Tiffany's POV

I feel like I'm lost and I don't want to continue my life. I just want to disappear in this world like I didn't exist, no one will even care if that happen.

"I just wanna die!" I said again as I sniffled and my voice cracked.

"I'm not going to let that happen..." Someone said behind my back. I quickly looked up and turned around to see the person.

"Wha... wha... are..." I can't utter my words because I'm shocked and confused.

"Get up now, come..." She said and gave a hand to me. I did what she said, I stood up and took her hand.

"I'm sorry..."

"Wh-what are you doing h-here?" I asked, I want to know certainly.

"Um... Just checking you around?"

"So you see me here, now what?" I coldly said.

"Then let's go home Pani" What? Go home?? Is she blind? I don't have my home now. And yes, it's Taeyeon.

"I paid your debts and I'm the one who took out your things here." Say what?? She did what?

"What do you mean??" So she wanted me to be homeless huh?

"You'll live with me" She simply said.

"Huh? What?? Are you serious??" Is she playing or what?

"As what I said, I want you to live with me." Taeyeon clearly said "I just want you to live with me, that's why I said that. Promise I will take care of you and I'll protect you... because I care for you Pani." This is real right? I'm not dreaming?

Eventually, I feel better and I hugged her tight "You babo! You just have to say it to me. You don't have to hurt me like that, I thought you don't really care about me!" I scolded her.

"I know you will just insist to borrow money rather than to live in my house. You're stubborn like Auntie Hyo, I need to do that because I want to make sure that you'll gonna live with me. And yes, I'm selfish cuz I really want you to live with me." She hugged me back and I smiled as I buried my face into her crook. She's like a parrot saying she really want to live with me.

"You don't know how much it means to me Tae, thank you." I feel so happy that finally someone cares for me and who's willing to protect me when I feel so weak, like this. Her smell, soothed me. Her warm, secured me. I'm really touched, my tears now was tears of joy.

"We're friends right? So don't cry now Pani, let's go home." And her words and actions that blended together, it makes me fall in love with her. Is she still like me? But yeah, we will make it slow though I'm dying to make her mine. I don't care about her money and power, I just want to be with her. 

Taeyeon pulled herself away to face me then she wiped my tears "I don't want to see you crying, it hurts me. Don't you like to live with me?" She looked worried.

"Of course... I want to live with you" I answered with all my heart.

"Okay, wait here... I will just get the car" She was about to leave but I tugged her shirt and the moment she looked at me, I gave her a peck on lips.

Taeyeon was so cute when her face reddened "What was that for?" She asked.

"Nothing... I just want to kiss you" I admitted, it's not a reward for her I just can't resist the urge to kiss her.

Taeyeon smiled at me and now it's my turn to blush "I want it too but I will try to control myself since we agreed to make it slow. I really like you Tiffany and I want to trust you, I swear."

I nodded "I will show you that you can trust me Tae and for that, I need to show 'em who I am." I confidently said

Taeyeon raised her eyebrows "So... on Monday, you will be yourself at school?"

"Yes, I will not bully again. I hope if you reveal yourself as Erika, we can be friends and show them-"

She interrupted me "Of course, we can be friends and let's show it to everybody."

I gave her eye smile, I'm so happy with that. Now, I can talk to her, touch her, or even hug her at school like Yoona did before. I never thought that our relationship as friends will go as far and quick as here. I hate her before, no, I just don't like her cuz I thought she's weak. I guess this idiom is right "Don't judge a book by its cover", you shouldn't prejudge the worth of something by its outward appearance only. 

Taeyeon is strong inside unlike me, I look strong outside but I'm so weak inside. She gave colors to my life, I'm excited to live now everyday knowing that she's around me. Am I falling for her already? But the thing is... Is she going to catch me? 

"Pani?" She called me, and I snapped back to reality "Are you okay? What's wrong?"

I shook my head "Um... I'm just happy because you're here."

"Whoa, where's the arrogant and snob Hwang Tiffany that I know? You're different now."

I pouted, so that's how she thinks of me??

"But I like it Pani, if you're being yourself now with me. I like it. I mean, I'm more liking it." Taeyeon added and I smiled.

"Yes, this is me... The real me. I can be myself with you Tae so I'm not afraid to show everyone who really I am when I'm with you." I earnestly said looking deep into her eyes.

"I like you being real Tiffany, you're so much more than you think. Always depend on yourself never on others. Don't think about what will people think of you being yourself, I mean there's nothing to be ashamed." Taeyeon said like she's giving me lectures now. I need it.

"It's your life and if they judge you, just let them... they don't know what you have gone through to be yourself now. Human's nature is to judge... to critic but what matter is those people who will accept and love the real you even if you have your flaws." She has a point, she always have points... points gained to my heart. 

Taeyeon caressed my cheek and I feel it as I leaned to it and shut my eyes "I want to take care of you Pani, allow me please?"

I opened my eyes and gazed at her "Please... take care of me Tae, thank you."

Taeyeon hugged me tight and I did the same. I feel so much better, this is the first time that I feel this. All the burdens and worries have gone just because I'm with her. She's so amazing.

"So... let me take the car now. It's getting late." She chuckled.

I giggled "Okay" Whew, gosh Tiffany... control yourself.

Then Taeyeon rushed to the parking area to get her car.

*****

In a flash, I am standing in a room wearing a pair of pajamas. Taeyeon was in front of me wearing pajamas too. I settled my things when I got here an hour ago. This room was just beside Taeyeon's and this was the previous room of Mrs. Lee because when she come back here with her family, they will just live here around the village. Hmm but I'm not really sure of that, her daughter was still studying in Middle School at Busan.

"So what do you think? Do you like your new room?" Taeyeon asked.

"Yes, it's quite big. It's bigger than my former apartment actually, I like it." Yeah, it's bigger and it looks more comfy. 

"Good, I'm glad you like it or you will be forced to move in my room" Taeyeon playfully said as she waggled her eyebrows.

Well I like the idea to move in her room, don't get me wrong I just want to cuddle her and I'm sure I will sleep more comfortable with her like when we're in the library. Like I mentioned before,  her smell soothes me and her warm secures me.

"I guess you're enjoying talking to yourself, mind sharing?" Taeyeon said as she tilted her head looking at me.

I hung my head "Sorry, I just... I mean..." Gyaaah!!! What will I say?? No I'm not going to say that I want to move in her room! No! NO!!!

"I'm just really thankful that you helped me with my problems Tae, thank you so much" I didn't lie, I'm really thankful of course.

"You're always welcome Pani but please you said it a hundred times already and I appreciate it. Enough for that, I'm happy for helping you." Taeyeon puffed her cheeks.

"I just want to make it up to you" I grumbled "But I don't know how" She got everything. What else could I give?

"It's okay Pani, I'm not asking for anything in return."

"Then what do you want me to do instead?" I insisted.

"You'll do everything?" Taeyeon slyly smiled.

I gulped "Ye-yeah?" Everything?? Aishh... What's on your mind Taeyeon!?

Taeyeon tittered then shegave mirthless laugh, she's like an ahjumma -_-

"Wh-what? Wha-at is it?" I stuttered.

Then Taeyeon stopped laughing and looked at me intently "Always hold my hands, I want to feel the warmth of you."

I slowly held her hands "Like this?"

Taeyeon nodded then she held my right hand with her left and intertwined it "And like this... I'm possessive Pani, what mine is mine. I want to show it to the world."

Instantly, my mouth curved into a smile and I know my cheeks turned red.

"But I can't do that if the world still know that you are in a relationship with him" Taeyeon said with her soft voice, she became sad and I hate to see her like this.

"Cheol Woo is not really my boyfriend Tae" I exclaimed

"I know you said it before but people thinks that you two are in a relationship because you wanted them - us to think that you two are like that." 

"So what do you want me to do?" Say it Tae, say that you want me to announce our breakup.

"....." 

"Do you want me to announce our breakup?" Say yes! Please.

Taeyeon stared at me "What if I say yes?"

"Then I will do it" I quickly replied.

"Are you sure about it?" I can see that she was doubtful.

"Cheol Woo is just my friend, I can talk to him to end this act." I wanted to convince her that it's all fake.

"Don't you like him?" Huh? Is she jealous?

"Yes, I like him... just a friend." Then Taeyeon let go of my hand and I hugged her in reflex "Don't go please... are you mad?"

But she didn't answer.

I'm being nervous.

I don't know what to do.

What will I do?

Eottoke?? T_T

Then suddenly I feel her warm arms wrapping around me "I'm not mad, I'm jealous... and I'm sorry" I patted her head.

"I will announce it tomorrow, I promise" I stiffly said, I want to assure her.

"O-okay" She mumbled so I faced her and looked in her eyes.

"Even if we're not YET TOGETHER..." I emphasized the last two words "I'm yours I mean, my heart is yours Tae." I mentally slapped my forehead, why did you say that Tiffany?? You're too obvious now.

Finally... Taeyeon smiled "I'll take your words Pani, I trust you in this." Oh gosh? She trust me?? Did I hear it right? I can't hide my smile I'm really happy to hear that from her.

I jumped to her and hugged her like a koala wrapping my legs around her waist and my arms around her neck, I'm surprised she's strong as she carried me. I pulled back to look down at her then she looked up as our gazes met.

"I thought you will gimme a heart attack with your words Tae" I leaned down and I slowly gave her a kiss, simple but long kiss.

"I want you to be my girlfriend... but I will wait until you become officially single." Oh no, now I'm so eager to end my fake relationship with Cheol Woo. My bad! What have you done to me Taeyeon?

"Tomorrow, everything will change" Taeyeon stated.

"Yeah, and I'm so ready for that change" I giggled.

Then I jumped off from Taeyeon and ran towards my bed.

"Good night Tae!"

Taeyeon laughed "Good night Pani" She managed to say while laughing then she left the room.

Ugh. I know, I'm so obvious. I shrugged it off as always.

I really need to crash now I can't wait for tomorrow! ☺☺☺

*****

Sorry for the slow update. I'm still sick. T_T

Still Tiffany's POV next chapter.