I'm going to write my thoughts out to help me clear my mind I guess cuz today I was thing a lot

Does anyone else have like really good friends

But they only know u for one part of ur self

Better question does anyone else have like not really multiple personalities but different kind of I guess like just very different personalities

Because I've really been thinking and being likeeeeeeeeee very thoughtful (yes for once)
Let me collaborate

I met a lot of my friends with a very happy attitude but like those of my friends that have been with me since elementary have seen many different attitudes with me and a lot of the time it's just situations who I'm with and how I'm feeling so really no one completely understands me and all my attitudes or personalities
I can be

Serious- like when we're doing group projects and I get assigned to the group with the slackers so I have to take charge and boss people around (yes I like to be in charge and am good at it but I will accept working in cooperation with others I will not accept being bosses around or being looked down on

Crazy- I'm like this about 100% of the time ,im usually very happy annoying (to some) and very energetic

Thoughtful- usually when I'm quiet people think I'm depressed (which sometimes I am)
But to me there a difference in how I act in both. When I'm thoughtful I'm usually looking at a single point or u just get a spacey feeling from me (once I was told when I was sitting in front of a door that had light coming through it (the rest of the room was dark) that I looked like someone else sitting down (this was when we had one act competition))

Depressed- I'm usually like I am when I'm thoughtful (quiet) but u can just really tell when I'm sad AND YES I am happy to have company I do want someone to comfort me NO I don't want to be alone even if I tell u to go away I don't want u to honestly I just want u to stay by my side .... no matter what mood I'm in I never want to be alone

Serious2 - I talk about really important (sometimes comforting some times depressing) things (I will comfort u and help talk things out) a lot of times I will really try to help u feel better and I'm very mature (for a while (till I go back to crazy) )

Bitchy- I'm only like this when I really hate someone but I will talk back disrespect and be very hard to work with ( it takes a lot to get me to this point)

Cringe- when I'm like this I'll be very nerdy I'll talk about anime memes fanfics and tumblr (because why not)

Some tips when dealing with me

Usually I kid around a lot and don't mean to be rude to others ( I'm very Canadian because after I say a comeback I always say " JK JK JK JK JK JK JK I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm reallllllllyyyyyyyyyyyyy sorrrrrryyyy plz don't be mad!!!!"

If I do something mean to u it doesn't mean I hate u or don't like u usually it's the opposite and I really do like u

If I ever ignore u it probably PROBABLY means I'm mad at u or I don't like u (if I annoy u more than most than I reaalllllyyyyyy care about u)

I am very superstitious and love conspiracies so I will not make fun of any conspiracies u have or any thing u want to tell me(I'm probably cringer anyways)

Plz know that a lot of times I'll really mean the opposite of what I say I don't really mean a lot of things that I say

When I ever tell u to stop doing something I don't do it because I don't like it it's just how I am instead of like complementing I usually say "stop........ just stop" or "#stop the cringe"

Know the difference between awkward silence and comfortable silence really!! Sometimes I just really don't want to talk and am comfortable like that don't try to start more conversations with me because I'll probably answer bluntly

I might act like I hate u or annoying people but sometimes I just really grow used to the noise the arguments and the talking so when their quiet because I said something I feel like somethings missing (but their are those cases where u people just annoy the crap out of me)

There is a lot more too ...........in betweens and
Other situations my mood ,my private life, my friends, drama, if I've keep my emotions balled up and need to vent ( I do this a lot and usually well more than 99.9% of the time I'll put my friends before my emotions even if I end up crying or hurt)

One thing I've been told this year
(It really affected me (mainly because my teacher said it))

Last year I didn't have the best of friends (not pointing fingers , I still have some good friends from last year) , it just felt to me as if they didn't care or as if I wasn't part of them ..................So a few days ago I was talking with one of my teachers and he asked why I didn't smile as much (last year) as I did now
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That took me by surprise he knew nothing about my social life by he said from the few times he saw me in class last year ( I didn't have him) i was never smiling

Idk if he's had experience in this or what but all I said was now I have better friends and am no longer closing myself off

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MissAnon1987 thanks for the votes😆

I love 2018 so far!!!

Well if u red this thanks I guess for caring about me enough to read this all ☺️