my madness see no end, i smile, for others dont know my pain, seeing but not yet knowing, what i hide underneath, i go though life acting normal, laugh and play, friends and lovers, yet i cant escape it all, the pain unbearable, i scream inside my head, but... i feel nothing..

no emotions to cry behind ,not knowing how to be sad, angry or happy, my autistic brain see another side to this equations of life, 

is there no end, where do we go? do we as humans in life all we do is live, repopulate then die??

yet here i am, death after death, my family growing shorter,

my heart aches, each time i lose a piece i loved, but there has always been a bright side of life hasn't there...

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