she hugged me back "No please stay with me Erika. Don't leave me, I will die."

Erika faced me and her brows snapped together "Don't say that! Live your life even without me. Promise I will look after you. I need to go Pani, it's my time."

I didn't notice but tears already shimmered in my eyes "No please Erika! Don't go," I held her arm begging not to go.

Erika held my hands and kissed the back of it "I'm sorry I can't stay anymore, please take care of yourself," she tip toed and kissed my forehead. "I love you Tiffany. I will always do."

Erika let go of my hands and turned around. She began to walked away. I wanted to run and chase her but I couldn't move.

And with what she said, it's the same as what Taeyeon said to me.

"Erika! Please Erika!" I continued to call out her name then she turned around, she smile for the last time and started to fade.

"No! No! Erika!!!" If this is a dream, I want to wake up. Wake up Tiffany! Wake up. And this wasn't dream, this was a nightmare!

Finally I woke up from my nightmare, I was sweating and crying for real. And about my dream, I could still remember it, it's odd to feel like it really happened.

I turned to look at my side, Erika wasn't beside me anymore. I quickly sat up. Where is she?

I dragged my feet from the bed and walked to the bathroom but she's not there. I ran outside the living room, kitchen, and all around my apartment but she's not there. 

I'm getting nervous.

I went back to my room, I held my phone and dialed Erika's number then I heard her phone rang on the bed. 

Shit. She left it!

What if my dream was true? How can I find Erika? Is she really going to leave me? That's why she acted different??

No, this wasn't real. 

Waking up without her is more than a nightmare.

I feel something heavy in my chest and I'm suffocating.

I want to die now.

Just let me die!

Suddenly, my phone rang and I picked it up.

I stiffened "Okay... I'll be there in 15 minutes," then I hang up and ran as fast as I can.

I need to go there.

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