It's really good to hear your voice
saying my name it sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

- Lips of an angel

🌸🔪🌸

Jimin

"Here you go."

I stared at the blank paper on the table then gave Taehyung a questioning look.

"She misses you a lot." He shrugged.

I blinked and stayed silent after hearing what he said. Is he serious? She does?

"You know how jolly my sister is, Jimin. But since the day you left, she's just... different."

I held the paper and blankly examined it. It was a paper meant for making letters and it's also a scented one. Mixed emotions filled me and my breathing became unstable. I couldn't believe it. I can talk to her this christmas. I have her number in my phone but I didn't dare to call after that time in the car when Taehyung said the truth about who owns the number he gave me. It's just not appropriate to talk to her anymore.

Taehyung read the time on his watch. He smirked at me then shook his wrist. "Two hours until christmas asshole. You better start writing."

"B-But I don't know what to say."

"Then give it back–"

"Ani!"

"What are you guys doing?"

We looked up to see Seokjin and Hoseok hyung twisting their arms to do some stretching. They just got back from playing bowling.

"Nothing." I answered and hid the paper behind me. "Are you done playing?"

"Nope. We'll just rest for a bit."

"Good 'cause we haven't finished eating yet." The two shifted their gazes at the table and saw that all of our foods are already finished. I gave Taehyung a knowing look and he immediately understood me. He stood up to excuse himself, planning to buy more snacks.

"Tonight is christmas yoreobun. What chu gonna do?" Hoseok hyung asked.

"Spend it with my family of course. You know how bad we missed Jangmi."

"Well, how about your girlfriend?"

"Ah. Haejoo. We'll meet tomorrow night. I'll be ending my christmas with her." Jin hyung smiled warmly and we both cheered him.

"How about you two?"

"Ha! My family and friends promised to give me video games and hiphop clothes for christmas and I have nothing more to ask." Hoseok hyung boasted. I was just laughing at the corner while listening to them when they suddenly turned their heads towards me. My smile disappeared.

"What's that?" Hoseok hyung pointed at the paper I was holding. He saw it.

"Oh. Uh..."

"Waaah Jimiiiin~" They began teasing me and ruffled my hair. "You're writing a letter! Who is it? Your girlfriend?"

"N-Nope. I had plans of courting her before but it didn't go that well."

"What happened?"

"It's a long story." I smiled sadly.

"Stories make wonderful endings." Jin hyung grinned but I just shook my head in response.

"Not all."

And with that the two of them became silent. Why do we even have to talk about this? I'm just making the atmosphere uncomfortable. But I couldn't help myself, thinking about her makes me sad sometimes because I miss her so much I would even tear up.

"She's Taehyung's sister." I told them to brighten the mood. "She's very lovely and positive. Cute."

"Jinjja?" Hoseok hyung responsed. We turned to Taehyung who is now walking towards us.

"Why didn't you bring your sister here? They could've seen each other." Jin hyung asked as soon as Taehyung got back from his seat. He gave us a questioning look.

"She got angry at Jimin."

Mwo?? Wow how dare this guy–!

"Yah. You're involved in it too!"

"But she got angry at you the most."

"Because of what?"

Taehyung and I stopped bickering at once. Our eyes widened as we were frozen on our seats. W-we didn't slipped... Did we?

Shit. Think Jimin think! How will we answer this?

"Because of... w-we... Jimin... D-Da Hee asked Jimin once if he never had a girlfriend before and he said he never had one but she found out about his ex."

My eyes popped out of its sockets as I was completely devastated about Taehyung's lies. What the fuck??

"That's all?" Hoseok hyung asked. Even if I don't want to, I just nodded along with him.

"How can someone get angry because their lover has an ex? T-to the point that you never talked again?"

I turned my head to the other side to hide my embarassment. Aish Kim Taehyung!

"Why is she angry at you then?"

My breath hitched in pain after Taehyung kicked me to get my attention. I looked at him, asking for my help.

"Uh... when she got angry at us we decided to go out and just chill."  I spoke.

"Yeah but, her friend saw us and–"

"And told Da Hee we were drinking with girls."

"When we're just..."

"Chilling and drinking and talking to them–"

"Yeah. We tried avoiding those girls–"

I kicked Taehyung's leg. What?? I just said that we're talking to them and then he's saying that we're trying to avoid them?

The two seemed to listen carefully even if they don't understand anything we say anymore.

"What he mean is, we tried avoiding them but they asked us if they could have a small chat."

"Yeah they wouldn't leave so we ended up talking."

"Yeah he did. I mean we did."

"And that's when Da Hee got angrier and she's like... 'go away!' Like that."

Sigh. Oh god help us.

We both sighed in relief when our stories are finally finished. I shifted my gaze at Seokjin and Hoseok hyung. I hope they believed every word we said even if it's totally stupid.

"Okay," Hoseok hyung broke the silence. "Whatever it is, just don't give up. It's just jealousy Jimin."

"Yeah and you know what, jealous girls are actually a good sign." Seokjin hyung added and winked at me. I just forced a smile at him. Mianhae, I don't think I can use your advices because all these was just a freaking lie.

"Let's play." Hoseok hyung stood up. Seokjin hyung gestured for us to go with them but we insisted and I told them that I still have to write a letter for Da Hee. We watched them walk away until they're already far enough.

"Aaand they're gone." Taehyung clapped.

"What was that for??"

"Mwo?"

"You made Da Hee look bad!"

"Then do you want to look bad in front of them? Da Hee isn't here and they don't know each other. They will never know that the real reason why she got angry is because of us."

Sigh. Fine. Even if I don't want it, that's a pretty better idea.

I looked down at the paper and thought about what should I write to her. How will I greet her? Dear Da Hee? Annyeong? How have you been?

I grabbed the mechanical pencil at the table and began writing whatever came across my mind.  Here we go, there's no turning back.

Dear Kim Da Hee,

You know, it will be okay if you don't want to read any further but, I'll still write you a letter so... hi. It's been a long time ever since the last day I saw you. How have you been? Are you eating well? It's already christmas and even though you've been through a lot of pain because of us, I still hope you'll be happy tonight.

Don't forget to look at the stars and make a wish. Remember? When we went out that night at the seaside? I have to confess something. I didn't wish anything that night. But it's different now. Because now, I ask a certain wish to the stars every night.

I'm sorry for all the hurt I caused you and I don't think I have the right to tell you this but I miss you so much. I don't even think I have the right to talk to you but I shouldn't waste my chance.

Da Hee, I heard from Taehyung that you were crying. It's my fault. I know that it's because of me, because of us. I'm sorry that you were dragged into this mess when all you wanted to do was to help. I'm sorry for lying to you, for making you feel bad. I'm so sorry for everything.

I want to let you know that I am thankful to have you in my life. I'm the happiest when I'm with you and it'll stay like that forever. But if forgetting me is the best way for you to stop crying, then please, forget me Da Hee. Just please don't cry anymore.

I love you. Merry christmas, Da Hee. I love you. Never doubt that.

-Jimin

I was caught off guard when tissues were gently dropped on the top of the paper. I didn't look at Taehyung who gave me this, instead I cupped my cheeks and realized that I was already lowkey crying.

I quickly used the tissue to wipe my tears away. What the fuck Park Jimin? How can a guy like you cry?

"Don't feel too embarrassed."

"A man shouldn't cry Taehyung."

"A man sincere enough about his feelings cries his heart out. You have eyes. What makes you think you shouldn't cry? Pabo."

Tch. This guy is sometimes soft hearted and sometimes savage. I think Yoongi hyung influenced him. And why does noona think of him as a baby brother?

"Why are you helping me in this? I'm not a normal guy you know that."

"It's not like you will kill my sister."

"Aish enough of that! Just answer me honestly."

He leaned in and gave me a look. "I trust the three of you. I don't know why. I rarely even know you but fuck that. And one more thing, I know that my sister will be in good care with you."

Okay now he's cursing. Yoongi hyung should know what kind of kid he raised.

"How did you know?"

"By the way you look at her. By the way you act whenever you're around her. And by the way you cry because of her. It might not be a big deal for others but yours is a different matter. You're strong but you soften up whenever you're with her."

"Are you our stalker?"

"Just consider me as Da Hee's bodyguard."

We cracked up after what he said and high fived each other. It's a good thing Taehyung is here by my side. At least someone assures me that I still have a chance to be with Da Hee. It might be a lot more fun when the other two are here but they're having their first date at the middle of some field with piled up snow. I hope they freeze to death. Just kidding~

"Fifty-three minutes before christmas. We should all head back, don't you think?" Taehyung asked. He called the other two and told them that we better get going before twelve am comes.

We made our way out and entered Taehyung's car. I was sitting at the front seat beside Taehyung and all the way home I was just holding the letter while staring deeply at it. This is the only way I can talk to Da Hee. I know I said that she doesn't need to force herself to read if she don't want to but I hope she chooses to read this. I'm not expecting for her to write back or whatever. I just want her to know my thoughts. I just need her to know that I miss and I love her.

"Merry Christmas guys." Taehyung waved as soon as we reached home. We stepped out of the car and bid him goodbye.

"Merry Christmas! Annyeong!" Hoseok hyung waved along with Jin hyung. Before Taehyung left, I stepped closer and peeked at the window.

"Gomawo." I thanked him and handed the letter. He gave me a thumbs up along with his box smile.

"I gotta go now. I should find a date too." He joked.

"Arasso." I laughed. "Merry christmas!"

Just when he was about to go, a car beeped then parked at the side. It's noona and Yoongi hyung. Taehyung immediately got excited and stepped out from his car.

"Yay! You're still here!" Noona jumped as she run towards Taehyung and hugged him, ignoring Yoongi hyung's voice telling her to be careful.

Taehyung hugged noona back as well. "Merry Christmas noona!"

"Merry Christmas Taehyungie~"

"Merry Christmas Taehyung." Yoongi hyung patted his back as the two pulled away from the hug.

"Wait here." Noona demanded and ran inside the house. She came back with gifts on her arms.

"There you go. Our gifts for you." Taehyung quickly took the gifts and was surprised to see them all. He thanked us for our gifts as hyung patted his head and noona fixed his hair and clothes. Wow he's such a baby boy.

"Yah. How come I don't get that kind of treatment? I'm the same age as him!" I whined but they just laughed at me. Tch so unfair!

And speaking of the gifts, yep. We decided to buy gifts for halmeoni, harabeoji, Taehyung and Da Hee. I bought Da Hee a ring. I have the pair of it and I'm wearing it as a necklace.

"We should not waste anymore time. Go home now, Taehyung. It's almost midnight." Hyung said and Taehyung finally bid us his last goodbye before entering the car again.

"Be careful."

"I will." He answered noona as he saluted and start to drive away. We watched his car go until it finally disappeared. Taehyung really didn't know the way here, we just opened our GPS for him to find us.

"I should head back now. You should go too. Merry Christmas again." Hoseok hyung waved and walked towards their house which is just beside Jangmi noona's.

"Merry Christmas Hoseok-ah!" Noona waved back.

"Kaja." Jin hyung called out and we all entered the house. We saw imo and samchon as they were busy getting the tables ready. We immediately rushed to the kitchen to help them while noona is busy switching channels. Because of curiosity, I walked towards her with the cake on my hands.

"What are you doing?" I asked while staring at the tv. She didn't answer and just kept on switching the channels until she stopped on a certain channel where there's a countdown.

"Kyaaah! Twenty minutes before Christmas!" She squealed and pinched my cheeks.

"Ooow~" Okay I will just cry 'cause I can't move at all.

"Come on come on come on!" She jogged behind me and pushed me going to the dining area. I placed the cake at the table and once I turned around, noona handed me something colorful and cylindrical.

"Party popper!" She exclaimed then gave the two their own party poppers as well. Then she also grabbed the party hats at the side and helped us wear our own. Her parents came from the kitchen and she did the same to them. We just laughed at her silliness.

"I'll just call Taehyung." Yoongi hyung said and dialed the said guy. He answered immediately and they talked for a while before finally assuring us that he already arrived home. We turned our heads towards the tv. Five minutes left!

"Hey we should take a picture." Noona stood at the center and held the selfie stick.

"Hana, dul, set!" We posed for the camera. After a few shots, we finally heard the tv counting down from twenty. We got our party poppers ready and counted along.

"Eleven, ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five,"

"Four!"

"Three!"

"Two!"

"ONE!"

"MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!" The four of us twisted the party poppers and they all popped at once, throwing colorful confetti all over the place. Imo and samchon were taking a video of us as we begin to goof around and laugh together.

After our small celebration, we immediately took our own seats and begin to eat. Noona and Yoongi hyung are beside each other while Jin hyung and I are in front of them, and imo and samchon are at each side of the table. We ate a lot, I even forgot that Taheyung and I had snacks earlier because the food here is amazing.

After eating, we gathered in the living room and exchanged gifts. I got a leather jacket, shirt and pants from Jin hyung, a perfume from Yoongi hyung, shades from noona and shoes from imo and samchon. My eyes sparkled at all the gifts I received.

"It's... It's my first time recieving gifts." I genuinely smiled at them then bowed. "Jeongmal kamsahamnida!"

Noona ruffled my hair and hyung just laughed at us. Imo, samchon and Jin hyung seemed confused but I just smiled at them to assure that I'm fine. They didn't know about my life story yet.

I gave them my presents as well. I don't know much about girls so I decided to buy a necklace for noona. I bought clothes for imo and samchon. Headphones for Yoongi hyung and a sweater for Jin hyung.

"I love my presents. Merry Christmas kids." Samchon greeted with a warm smile.

"Merry Christmas! And to Jimin and Yoongi, welcome to the family." Imo greeted as well. We greeted them back as I force a smile on my face. I felt happy because they welcomed us here but here I am again, dealing with the guilt lingering inside me.

"Smiiiile!" Noona shouted and all of us turned to face the camera. We took shots and made funny poses while laughing at each other. And since I am sitting beside the two hyungs, noona took a picture of us three and we immediately did a pose.

After opening gifts and taking pictures, we watched fireworks outside. It was all beautiful.

Merry Christmas Da Hee.

I don't know if she already read the letter. Will she even read it? Whatever her decision will be, it'll be fine for me. Handing her a letter is enough, wishing her a merry christmas is enough.

I looked up at the stars once again and just like always, I wished.

I wish for her happiness.

Sigh. Even if my love life isn't that good, I should not be a party pooper and ruin my own mood right? Breathe Jimin, it'll be okay. Phew.

After all of that, we did our own tasks in cleaning and decided to go to sleep.

"Goodnight guys." Jin hyung waved while going up the stairs. Imo, samchon and noona did the same as well. Yoongi hyung and I will be sleeping here in the first floor since there's a spare room here. The two of us share a room.

As soon as we enter our room, hyung plopped on the bed and I did the same. I lied down the bed and faced the ceiling, not even caring that he's under me. He didn't complain and just let me lie on his back. I don't know, maybe he's already asleep.

"Did you greet her?" I heard him ask.

"I did."

"Text message?"

"A letter." I answered and rolled to the side. He turned around and now we're both facing the blank ceiling above us. "Taehyung asked me to write a letter for her. He said she's crying."

"I can't imagine Da Hee crying at all."

"Taehyung is as surprised as you."

"I never said I was surprised."

I glared at him and threw a pillow. "Aish! Hyung!"

"So, what now? Will you call her or..."

I don't have the courage to do so. And sometimes whenever I pick my phone up and push myself to call her, I just end up not doing it because I'm afraid she will think of me as a disturbance.

"I can't. Seriously, I think she hates me."

Hyung scoffed and threw on my face the pillow I used to hit him earlier. "Pabo! Why would she hate you?"

"I lied to her? We lied to her."

"Sure let's say she hates you. But you can hate someone and still love them."

I was taken aback by what he said. Hate someone and still love them?

That could be possible. Da Hee is angry at me and she hates me but...

"How will I know if she loves me?"

Hyung sighed and sat straight. He searched for something on the bed, under the pillows then in my pockets. Until he took my phone and grabbed my hand. He placed the phone on my hand then closed it.

"You never know until you try."

I stared at the phone on my hand then gulped. Should I call her? But what if she don't answer? What if she act mean towards me? I might just do no good and ruin her Christmas day that couldn't happen. What if she's already asleep? I don't want to be a disturban– ow! Stupid hyung!

HE KICKED ME! NOW I'M KISSING THE FLOOR!

"Aish! Arasso I'll call her!" I yelled at him and jumped back on the bed. We both stared at my phone as I go to my contacts and search for Da Hee's number. I gave hyung one last look before slowly clicking the dial button.

But just when I was about to call her, my phone started ringing.

((Now playing: Brown Eyes cover by MJ Tangonan))

"What the." Hyung exclaimed while I have my eyes widened.

"Fuck am I dreaming?"

"Answer it!"

"A-a-arasso. An-annyeong!" I stammered and stood up from the bed. I quickly made my way out and sat in the living room.

I pressed the answer button and placed my phone beside my ears hesitantly.

Is it really you, Da Hee?

I waited for someone to talk but all I heard are the low sobbing of a girl. I gasped and began to panic.

"Y-yobeoseyo?" I asked in a low and worried voice. "Da Hee?"

[Yah.] She called.

"You're crying." I muttered. Why is she crying? Didn't she know that I feel like being suffocated just by imagining her cry? And now she's crying but she's at the other line, I couldn't wipe her tears away...

[Yah.] She called again.

[Park Jimin y-you pabo. H-how can you...]

Mwo?

She couldn't finish her sentence because of her continuous sobbing and I can't do anything but to listen. Fuck it.

[How can you ask me to forget you? How... can you ask me to forget you when I dream of you every night?]

I sighed and wiped the tear that fell from my eye.

She dreams of me.

[Jimin, how will I be able to forget someone I love?]

🌸🔪🌸

Christmas won't be complete without our second loveteam there. Merry Christmas 💜