It's too cold outside
For angels to fly

- The A Team

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Jangmi

I laid flat on my bed and sighed sharply.

Tomorrow's the day of Yoongi's meeting with miss anonymous. Oh god.

I know Jimin, Taehyung and I trained hard for this but there is still doubt inside me. I don't do these things. What could be the outcome of what will happen tomorrow? What if I end up panicking and getting hurt?

If ever you panic, remember that we're doing this for Yoongi. Jimin's voice echoed inside my head as he say those words. Okay, you can do this Jangmi. You have to do this for him. You have to be strong. Don't let your fears overcome your skills tomorrow. Show the person you wanted to be in his eyes– a strong and independent Kim Jangmi.

He can't save me forever. I need to learn to stand on my own feet too, I stayed beside him to be the person he can depend on, not as a burden.

"Are you asleep?" I snapped back to reality as a voice from outside called while knocking the door. Yoongi!

I quickly ran towards the door and opened it wide. "Hey, no I'm not I just didn't hear you... C-Come in."

Baffled, Yoongi scoffed as he entered inside. "What's happening to you?"

I didn't know you were coming and I was busy overthinking about what might happen tomorrow. "Nothing." I smiled.

"How are you feeling?" He sat on the bed and pulled my hand, making me sit beside him.

I feel confused. "Good. Better actually."

He stared at me carefully but I just kept my eyes straight on the blank wall knowing that he will take his gaze off me anyway, but I was wrong.

"Mwo?" I finally looked back. He narrowed his eyes for a while but then shook his head to say nothing. What is that for? Am I being too obvious?

"So..." I broke the silence and stood up. "Are you not yet going to bed? It's already late and the last time I checked, you have an important meeting tomorrow."

"Let me sleep here tonight." He answered and slid under the comforter. I stood up because of shock and was about to question him... but I just ended up staring at his features. I love the soft expression he gives whenever he closes his eyes. You wouldn't expect he is a bad guy.

I wonder what your reaction will be once you see us there tomorrow.

"Are you just gonna stand there all night?" He asked and I snapped back to reality. "You're acting really weird tonight."

"Mianhae. I'm just tired." I shrugged and laid down beside him. "Goodnight."

"Sweet dreams." He replied in a monotone voice as he softly plant a kiss on my forehead.

If only I could tell him about our plan, I would. Because I don't want to keep secrets with Yoongi. But if doing this is the only way to help him tomorrow, all I can say for now is sorry. I know he's scared that we might get hurt since he doesn't want what happened to Jimin to repeat. But he just can't understand that we want to watch over him too. And if he has a choice, he won't go there at all but here he was, calmly waiting for tomorrow to come. Just because of the threats that girl is throwing at him.

I know there's fear somewhere in his heart right now. He might see his family again tomorrow. Who knows what might happen next.

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Yoongi wasn't beside me when I woke up. I was just alone hugging a pillow. It's already nine in the morning and I'm pretty sure he's still around the mansion, what time is his meeting with miss anonymous again? I do not know that.

Just when I was about to walk towards the bathroom, a note on the bedside table caught my attention. And when I say note I didn't mean the ones written in small sticky note paper because this is completely a one whole pad. I picked it up and began reading.

Do's and don'ts. Said the title, the handwriting is quite small and clean. My eyes traveled down the next few sentences listed in bullet forms.

Do's:

• Go to my room. Your weapons are waiting there. I'm aware that you're not into those but you might need it for self defense.

• We have to bring food. Oh god I can't starve to death while following him.

• Keep yourself alert. Remember the things I taught you.

• You have to remember which pocket you put your weapons.

• If you already hear police car sirens, go back straight in the car.

• Do your best to keep yourself unharmed. You can do it noona, I trust you.

Don'ts

•  We will hide somewhere near Yoongi and promise me to never show yourself until we're sure he needs help.

• Do not instantly shoot people.

• DO. NOT. PANIC.

• Don't stab our enemies to death, small deep scratches will do. Do not kill someone if you can.

• You can't shout louder than loud.

• And most importantly, don't go near miss anonymous. She's after you.

-Jiminie dongsaeng =)

A smile formed on my lips as I read his name. So cute, it even has a smiley face.

I took a deep breath and gently put the paper back to its place. This is it. I can hear my heart beating faster than its normal pace, like I just swallowed a whole set of drums. Now I realize that this life I chose is not some kind of a joke. It's like trading your own life without reassurance. You're not sure if you still exist tomorrow. How could they get themselves into this mess just like that?

Or maybe just like me, they had their own reasons.

I fixed myself in the bathroom for a while then grabbed a bag I found in the corner. I can't just carry a gun around the mansion once Jimin hands it to me or they might think I'm an undercover murderer. I immediately got outside and walked straight to Jimin's room when someone suddenly held me by the arm causing me to squeal.

"Taehyung!"

"Let's go there together, noona." He smiled and gently dragged me by the wrist.

"You have a letter too?" I asked as I follow him. He looked over his shoulder and shot a grin.

"Exciting isn't it? It's my first time doing this."

"Jimin said that we can't just use our weapons any time we want." Because if we kill someone we will definitely be in big trouble.

"I know." He shrugged. We reached Jimin's room and was immediately greeted by him who's still in his pajamas. We entered and made sure no one is watching us from behind. Take note I haven't found Yoongi yet. Where is he?

"Morning." He greeted as he yawned and fist bumped with the other guy.

"You just woke up?" Taehyung asked Jimin. He answered with a shrug. "I slept again after placing the notes in your rooms."

"What you did is too risky. He slept in my room last night, what if he sees the note? Or what if he's still inside then you suddenly entered?" I raised an eyebrow causing him to cover his mouth from shock. "By the way where is he?" 

"Getting ready in his room. Daebak. Maybe the universe is on our side right now, that was close." I gave him a thumbs up and sighed. I don't like this day at all, it's just morning but it's tiring already. It's not that easy to keep a secret huh.

"Let's be quick." Jimin said after chatting with Taehyung for a few minutes or so. "Here you go guys, these are all yours."

Jimin handed me a knife. It actually had no design but it still looked elegant. My knees began to tremble as I stretch my hand out and let him put the knife on my palm. Then he handed me a gun, I slid the knife and the bullets in my pockets then took a close look at the gun I'm holding right now. Woah, it doesn't feel like a cool actress in detective movies at all while holding this kind of thing. My hands are sweating, that's all I know. But Angelina Jolie looks cool whenever she points a gun at someone. Hmm...

I pointed the gun at Jimin which made him jump out of fear. "N-noona! What the hell??"

"Oh, mianhae. I just thought that maybe pointing a gun at someone feels cool."

He carefully held the gun and slowly pointed it down. "Did you... f-feel it then?" It's obvious in the tone of his trembling voice, I scared him! Oops.

"Nope. Pointing guns aren't my thing." Just doing this already makes me feel guilty. Why do miss anonymous have to do all this? What's the point?

"Yeah maybe it's just not your thing." Taehyung added as he carelessly pointed his gun at Jimin. Once again, he jumped and took a step back. "Cuz I'm feeling cool right now."

"AISH! YAH!" 

"Oops, mianhae." Taehyung showed his box smile and chuckled as I snorted and covered my mouth. Aww he's throwing us death glares but why does he look like a cute upset baby? He doesn't seem to be the guy who taught us to fight.

We just kept on laughing at him until someone continuously knocked on the door followed by Da Hee's voice. She called out each of us saying she wants to come in. We on the other side ran and hid our weapons and some other things in certain places of the room.

"Shit! Hide it here!"

"Yah! How do I close this thing?"

"Ow my foot!"

"Mianhae–"

"Hey guys are you still there?"

"I'll go get the door. Calm yourselves!"

I ran towards the door and looked back one last time just to make sure nothing looked suspicious and it seems like they're pretty good actors. So I opened the door and innocently smiled at Da Hee. "Good morning!"

"Unnie! Why are you all in there?"

"Uh... W-we're checking if Jimin's okay."

"Oh." She nodded. "Breakfast is ready downstairs. We'll wait for you there."

"Arasso..." I'm literally holding my breath while waiting for her to walk away from where I was standing. When I was sure she was gone, I let out a heavy sigh and slapped my forehead. Once again... That. Was. Close.

"Hey let's just go down right away so we won't look suspicious." Jimin broke the silence and dragged the both of us along with him out of his room. "Oh and by the way, the meeting is tonight, eleven pm sharp."

We went downstairs and found all of them waiting for us three so we immediately took our seats, I sat beside Yoongi. Breakfast was completely chill, we talked about silly stuff while eating. As if nothing is about to happen today. Yoongi acted normally in front of harabeoji, Da Hee and Halmeoni. And the three of us acted normally in front of the three of them too– plus Yoongi. The table was actually filled with secrets. And we are here to be the ones to hide those. Everyone's laughing on the outside, but not everyone laughs on the inside.

Three innocents, four who keeps a secret and three... who keeps another secret. I do not like this.

Hours passed by quickly with everyone just staying in the mansion. And since we have nothing to do in the afternoon, we just decided to clean the place. I was assigned in the kitchen, Da Hee is in the living room, Yoongi gets to water the plants outside then Jimin and Taehyung in the hallways. They have maids but we don't wanna look like parasites in here. While I'm busy cleaning all day, only one thing is in my mind. What will happen tonight?

I can only think of two possible options: Option one is Yoongi will meet miss anonymous there, nothing bad will happen, they will talk about everything she badly wanted to talk about, we won't have to show ourselves and no one will get hurt.

Or option two, Yoongi will meet miss anonymous without knowing that she brought someone with her to hurt him, everything's going to be a total mess, then we will have no other choice but to show up and stick to our plan and of course, Yoongi will get angry at us three. What is more likely to happen among these two? Even I can't tell. Everything's too complicated and confusing.

After cleaning the house we decided to take a rest for a while. I ran to my room and looked outside the window. The sun is already setting, it's getting darker, eleven pm is about to come anytime soon without even noticing it.

And just like I said, night time came and we had dinner together. Everything is completely the same, everyone's laughing and telling their own stories. Some are still busy hiding secrets, and I'm one of them. After dinner, the three of us went in Yoongi's room and talked and asked him about his plan. But since there is not enough time, he hasn't been able to speak to us properly. It's true that we're in his room to talk to him but it's also our way to know if he's already gone in the mansion. Because once he is, then that's the only time we would be able to go and follow him.

Yoongi left at ten pm.

"It's time." Jimin muttered. We are now in his room as we watch Yoongi drive away. He does not want us to follow him all the way outside so we just watched him from the window in here, it's a good thing for us too.

I closed my eyes and nervously sighed. "Kaja." I nodded and took our things with us. We successfully made our way outside the house without waking anyone up. But everything got a little rough when we reached the grounds. It's too dark!

"I can't see anything!"

"Ow my foot! Taehyung for the second time!"

"Mianhae~"

"No one brought a flashlight?"

"Here's my phone."

"Thanks. Oh the car's right there. Get in now."

"Finally."

We got inside and dropped all our bags. Jimin gets to drive, Taehyung sat on the passenger seat and I sat alone at the back. I immediately laid down and groaned. We're just in the step one of our plan and I'm already exhausted.

"So where is he?" Taehyung asked.

"Going to his parents' house?"

"And where is that?"

Wait what?

"Oh my god." Is all I can say. That's right. How will we be able to find him? "We lost him??"

"Is this the part when we back out of our plan?" Taehyung asked again.

"But it's too early for that." I answered. Then Jimin chuckled out of nowhere which caught our attention.

"Easy, guys." He said and pointed the small screen at the center. "We can track him."

Oh. GPS exists. I forgot about that.

I sat straight and leaned in to be able to watch the GPS closely. That small blinking dot is obviously Yoongi. We're just a few distance away from him but if it stays like that, he might be able to reach the destination while we are still on our way.

"Speed up you pabo." Taehyung yelled at Jimin before I was even able to say something. Jimin punched Taehyung in the arm followed by their loud laughter. I wish I'm as carefree as them. Taehyung doesn't seem like this is his first time at all. Am I overreacting or what?

"Noona, you okay?" Jimin asked with worry all over his face. I stayed silent, Taehyung did too.

"...What if we fail?" I gulped. "What if... we fail to protect Yoongi?"

If you do not know who that guy is, you would think this meeting is not a big deal for him. But I know how he really feels. Every time I remember how he cried before when he told me about miss anonymous just breaks my heart. And I know that inside his car right now, he is trembling with fear and is slowly getting drowned to confusion. He just won't say it but I can feel it.

"We won't fail." Taehyung answered as if he's a hundred percent sure about it.

I bit my lip. "How so?" My eyes are fixed on the screen and realized that the dot which represents Yoongi already stopped moving. He reached the place, and we're close enough to him too. My heart began beating faster than its normal pace.

"Because we are doing what we are doing right now to save a friend." He continued. My breath literally hitched at what he said. But he just smiled at me when I gazed at him. "And our enemies are doing what they are doing for their own greed. That's why we won't fail."

His words are like a wake up call to me. It made me remember the reasons why I chose to do these. I can't back out now and let negativity engulf me. We are doing this because we want to keep Yoongi safe. We want to keep Yoongi safe and that's all that matters. Thank you so much Taehyung. Phew.

"And we're here." Jimin muttered under his breath. We both looked in front of us and saw a modern looking house just a few steps away from where we parked. I immediately looked for Yoongi's car.

"There he is." Taehyung pointed at the other side of the road.

"Everyone, ready?" Jimin asked. We both nodded as an answer. Yoongi should be getting out of the car right now. And where is miss anonymous?

"That's the girl. I think?" We followed the direction where Jimin is looking and we saw a girl. A slim girl who dressed as if she's going on a disco bar. Is she lost? Or is it her mind that she lost? I need to calm down.

"I... guess she's alone." I stated. I haven't seen anyone around her. Wow, I actually thought she will bring men with her and trick Yoongi but it looks like she's honest with her words–

"A-Aniyo." Jimin shook his head. Then he leaned forward to look closely. Why? What's happening?

"Fuck. She's not alone. She's with..."

"With who?" Taehyung asked and looked closely too. Then the gate of the house in front of miss anonymous suddenly opened, revealing an old man and an old woman who seemed like a married couple. I don't get it. Who are they? And why... why is miss anonymous talking to them?

Wait, there is no other house or any building in front of this house where the couple came from. It's only a vacant lot. And the meeting place is in front of Yoongi's parents. That's what miss anonymous wanted.

"Didn't you tell me that Lilac knew hyung's parents? Didn't you conclude that miss anonymous is Lilac?" Jimin gulped. "Look, if miss anonymous is Lilac and Lilac knew his parents then it only means that that couple–"

"Is hyung's parents??" Taehyung finished for Jimin. I was about to answer them when suddenly there was the sound of the engine of a car being started. We turned our heads towards the direction of the sound but the GPS screen beeped.

It is the dot which represents Yoongi. It's blinking again. And the dot.... the dot is moving.

I gasped and looked in front of me again. Yoongi's car....

H-he... left?!

He turned to the right side so no one would see him. He did left. He ditched miss anonymous. It really is his parents.

This wasn't what anyone of us expected. How come? There is no meeting tonight. No one's getting hurt tonight. Yoongi will not know what we are about to do. This is far from what I have expected, way too far. What happened tonight doesn't neither go to my option one, nor my option two.

So it's option three: Miss anonymous will meet Yoongi and bring his parents with her for she knows them because obviously she's Lilac. Yoongi will realize he still isn't ready to face his parents looking like that. And finally, the meet up will be canceled which may result to...

"Damn. What just happened?" Jimin groaned and ruffled his hair out of frustration.

"Yah, he's going back home. We have to be there before he arrives."

"Right."

...result to what? Is ditching miss anonymous right now a good thing? Why am I feeling bad about this?

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