I woke up with the sun, or matter of a fact I stayed awake all night and then the sun came out asking me what the fuck I was doing with my eyes wide open.

Murdoc and his little slut, partied. All. Night. And I still can't figure out why I was the only one that heard them.

Groaning loudly I sat up, like a undead, it was 7:00 in the morning, to early for me, WAY to early for murdoc, but Russ and Noodle should be awake, there the morning birds.

I tucked my teddy bear back into his hiding spot, and then reached out to write something in my journal.

Murdoc banged up a slut last night, I didn't sleep at all, I feel dead yet that's actually pretty cool, considering if I was actually a zombie.

That's it, cheers.

I put my journal back, snapping the cap of my pen, and turned so my legs were hanging over the edge of the bed, my feet planted on the floor. I pulled my hands down over my eyes, peeling my bottom eyelids for my black orbs to reveal a little bit of the pink flesh underneath. After a little bit of staring at my white cracking ceiling, matching the pattern of my dry hands, I pulled myself up to stand, I'm surprised that the roof hasn't caved in yet.

I stumbled across my room to the door, tripping over boxes, and other things. And went down the hallway, tapping the picture on my door on my way. That was a good day, a day that we all went to the market, including Murdoc, and a pls he was sober to, he bought and gave me Abby at that market, of course he forgot he did a day later, but still it matters to me, and me and Nood's played every game, and stopped to look at every booth, we took that photo in a photo box thing, then Russ and I went to go get a pizza. That way the best day of my life, and still is even a year later. Sometimes I wish I could relive it everyday.

I came to the stairs, glancing at murdocs closed door, the air behind it was dead silent. Biting my lip I turned and galloped down the stairs, but like a slow gallop, ya know, because I feel dead, and because I feel older than my age.

The smell of strong coffee and salty eggs, warmed me up inside, just a little bit, I woke up early enough to actually have breakfast warm, not cold. I turned the corner, to Noodle on the couch playing a very cutesy Zelda game on the TV. Usually she plays very graphic zombie shooting games with me, maybe she's playing this because Russ is in the room.

"Whoa D, your up early!" Russ laughed soon as he saw me.

"Never slept," I groaned, walking forward to the the stools resting at the counter and the window in the wall looking into the kitchen, and sitting down.

Russel nodded, knowing what I was talking about, but clearly not caring, "Well do you want some peppermint tea?" He asked already walking to the cabinet to get the tea packet.

For every day of my life I have always wan't peppermint tea. ALWAYS. But today... just today, I needed coffee, "No," I said loudly, "No tea. Coffee, Black, with maybe a little cream."

Russel turned around mortified, while Noodle crashed her little link guy into a tree, and I banged my head on the counter.

"RUSSS TOOCHIS NOT OKAY!!!!!" Noodle screamed jumping over the couch arm and running into my side in a hug.

"Are you okay!? Do you feel sick!? Should I give you antibiotics?!" Russel asked fussing around me like my mom used to do every time I came inside with mud on my shoes.

"Yes!" I yelled annoyed, throwing my head back up in the air, "Yes, I'm fine!! I'm just tired!"

Russ stepped back side eyeing me, as I banged my head back down on the counter. Noodle was still hugging me tightly, like I was going to drop dead any second, "I just need coffee." I moaned into the marble.

"Right... okay," Russ said backing into the kitchen to pour me a cuppa from the coffee pot.

Noodle was still hugging me ever so tightly with her eyes closed, muttering something in Japanese under her breath, "Nood's..." I groaned, rolling my shoulder, trying to shake her off gently.

"NO!" She yelled, squeezing me tighter, and shaking her head rapidly. I sighed, resting my cheek on the cool marble. Noodle always said she was a women now, but she never managed to convince me, she always acted like my little Nood's, stubborn, adorable, a pain in the a**. I felt like she ways still my little ten year old, I remember the day that I introduced her to bad horror movies, like Jaws, and old zombie movies. She loved them, and every time that shark or a zombie bit into a person she would yell, 'YAA!!' It made Russ mad when I watched those movies with her, but Murdoc was always complain that he wanted to watch Deadpool with her, which was absolutely worse.

"Here..." Russ said eyes slights as he put the green coffee cup in front of me.

I reached forward with a shaking hand, and slid my hand through the handle bringing it to my lips. I haven't drank coffee in a long time, I had almost forgot what it tasted like, but once the dark liquid hit my tongue I remembered. Smooth, bitter, uncanny, and honestly very revolting. I bite my tongue and put the coffee cup down disgusted. I heard Russ and Noodle breathe out with relief I didn't even notice they were holding there breath. Was me drinking coffee that big of a deal?

"J-just a peppermint tea for me..." I squeaked sticking out my tongue, that was red and slightly burnt from the hot disgusting drink.

Noodle gave me one last squeeze, and a quirky smile, then she went back to her game picking up her Link guy and shooting arrows at goblins. While Russ had started brewing a peppermint tea for me.

"So... why'd you want to try coffee?" Russ asked, his back to me like a cold parent, but his voice warm.

"I'Dunno," I pouted, resting my chin on the counter, like a dog would begging for treats, "I just am tired, and I knew that coffee, like wakes people up or something like that. ... why do you care?"

"I don't know it was just weird to see you drink coffee, heck it's even weird to see you up this early," he said turning around as he handed me my cup of tea, and as soon as it was in my hands I took a greedy gulp, just to get the bitter taste out of my mouth, by then Russ was already leaning on the counter to face me, "... um... you sure your okay?" Russ asked big eyebrows furrowed.

"I'm .... ," here it comes, that big huge lie, the only lie that anyone is good at ... , "I'm fine."

"... your not fine," Russ said blandly, slightly glaring at me.

I groaned loudly, and slammed my cup down, 'WELL NO SH*T! OF COURSE I'M NOT FINE! I HAVEN'T SLEPT AT ALL! I STILL CAN'T FIGURE OUT MY STUPID SEXUALITY! AND THE GUY I HAVE A HUGE FAT CRUSH ON IS A MAN WHORE, THAT JUST HAD SEX LAST NIGHT WITH A HOE! AND THEN I GOT JEALOUSY JEALOUSY BY OLIVA RODRIGO STUCK IN MY HEAD, AGAIN!!! WHILE I MOPPED AND TRIED TO CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP, BECAUSE MY HOT CRUSH IS ABUSIVE, AND IS A TOTAL JERK-WAD! BUT GUESS WHAT! I DIDN'T CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP BECAUSE I DIDN'T SLEEP!!! SO I JUST CRIED LIKE A LITTLE GAY OR WHATEVER BABY!!! WHILE MURDOC F*CKING NICCALS F*CKING HAD THE TIME OF HIS LIFE, IN A BED, WITHOUT ME IN IT!!!!'

"I'm fine, just tired." I actually responded, looking down in my tea cup as I swirled the tea bag around in the green pool of liquid. It was easy to hide everything you wanted to say with the words 'I'm fine', and 'just tired' not sure why, but I'm pretty sure it's because everyone else in the room feels fine and tired most of the time.

"Okay," Russ said nodding, then he leaned away from me and turned back to the eggs he was frying, in that stupid little green yellow frying pan that murdoc brought home from his trip to Turkey, I hate that little frying pan, I do, I really do. It always makes the room smell like burning metal, and murdoc has hit me on the head with it a few times. I really don't like it.

"So we're thinking about going to the mall today to buy Noodle a first day of school outfit," Russ said scrapping the burnt egg off the pan and onto a chipped china plate because we were out of regular plates, meaning they were all dirty.

"YEAH!" Nood's yelled, I couldn't tell if she was being sarcastic or if she was actually excited.

"Okay..." I trailed off staring into my cup, they were leaving to go and do something, again. They were going to leave me alone with Murdoc, who was obviously going to beat me for what I did last night. I didn't respect his privacy and that was one of his big rules, I don't want to be alone with murdoc! Not again, NOT AGAIN! I looked up, and without thinking I blurted out, "Can I come too?"

Russel turned blinking at me, a smile growing on his face it before he could speak Noodle interrupted crashing her little Link guy into another tree as she turned around on the couch, "SURE! I WOULD LOVE FOR YOU TO COME!!!" Then she said a little quieter, "Maybe you can help me convince Russel to get me a dog."

"No dogs." Russel growled turning back to the pan as he cracked another egg inside it.

"AGH, COME ON PLEASE!!!!" Nood's whined pleading over the couch.

"Inside voice Nood's, and NO we are not getting a dog." Russ said putting his foot down, "now come eat your egg."

Noodle groaned dramatically and dragged herself to sit on a stool next to me. Stabbing her fork into the yoke of the egg, and letting it's runny guts soak the white outside, like blood from a murder victim.

"Hey D, do you want a egg?" He asked, nudging me with his greasy spatula. I snorted with laughter as I pushed the kitchen utensil away from my face.

"No thank's," I giggled.

"You sure?" Noodle asked, cutting the yellow yoke out and stuffing it in her mouth as she turned to face me, "I feel like your getting awfully skinny..."

I snorted again, reaching a hand to ruffle her hair making little whips fall out of her pig tails, "Your smaller than me, how about you focus on eating," I smiled. I didn't want to admit it, but I didn't actually eat much of anything in a while, at dinner last night I just sorta poked at my food, I just wasn't hungry I guess.

"You should probably eat at least something," Russ said bitting his lip, "here have an egg." And then he pushed a fried egg on a cracked and fragile plate toward me.

I just stared at it, while they stared at me. The yellow goop in the middle looked like the sun, but also sorta gross at the same time, I looked up at them, biting my own lip, I really wasn't hungry and I didn't want to eat it. But there stares were getting even more menacing, "... D you sure your just tired..." Russel asked eyes slights as he stared into my soul.

I gritted my teeth, why couldn't they just stop asking that! "I'm FINE," I growled.

"You don't lo-" Noodle stared, but I cut her off.

"Fine whatever I'll eat the egg!" I exclaimed.

"GOOD," the two of them said in unison, glares so stone hard that it made me cower in my seat. Why were they being so intense this morning! So with one last confused glance at them I cut my egg in three pieces and gobbled it down in three bites, even though I didn't want to eat it.

Whatever makes them happy I guess. And it did make them happy, because they smiled, and leaned back, taking away the pressure they were pushing on my back. Noodle went back to eating her own egg, and stared out the window at the happy little sun that had decided to pop out this morning. And Russ had started making his own egg, saying cheaply, "we are leaving in about an hour, so be ready to go around 10:00. Don't zone out and forget."

I nodded looking down at my plate and taking a sip from my tea. It wasn't like Nood's and Russ were acting strangely or anything, they were just different people, but I felt like I was kind of the elephant in the room for a bit... they were so concerned for me... why? I'm perfectly fine, other than the fact, that my little fantasies had gotten torn out of my imagination and thrown aggressively to the ground, again. And that I have fallen for a abusive sex freak.... Haha haha, yeah my life's GREAT.

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OH THANK YOU BABY JESUS!

I FINALLY FINISHED IT!!! I FINALLY FINISHED THE CHAPTER!!!

Sigh, it feels good to be back in the grove again... anyway, next chapter is set at the mall, and oh boy your going to hate my guts... cause you know who else is at the mall?...

Anyway Here's your meme:

BYE! ✌️