Niklus P.O.V

I woke up to a pretty average day, everything in my life had just been so screwed up but nevertheless I managed to get up each day and fake my happiness just running a few kicks and tormenting a few innocent souls and besides why should it matter my life was pretty much hell, i had nothing to live for...

By night I was pretty exhausted and practically as bored as fuck I decided to log on to my Facebook profile for the first time in like a month to my surprise HOLY FUCK!
It was her !!!
Savannah it was her! She had sent me a friend request how could this be happening for the past three years I have tried every single trick in the book everything I know and she wouldn't pay me mind I basically thought she hated my guts but now it suddenly seemed as my whole day just got ten time better it was like the sun was shining at night without delay I accepted it.

What could this mean did she possibly like me?
Would she give me a chance?
Would she see me behind my faults?
My mind rambled with thoughts I was confused I have never felt like this, throughout my life I had never been rejected by a girl but this one this princess she had turned me down more times than my fingers and toes all combined and in my mind that was as much as the stars above in the evening sky and for some reason this hurt that rejection gave me also gave me the courage to keep trying I just had to get her I had to make this queen my own but to be completely honest I was beginning to think she was too good for me which maybe she is to think about all the fucked up things I had done boy oh boy!

I was so agitated I wanted to text her I wanted to make her talk to me to actually converse with her to hear her laugh to see her smile for a girl with  such a striking smile she hardly smiled and I wanted to be the one to change that, just as quick as the hope filled me the disappointment quickly over taked  that as I was nothing but a screw up and I would never be able to treat a girl like her right  as all I ever did was mess up every girl I was ever with, made them hate me and run as though they had seen a ghost but there was just something about her. I contemplated for about an hour text her or don't text her finally I decided against it and went asleep I didn't wanna come off as the spooky type that would hit up her inbox as soon as we became friends so I went to sleep using that as an excuse to cover my nervousness and the curling in my stomach that she caused anytime she gave me the slightest attention.

It was until a late night about 10 or 11, I was so down pressed so bored that I decided to hit up Facebook again I hated the app really it was just a way for fake people to mind your business, smiling and hitting the like button while they be like this bitch again in their mind, the thought of this shit made me sick to my stomach but she was on there so I guessed it didn't matter how bad the others were. Finally I had grown the balls well not literally my real balls were fine fully in tact and working but you know what I mean, I decided to drop a simple *hi* after about five minutes I was beginning to worry she would just ignore me as she read the message but just as I was losing hope she replied *hey* this simple message made my heart thud and my body went under stupidly I replied *hey* she was definitely gonna think I'm weird and just ignore me damn I'm so stupid fuck fuck fuck! I blew it! Why was I even like this I could get any girl I want and it's usually so easy with girls I don't even usually have to ask or message first or anything but damn princess you had to be so different you had to screw with my emotions and make me lose all balance. As soon as I gathered my thoughts I checked my phone yesssssssss!!!!!! She replied *hi* I couldn't help but laughing she was so cute even in the simplest things even though she prolly thinks I'm stupid it was okay at least she replied. I quickly replied not leaving her chats we talked for hours to my surprise about movies and songs we actually had a lot in common she too was a major Eminem fan she was such a queen, I tried as much as possible to keep her entertained and managed to get a few laugh out louds from her this made my heart quiver as I imagined her smile and her laughing and better because of me.
We shared some common interest and for the first time I had felt like girls wasn't just for sex or showing off, she was ruining me slowly and reincarnating me all for the better in this simple gesture, this one small chat.
I had to pinch myself a few times to make sure this was really happening and before I knew it four hours had passed and she wanted to sleep we said our good nights and bickered a bit about whether or not she was a princess and I think I won or she fell asleep one or the other but I was satisfied I didn't really care it was time to welcome her into my haven and make her my queen.

I woke up after the sun the next morning afterall I didn't have to work my mom was comfortable maintaining me and my every need was met I stayed up really late messaging Savannah, something I had never done before sacrificed anything for a girl but I enjoyed it no regrets I quickly reached for my phone and checked the time I had a message it was her *good morning* I quickly replied, we talked throughout the day with me constantly asking her things about herself getting to know our likes and dislikes we even had a semi argument about who can cook better her or me and even though i knew there was only one dish i could cook i loved the way she went into defense mode it was so cute so electrifying. I felt so comfortable so at home and at peace she was my silver lining she was the bright side of my cloud I wanted her to know I wanted to remind her to make it legit but I had to wait and let our stories unwind. I had told her several times that I liked her she knew I was into her so I decide not to push it and just converse as per normal and it was excellent she was really the best, this made me like her more maybe it was from then I began loving her.

SONGS FOR THE CHAPTER

MARIO - LET ME LOVE YOU
SAM SMITH - WRITINGS ON THE WALL