You had been persuaded to add both Staticbolt with you on this excursion to the unknown planet of earth bringing the total of bots up to six. That wasn't a large party, but you it was better there wasn't a lot of bots on this mission, who knows when you'd encounter energon again. 

So, you left with the night ahead of you until you hand to leave for this mission. So you were left in the dark skies of your thoughts in the harsh turbulence of bittersweet memories. 

You let the extra armor plates snap free from your shoulders and chassis. The flexible plating of the spinal strut snapped free sending the extra plates of your pedes to snap away allowing you to step down onto the cold ground. You did so and rubbed at your true plates. 

The ancient royal armor, a relic that was once in the museum taken out once the war began and Vos was destroyed. It was in your possession know. It was now match for the apex armor, but gave you an edge in battle. 

And one more sharp edge was better then a dull one. 

You rubbed the slight chill from your plates. It was too cold in your berth room. The space much too large and empty for your tastes. Even under the plush blankets on your berth you felt harsh chill of being loneliness. 

It was a cold that set over your plates that made you feel like a pathetic sparkling yearning and whining for their favorite toy, except this was just you still mourning those that have fallen so many years ago. 

You snapped your visor and facemask away and took a deep vent of the cold musty air. 

Get ahold of yourself.  

Stop acting like a child. 

Stop feeling sad about the past!

You couldn't help it. You missed so many bots that you've lost.

You pulled the familiar cloth and began to rub the soft material against your face plate. You closed your optics.

"My sweet dear femme~

I love you so~

I can't hear them~

When I'm with you~"

You smiled at the old familiar tone once sung you in an act of courting.

"My sweet sweet dear~

My sweet darling lover~

I'll sing for all to hear~

You and I are one and the same~"

You sat down on your berth and pressed your cheek into the cloth more

"My dearest royal~

You are sweet~

To you I'll be loyal~

My small slice of sky~"

You sighed breathily as the last note rung around in your helm like an eerie echo. 

Your brows visibly scrunched in thought as you choked on a sob. Your wings slipped low and started to tremble.

Your spark was pained you as memories and feelings began to rearise in your chassis.

"I..." You whimpered to no one, "I miss you so much..."

You rubbed your face into the cloth more whimpering at the faint scent of him.

You loved him too much, but you have to move on.

You have to move on for your kind, but you were stuck in the past.

A past you would never have again.