Tiffany's POV

When me and Taeyeon got out from the library, I went home. I can't get out Taeyeon in my mind and of what happened last night.

I'm happy with her, feeling comfortable in her arms but am I going to give up everything for her? Of course not, I built this reputation in school for years and she will just break it with one night? Don't make me laugh. -_-

I decided to skip morning classes when I arrived at school, Cheol Woo invited me to have lunch with him at the canteen. I accepted it and we saw Bora and Seohyun there, and Cheol Woo invited them to be with us since they're my friends. Really? They are my friends?

As we have our conversation, Bora really hates Taeyeon. She wanted to bully the shorty so yeah, I admit, I'm worried to Taeyeon. And I will not let that happen.

But it all disappeared when I saw Taeyeon with Yoona. They ordered foods and sat near at us. How dare them to sit near us? So they have the guts huh?

I can't control it as I kept looking at Taeyeon but Yoona was being touchy to her. I fumed at the scene, I hate them being sweet. I hate Yoona because she can hold and hug Taeyeon in public. And I hate Taeyeon because she allowed Yoona to touch her like that and in front of me!

I got mad so I did it to Taeyeon, I slid out my right foot so Taeyeon will fall but I didn't expect that she will fall hard and would get a wound in her knee. I was so guilty.

I followed them at the clinic to know if Taeyeon was okay, and she was, I'm thankful because she's fine.

I went to the music room, I want to be alone to think but Taeyeon came in and I startled. I acted angry and gave her harsh words but it also hurt me.

That time, maybe she had enough so she wanted me to tell her directly that I don't like her. I can lie to everyone but not to myself. I can't say it because I like her, I wanted her in my life.

Then she kissed me, I'm craving for it. I pretended to hit her but when her tongue moved into my mouth gosh, I swear... I can't help it so I kissed back.

Her soft lips were so amazing, its' like a drug that makes me crazy. But I think we're being too fast. Am I a lesbian? I don't feel this way to other girls, only to Taeyeon. This is wrong so I pushed her and ran out.

I went in the locker room and I saw Cheol Woo there, he was sitting on the floor and waiting for me.

"Tiff, where did you go?" He stood up and I came closer to him.

I didn't say anything, I'm just staring at him. I know he likes me though our relationship is just an act. I don't deserve him that's why I think I can't like him back.

Cheol Woo is so kind to me, I know that he cares for me but I can't do the same. For me, we're just friends and nothing much.

But what about Taeyeon? In just one click, I like her, she made my guard down maybe because we're just the same. Taeyeon has nothing in her life. Maybe just because of that, I'm so eager to know what's happening to me.

"You're spacing out Tiff, do you have a problem?"

I shook my head.

"You're not going to say it again, please Tiffany. Can you open yourself even for just once?" He pleaded.

Our gazes met, I could feel the intense of it. I can't open myself to him or let's say I can't let him in my life. I don't want him to know about my miserable story.

I really need to know this, I want to know something so I pulled his head and kissed him. This is the first time we kissed, it's completely different to Taeyeon. No sparks as I don't feel anything special.

It's not disgusting but I don't like the feeling of it. I pulled away, I must be real crazy about my feelings.

"I'm sorry but I don't feel anything..." I mumbled I know he heard it because the corners of his mouth quirked down.

"I'm sorry..." I sincerely said then I rushed out.

*****

I was walking to our room for my last subject when I saw Yoona dragging Bora from the room. Seohyun was there, our maknae was panicking as she followed the two. Yoona was angry I can see it with her stern face. They didn't see me as they go different way.

I stopped at the doorframe and I saw Taeyeon, she looked pale. I was confused, what did happen? Then I looked around, I saw Taeyeon's bag on the floor and I bet it's her things too that scattered on the floor. Maybe Bora bullied Taeyeon again that's why Yoona was so angry.

Taeyeon looked at me then she walked and stopped in front me, she's staring at me blankly. It was expressionless, I've never seen her like that before. She looked scary as I held my breath.

 "So you're just playing with me because you want my life miserable huh?" Taeyeon bitterly smiled "I will just leave this University if that's what you want."  

I panicked, no! I don't want her to leave me. I'm left out since when I was in middle school, I don't want to waste our chance to be friends "W-what? No, no. Listen to me..."

But Taeyeon walked out as she bumped my shoulder with hers. She walked out in the hallway and I followed her. She's mad at me! Eottoke? What do I do now?

Taeyeon went up to the rooftop, I saw her wiping her tears and it made me just as culpable remembering that I, too, bullied her.

"Taeyeon" I called her but she didn't turn around.

I tiptoed and drew closer to her "Taeyeon" I called her again then I back hugged her. It feels so right, I don't want to let her go. 

"I'm sorry for what Bora did." I will surely kick her butt. "And I'm sorry for what I did to you in the canteen, how's your wound?" I tried to be sweet.

But Taeyeon pulled away and turned around to face me "Why did you do that? And now you're acting that you care?"

"I need to maintain my title here in school, I'm sorry I really am." I bowed down looking guilty at what I've done to her. If I could only back the time I will.

Then she said "I saw you kissing your boyfriend in the locker room, correct me if I'm wrong... but you're flirting me now." Flirting? She called it flirting? I'm not cheap!

I cackled "Flirting? Me?" I looked up at her. "I'm not flirting Taeyeon"

"Okay" She said though it was inaudible. Then she will go away again so I need to say this.

"Cheol Woo is not my real boyfriend!" I almost shouted and she stopped. 

I walked towards her and held her hand "He's just my front, we're just using each other" 

"What??" Taeyeon asked looking confused.

"I will tell you everything, I will let you walk in my life but please don't go... Don't leave me." I softly said I was hoping that she will agree.

"But I don't trust you, Tiffany. I'm sorry." 

I anticipated it "And I trust you Taeyeon, I want you to stay in my life. And that all matters, I know trust is hard to gain but I want to try it, I want to try to gain your trust. I know we have the same soul as we have the same life."

"Same life?" She asked.

I nodded "You're needy too right?"

"Huh? You're needy? I thought your father is in America?" Well, everyone knows it like that.

"No, I don't have my parents now because they're dead and as you all know... it's my uncle who's in America." I explained to her.

"You're just faking it? How can I trust you?"

"Be my friend, please? I'm not faking it, I'm just hiding it. Besides, I treat my uncle as my father. Give me a chance please?" I softened my eyes as I looked begging at her. Please Taeyeon, say yes.

Taeyeon pulled her hand away from me, she will reject me? Can I bear it?

Taeyeon hugged herself and looked at me in fierce way. I was tense, she didn't answer yet. I'm sweating yet I feel so cold.

"I thought you don't want to be my friend?"

"I just said that because-"

Taeyeon interrupted me "Yes, I want to be your friend. I already said yes so you can't take it back anymore." She winked "I don't trust people easily and it became my nature. I hope you understand Tiffany." Then she plainly smiled.

I grinned "Thank you Taeyeon!" I briskly wrapped my arms around her neck "I'm so happy!"

Taeyeon chuckled "Me too"

I feel so much better, for now, it's enough. I'm so thankful and delighted.

We're friends.

*****

Shorty. 😅😁