I do have a history of self-harm. I'm not proud of it, but sometimes it just couldn't be helped. I've actually never used a knife for self harm, I never wanted to stay with those scars. In the beginning, when I started years ago, I would scratch myself until I bled; usually I scratched at my chest since it just felt right, but I would have to wear high shirts or turtle necks to school for a while. Then, I moved onto biting. I would bite myself on my fingers until I bled, but made them, from their positioning, look like normal cuts you would get from doing an activity. I never really was fond of using a knife for some reason, it just never attracted me. I guess I just liked hurting myself using myself better. Though, I hated having proof of any sort of self harm that could be caught, so I discovered rubber bands. The rubber bands you would snap when you want to cut yourself. Surprisingly, it works. Every time I feel like hurting myself, I just snap the rubber band over my wrist to try and calm down the urge. I also got an app called Calm Harm that helps to get over self-harming urges that helps as well... but not all the time. There are multiple reasons to self harm, in my case it is to punish myself or try to relieve myself of negative feelings through the pain I give myself. Self harm isn't just for attention as people say, it's more than that. "Horizontal for attention, vertical for results" says the saying, but I hate it. The jokes of cutting and suicide. The people just doing self harm for attention or because others are instead of for actual reasons. The people who ignore the cries for help. Self harm is a serious and actual thing, not something to be joked about and put on lightly. I do not support people cutting or doing themselves any sort of harm; physically or psychologically. If you do self harm, I understand and many other people do too, you aren't alone.