" It hurts everyday, the absence of someone who was once there."
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Namjoon POV:

I think she's the one I kept thinking to myself as I and Anastasia was walking towards the cafe for lunch.

I'm honestly afraid of liking her she seems she grew up in a good home. While I grew up in poverty.

I was 17 whenever I got out of poverty.

I found a good job in which gave me enough money to rent an apartment.

But I will never forget where I come from.

I'm afraid she'll think differently of me if I tell her this. What if she'll run away if I tell her?

End POV

We had finally made it to the Cafe. Along the way, I and Joon talked non stop.

He is really funny and we are a lot alike and like the same things.

"Ana, Joon over here!" I heard Rose say as she was waving us over to the table her and the rest of the guys were sitting at.

Rose just kept giving me a suspicious look.

I saw that there was 2 chair empty some and Joon ended up sitting next to each other.

So we sat down I had Rose to my right and Joon to my left.

We then ordered our food. When all of a sudden Rose spoke up.

"I ship it," she said, "Rose what do you mean?" I gave her a questioning look.

"You and Joon of course." She said without a care.

I started blushing why is she doing this to me.

Joon didn't say one word.

"I know what their ship name could be! Nastasia!!" V shouted. "This ship will be sailing for sure," Rose said.

I laughed at how excited they were and glanced over at Joon who seems to be blushing.

Then our food came we ate and laughed it was really fun.

We then said our goodbyes when Joon came up to me and gave me a hug goodbye.

I swore I felt sparks.

As we were walking back to our dorm Rose spoke: " I think you two should date he seems to like you too ya know."

"Rose I don't know I really have a hard time with dating and trust," I said as she opened the door to our dorm.

"Why is that," she said, "Not to be nosey." I knew it was time to tell her my past.

"Well, you see it all started back home"...

Flashback

I was 16 during this time, we were all fine a big happy family. Me, my sister, dad, and mom.

Until my parents came back home from a trip and my mom just left didn't even say goodbye. All she said was "I love you even if I'm not here."

My dad then found her at a lawyers office filing for divorce. He also found out she was cheating on him for months.

Months had passed no word from her nothing. We soon found out she was getting married.

I then decided to call her and try to stop her.

"WHY MOM?! WHY DID YOU LEAVE US WE NEEDED YOU!" My little sister said. My mom just kept saying okay like it wasn't a big deal.

I then blew up " YOU DON'T KNOW MOM SHE IS STILL A KID AND NEEDED A MOTHER WE NEEDED YOU!" then she said the five words that broke me forever. "I didn't want you anyways." And that was the last words my mom said to me.

I never realized that a mother can show fake love.

End flashback

As I said those final words in my story I saw tears forming in Roses' eyes.

"My mom is the reason why I'm afraid to fall in love. I'm afraid of being left and not being wanted." I said.

She then pulled me into a hug.

"I'm so sorry Ana. You'll never be like your mom."

"I know who could help you overcome this."

"Some of the boys have a past similar to yours" she goes on to say.

"The first person who you need to talk to is Jhope he is really similar to yours," she said.

"Really, I think I will then," I said I really do need help Because I feel like my feelings for Namjoon will stay.

Rm POV:

When we made it back to the dorm I decided to talk to Jin about how I feel about her.

"Hey, Jin, what do you think about Anastasia?" I said.

"I think she is a really kind and sweet person why?" He said.

I might as well tell him. "I think I'm starting to develop feelings for her," I said.

"Well, I approve!" Jin said.

" I do too," Jimin said popping out of nowhere.

"But I just got off the phone Rose and based on her Anastasia is afraid of dating because of her past." He said.

I wonder what happened to make her afraid? Did she have the same situation as me?

End POV

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A/N: What will happen next?
Thank you for ready Chapter 4! I'm currently working on Chapter 5. A big thank you to A risky for helping me w/ the ship name.

Love,

Alex <3