Kie's POV:

John B and Pope left to give me and my parents some time alone. I was dreading the speech that I was about to get. They were going to be pissed that I was pregnant with a pogue's baby and tried to kill myself to be with said pogue. 

I laid there and my mom just hugged me and said, "I'm so sorry that I didn't realize how much you were struggling with JJ's death. I knew it was bad but I didn't realize it was this bad"

"It's not your fault, I didn't want you guys to know" I admitted

I saw my dad sitting in the chair next to my bed and he was crying. I've never seen my dad cry before, not even at JJ's funeral. 

"Dad, are you okay?"

"I'm so sorry, honey... I love you and my job as a father is to protect you and I couldn't do that. I just want you to know how sorry I am for everything. I never gave JJ the chance that I should have and I will regret that for the rest of my life. I'm just so glad that you're okay and that I'm going to be a grandpa"

"You guys aren't mad?"

"No, you're an adult and that baby was created with so much love" My dad said

He walked over and hugged me and so did my mom. It was like this baby was healing my broken heart and my relationship with my parents. I looked at them and said, "I just want you guys to know that her last name is going to be Maybank"

"As it should be" My dad smiled which made me cry, he finally accepted JJ

My parents spent another hour or so with me and then they said goodbye and that they would be back tomorrow since I had to spend a few days here for mental health evaluations. John B and Pope came back into the room. They had informed Sarah and Cleo that I was okay, they were letting me tell them about the baby.

They both just looked at me and I could tell how sad and scared they were. John B was the first to speak and lighten the mood by saying, "JJ was never one to remember a condom"

I started laughing and so did Pope and John B. I looked at them and said, "Before you say anything, it was nothing you guys did. My heart was and still is broken and aching for JJ. I just wanted to be with him and I got to see him for a bit when I was passed out. He's okay and he's with us even if he isn't physically here"

John B hugged me he was crying, "Don't ever do that again, losing JJ was hard enough. I can't lose you and baby Maybank"

He pulled back realizing what he said and said, "Or baby Carrera" which I thought was cute because he knew me. He knew if JJ was here I would have challenged him and asked why we were giving our daughter his last name, but he was gone so he won.

"Baby Maybank" I confirmed

We were all quiet and then I saw both boys were holding back tears.

"I love you, Kiara and I love baby Maybank. I'm sorry I wasn't there for you" Pope said

"We love you too" I said as Pope hugged me

John B got in bed with me and hugged me and said, "I love you too, you're my best friend and I can't lose you"

"I love you, John B and you won't... I need to be here for baby Maybank"

Pope hugged me from the other side; all that was missing was JJ. Our hug broke and I looked at my two best friends and said, "Thank you for coming to the hospital and being here for me. I love you guys so much"

"What can we do to help you?"

"Nothing, the only thing that would heal me completely would be to bring JJ back and that can't happen. Being pregnant with his baby somehow makes me feel better. It makes me feel like I'm not alone, you know I'll always have a piece of him with me"

"That little girl is going to look just like you but have JJ's personality" Pope said 

"Nothing would make me happier" I smiled thinking about it

John B and Pope hung out for about thirty minutes and then visiting hours were over. They hugged me goodbye and John B said, "Pope, you can head home. I'm going to spend the night with Kie"

"You don't have to" I said feeling bad that he would be leaving Sarah alone for the night

"Yes, I do... I wasn't supposed to tell you this but when you and JJ first got together he made me promise that if something ever happened to you that I would take care of you. I promised him that I would but never thought I'd actually have to"

I had tears in my eyes and Pope hugged me goodnight and kissed the top of my head. He went home and John B got comfortable in the small chair. The nurses came in to check on me and then she shut the lights off on the way out. I couldn't sleep and neither could John B.

He got up and came and laid with me in the small hospital bed. He wrapped his arms around me and said, "I know that I'm not JJ, but you shouldn't be alone tonight"

I rested my head on his chest and said, "Thank you"

John B was my best friend and even though he kissed me, we both realized there were no feelings. There never have been any feelings between us, always platonic. I was so thankful for our friendship. He was the one who introduced me to JJ. 

He put his hand on my stomach and said, "Hey, baby Maybank, it's your uncle John B here and I just want you to know you are already so loved and we can't wait to meet you. P4L"

I started crying and he kissed my head and I said, "When I was out, I was with JJ and he talked to my stomach too"

"Of course, he did... He would have been the best dad. Everyone would think he'd be the worst based on how he grew up with Luke, but that's what would make him the best. He would know how shitty he felt and make sure his kids never felt that way"

"Even though his dad abused him, he was still happy and still showed us so much love. You know, he forgave Luke when I talked to him?"

"Really?"

"Yeah, compared to Chandler, he said Luke gave him a great childhood" I said and explained the stories JJ told me about Luke teaching him how to fish

I eventually fell asleep in John B's arms and we were woken up by Sarah and Cleo entering the room. 

"Good morning" Cleo said softly

"Hi" I said as John B woke up and got out of bed to stretch

Sarah and Cleo both hugged me and asked, "How are you doing?"

"I'm okay..." I said

"Kie, you tried to..." Sarah trailed off

"I know, I just wanted to be with JJ and I got to be with him. I passed out and was out for a bit and eventually my heart stopped. They had do CPR and I came back. I was with him and I didn't want to leave him. I was okay with dying because I was safe on the beach with JJ but then he told me it wasn't just my life that I'd be ending and I knew I had to come back"

"Are you saying what I think you're saying?" Sarah asked

"I'm pregnant with JJ's baby and it's a little girl" I said smiling with tears in my eyes

"Cheese on breadddd" Cleo smiled as she hugged me

Sarah's eyes filled with tears and she was crying. I felt bad because she lost her baby and now I'm having on. 

"Sarah, I'm sorry about your baby and I know..." I was speaking but she cut me off

"No, don't ever apologize. I'm not crying about that, I'm crying because I miss JJ. He was like a brother to me and now you're having his baby. I get to be Auntie Sarah to JJ's baby and that's something I never thought I'd get in life"

I was crying with my best friend and I said, "Come here"

She hugged me and then she felt my stomach and said, "Auntie Sarah loves you"

Cleo put her hand on my stomach and said, "So does Auntie Cleo"

I had my girls here and they were so excited to be adding another girl to the family. They hung out with me for a few hours and then my mom came to the hospital to pick me up and bring me home. She was scared to leave me alone, but I looked at her and said, "Mom, I promise never to do something like that again. I'm going to be a mom and my daughter needs me. I'm going to be okay without JJ, I'll love him and miss him forever, but I'm going to be okay. I have John B, Pope, Sarah, and Cleo. I also have you and dad, I've got my village"

My mom hugged me and then she asked, "Do you want to stay here or do you want to go back home with your friends?"

"I don't know yet. I want to stay here for a few days and get some sleep"

My mom and I hung out on the couch all day and watched movies. I missed JJ, but I was going to be okay. My dad came home and my parents made dinner together. My dad grilled chicken on the grill and my mom made the sides. We sat down at the table together and had a nice meal together. I ate normally and I knew my mom was glad that I was finally eating again. She even made an amazing dessert.

After dinner, we played a game and then my mom ran to the grocery store. I decided to go with her. We got food for meals this week and I got a few random foods that I was craving. We went next store to a small boutique where they sold baby clothes. I immediately saw the cutest outfit and my bought it for me, for baby Maybank.