I wake up and feel sick. I hear foot steps and look out my door. My mom was just comming out of the bathroom.

I look at my clock 3:00 am I groan. My mom looks back and I run to my bed and my mom comes in, "Nicki? Are you awake?" I look back and she looks at me.

"Are you ok?" She asks. I hold my stomach I don't feel ok. I wonder why. I nod no and she walks over and sits on my bed.

"Why?" She asks worried.

"My stomach. It's feels like I'm going to throw up." I say in a whisper so I don't wake up my sister.

She feels my forehead, "no fever." She says and I frown. "It's just stress maybe. Just get some rest." She smiles and I sigh. She walks out and I slam my head on my pillow and scream but muffle it.

My sister walks in and I tell her to get out and I slam the door behind her. My mom comes in and I look at her.

"Are you oka-"

"GO AWAY!!" I scream. She looks at me startled.

"Why are you like this?!" She yells at me.

"YOU ALWAYS SAY ITS GOING TO BE OKAY BUT ITS NOT!! I NEVER HAVE THE CONFIDENCE TO DO ANYTHING AND YOU JUST SAY THE FUCKING SAME THING EVREY TIME!! ITS GOING TO BE OKAY!! IM TIRED OF IT!! IM FUCKING TIRED OF IT!!!" I scream at her and cry and cover my mouth and sit down on my bed and cry. My sister walks in.

"What's going on?" She says.

Why does she have to ruin everything?! She always barges into my personal problems! She does this all the time! I'm tired of it!!!

I walk up to her and smack her in the face and push her out with mom and slam the door shut and lock it.

"NICKI GET OUT OF THERE RIGHT NOW!!!" My mom yells.

"OW!!! MOMMY!!" My sister cry's.

I suddenly feel bad. I start balling and fall to to my knees and scream and cry and go on my back and flail my legs. I punch myself feeling like I'm a harmful yet useless person. I kick the wall and flip my chair over and throw homework in the air.

"what's wrong with him?" My sister asks. I pause.

"Nothing he is just going through A mood swing. A really big one too. It's just part of growing." She says to her.

I pause and slide down the wall. Did she just say that to my sister? I panic.

What if she says that in front of August?! What if she yells it out of no where?! Then people will make fun of me so much!! Then I might commit suicide!! And only my mom and sister will come to my funeral!! No one will care about me!!

I start hyperventilating and start sweating and feel dizzy. I start crying and hug myself.

"Nicki?" My mom calls softly knocking on the door. I look up.

"Y- yeah?" I mumble quietly.

"Please, open up." She begs. I crawl over and open the door fully clothed my hoodie up and everything. I close the door so my sister won't come in.
She takes my hoodie down.

She sees my cut up face and gasps.