I'm just casually crying over the fact that died in yet another season and that this time instead of Zayn killing him like we used to a new guy got a new guy killed him because apparently Blaze and Erin overthrew him when he became Alpha because he was a bad Alpha and that's pretty much why I I think that that's the reason he was an Omega at the beginning of the season and more more as the story comes forth I'm beginning to see that my theory of Ian becoming a high school boyfriend first High School boyfriend was correct because since even though they're inside the Alpha and the alpha male and alpha female don't have to date I feel that since Ian and I already had a connection that I wanted to date him and seeing how today's episode of the emerald Secret my street season 4 is I mean this is the longest series we had call Daphne's fiance someone saying this 10 minutes 20 minutes brainwashed and I don't think that's fair Since Aaron has known her since middle school and Ian Berry met her in their sophomore year and Atkinson I think I hate you more ever since you can you was introduced but I mean Christopher Escalante made his voice so much better and I don't hate him as much but I still hate him so Christopher Escalante the only reason I'm cool with him being in voice is cuz Christopher has Christopher is like a good person and and he is like amazing music so I don't think he'd ever do this in real life and he's an adult he knows what he should do and what his responsibilities are so I don't think murdering someone would ever be in his State of Mind since he loves composing music music yeah so I think that that made it better for me too tone it down a little but yeah I still cried and I'm pretty much just losing my voice right now I screamed at the top of my lungs someone better save Aaron at the bottom of the cliff and so far no someone Kim you're my last resort, and someone save him and I was just screaming out my motions and I didn't care who her but I didn't care if my neighbors heard I don't care who heard I was just I was breaking down I don't care about anything at the moment and it's only been like a couple hours since the episode came out and I'm still not over it Minecraft Diaries Aaron died that wasn't comfortable for me I had never cried I broke down I was still in heartbreak from yesterday's episode of alpha to and I was just I still had that heart broken heart when I saw the title of today's episode I just lost it I just flipping lost it I couldn't think that my first reaction was look at the and what is always a bloody knives jacket information I'd probably because because because I don't think he's going to throw at cousin that I think I hate in more ever since he came you was introduced but I mean Christopher Escalante made his voice so much better and I don't hate them as much but I still hate them so Christopher is come on that it the only reason I like our cool with him being Ian's boys is cuz Christopher has like Christopher's like a good person and and he has like amazing musics I don't think he never do this and entry life and he's a grown adult he knows why he should do and what his responsibilities are so I don't think murdering someone whatever be in his State of mind since he you loves composing musics music and yeah show I think that that made it better for me to like the tone it down a little but yeah I still cried and I'm pretty much just losing my voice right now I screamed out at the top of my lungs "someone better save Aaron at the bottom of the cliff like Aaron's dad, Sylvanna someone, Kim your my last resort come on, someone save him" and I was just screaming out like my emotions and I didn't care who heard the I am I'm a donut the moment so no one could have probably no one heard me but I don't care of my neighbors heard I didn't care who heard I was just I was breaking down I I didn't care about anything at the moment and sleeping like a couple hours the episode came out and I am still not over it this happened to me a like I think minecraft Diaries to when Aaron died buy the hands of Zane and that that wasn't comfortable for me I had never cried is my back and then I don't ass forward to now and I cried we more right I just broke down I was still and heartbreak from yesterday episode of Phoenix drop hi went Aaron gave up his title of alpha to Ian and I was just I still had that heartbroken heart and when I saw the title of today's episode I just lost it I just flipping lost it I couldn't think the foot my first reaction was looking the thumbnail and what I saw was a bloody knife and a part of errands jacket and was it Andrew the line for me I already from. Information I got there that he was dead and I'm probably never see Aaron again and another season because season or or series because ass apparently loves kidding off Aaron because I don't think he's going to show back and Phoenix drop hi since we'll apparently he thrown and quotation marks en with with blaze and well since he was heartbroken I I don't know he had he didn't really hand-pick Ian to be next Alpha but from the information he had gathered from Blaze. EU Rowland and Daniel he had seen that he was a good guy but no he wasn't and looking back on it now my theory was correct I kind of wish it wasn't because it breaks my heart that Aaron had to go through all this and and that ass had to be a victim of all of this and but it's not my job to write if it's Jesse's job not completely but her and her crew his job to write up what the story is going to be and how it's going to play out and it was bad enough when aphmau and Aaron had their short break but now that Aaron died in the series I don't know take it I barely lived through Minecraft Diaries without Aaron there to support a friend he has not found the note that have left the night he died that just broke my heart even more because it was terribly terribly sad on how Aaron new how much Garth meant to ask now so he risked his life to save another that is like an active a chance that everyone anyone can have or do or say anyone can help someone in need of rescue you like if it's a suicidal person or if they're just in trouble and they need medical help or something then yeah but this is episode today even my friends what's wrong or what my friends who didn't know what was happening like it's nothing it's just watching one of my favorite characters died from the hands of his loved one I just cried it was terrible for me because I don't do this to me I haven't cried in awhile and reliving Aaron's death again just it just hurts to see that Aaron had so much love as I was the only light to him it was the only good thing in his life and that killed him that's just the worst thing for me to realize Aaron had such a such a bad childhood and when aphmau came into his life he was ecstatic he was his life just changed for the better but now it took a turn for the worse today I just needed some some place to put this and I felt that updating the chapter would be the best that for me since I haven't done that and a while and since this represents my life I thought it was the best place even though this doesn't really is it really based off my life but something that happened and that's pretty much what I wanted to do with this book so yeah here first actually the longest this one thanks for reading and I love you all bye💖