This is kinda a short rant but I thought doing this will help get my emotions out better than writing a poem would.

I've been having troubles with my mother lately. A persons likeability can drop almost instantly. I was actually beginning to like my mother for once. Her likeability rate was slowly growing for a couple of weeks before the trouble I'm having with her.

And on Friday night it started dropping, I was listening to music on my phone while hand washing some stuff. She came in and asked me what I was listening to. The music I have on my phone I have listened to them so many times it makes me sick to listen to it so I was listening to music on YouTube.

She told me to turn it off and that I wasn't supposed to be on the Internet on my phone. It sucks and most of the stuff I do on my phone requires the internet so it was like I was grounded. Earlier that day she asked me if I'd like to be grounded. I thought 'Is there a difference?'

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On Saturday, I thought we were going to a store that I needed stuff from but she said this to me 'It's only fun for you since you're the only one who needs stuff' which means 'I don't give a damn if you need something, it's boring for your brothers so were not going.' That's totally unfair for me. We could have stop by the Lego Store or something on the way for a treat for them.

I actually need something and my mom is the one who will take me but apparently boredom means more than what your own daughter's needs. But I don't really want to be her daughter anymore. I'll cook for the boys instead of you. I even take care of them for you.

But when I actually need something, you turn away and leave me. Well, FUCK YOU AND I HOPE YOU GO TO HEAVEN! I really don't want to see her in hell. Heaven's overrated for me and Jake from Your Brand New Obsession. -the song up above says that Heaven is overrated-

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*sighs* This isn't the only time she's gone back on her word. That's what I get for actually buying her act, again. I can't wait until the 1158 days until my 18th birthday. Then I can hopefully move in with my friend and leave this dungeon. And yes I calculated the days until my 18th birthday. I'm good-ish at math.

I'm just so tired of this. I've been mostly grunting or humming in response irl. I just wanna sleep most of the time and don't eat as much as I used to, which is a good thing since I don't want to over-eat. I mostly eat sweet stuff tho so it doesn't really help. At least my brothers let me sleep in, take naps and leave me alone most of the time.

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I want to go to school so much to distract me from this but then I don't since on the third day of school my family and my mom switches network systems. I have to find the password for it to be on Wattpad using my tablet. Although my dad is my best bet if I don't find the password.

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Thanks for reading my rant. Here's a cookie *gives you a cookie*