When you become a teenager you start to feel some type of wat about yourself.

Like are you straght and shit like that.

Well not only was i thinking about by am i straght but i hated myself.

Am the second oldest in my family. My parent are thinking i'll come home with good grades.

But no it's always my little sister. They would brag to other people about how good she was in school. How she made A honor role. While I fail a damn math class ever fucking year.

Then to make it worst kids at my school think i was stupid. I made a fool of myself in science class one time for not getting a answer write. A girl even said i went to a retard school. We went to the same school.

Also the alot of the girls at my school were very skinny. While i was fat. I would always hurry to put my gym outfit on and get out as fast as i can.

The  people at my school don't cry easaly well my friend do. I can find myself crying so fast when people said mean things about me.

All i wanted to do was kill myself. But i keep telling myself that people care about you.

I wish i was not fighting this right now.

If your having the same problem you can always talk to me about is what my family say. Even tho they are some of the problem