I stood up and let go of Lexa's hand. "What do you want from me?" I asked him. And stood up and ran for Jean [Dzi: n]. He is my ex boyfriend and every time I hear his name or his voice or see him always comes this memory.

Flashback:

It rang at the door and I knew it was Jean. So I went downstairs and opened the door. I smelled immediately that he had drunk alcohol I realized that it was beer. He drank most of the time often Alk mostly to my suffer because then he was always unpredictable although he had never done anything to me yet but I know that it could sometime perhaps come so far. In spite of the fact that he had drunk Alk, I had to be a little disgusted with him, yes I love him more than my own life, even my animals I neglect for him. For the sorrow of my mom because of this, we argued more often, which led to our relationship getting worse when it came to this topic. Jean and I went upstairs to my room after the kiss. As soon as I had closed the door to him and told him that we had no storm, he almost turned around completely. He came to me and kissed me stormily until I found it still totally romantic. Then he pulled me right in the direction of the bed during the kiss and then he wanted to go with my hands under my T-shirt. I already put his hands away but that he did not want to accept. "We've been almost two months together now, we have not had sex until now. You're still a virgin as I am, even though I do not know anyone about it." He said furiously that I did not let him go. He threw me on my bed while he was talking and sat down afterwards on my basin. He pulled his belt out of the loops and band it around my wrists. I tried to fight back but as a boxer he was now stronger than me. Kicking and beating my side left him cold. He first took my wrist and pushed it down, to my hip, immediately he put his leg on my left arm on it. He did not need it any longer, and he already had my right arm. Then he took his belt and belt first around my right wrist and then took my left and grabbed my two wrists and released briefly the belt. Just to clamp it up around my bedstead. Then he took my wrists which he held with one hand all the time and with his other hand made the belt around her and pulled it so tightly it went. I screamed all the time for help but no one heard me and could help me. Then he walked away from me and took one of my loop shawls that hung on a chair and tied it around my head, so no one could hear my screams if someone were to run along with us.