Staring at the crowd... that day, I was making my speech of how Hoseok is special to me. I told them our good times together. It was wonderful. I blame myself for all of this. It's all my fault.

I should've died, not him. I love him, but I don't think I ever said that to him.

He was my hope.

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[Flashback]

"Y/n, you know you should join the club, it's pretty fun in our club." Hoseok exclaimed. He was chasing me, after I embarrassed myself in the crowd of students. It was the second time we both met, but I don't fully know him. I'm not that type of person who put my trust in someone

"I don't want to be here! I don't belong here! I'm just a transfer student. And it's been a week. And you thought we're friends! Just leave me alone. Please!" You shouted making Hoseok stop on his tracks.

"I thought we we're friends. You were my first friend. No one likes me here. They all think I'm weird and immature. I don't belong here neither." He said, making you look back with tears in your eyes.

*sniff* "My name's Y/n." You said, taking a full step towards him.

Your heart beat was fast, your thoughts are scrambled, he made you happy.

"I'm Hoseok. Nice to meet weird girl." He smiled at you. You didn't realize you were smiling too.

His name was Hoseok. He's my hope and my angel. He saved my life.

"Come by my house. At eight, we'll have a chit-chat. I want to get to know more about you. I'll text you my address." He said handling you his number.

"Message me if you're ready." He said and winked at you.

[Present]

He's so special. Every single day, he made me so happy. He was my everything.

Standing in a crowd of Hoseok's family members, made me worse.

"Okay." You said and waved at him while running to the opposite direction.

You rode back to your house and ready yourself for later. You wanted to get to know him as well.

I want his presence.

I lay down on my bed as I started to dial his phone, saving his number in my contacts.

Then, you started typing words.

[Hey, it's me Y/n. I'm ready message me as soon as you get this. Bye. See you soon.]

I turn off my phone and lay back down my bed while staring at the plain white ceiling above me.

What will he want to talk about?
What does he mean that he doesn't belong here neither?
What do he meant all along?
A lot of question run in my head. Suddenly out of blue my phone vibrates.

[Hey, it me. Hoseok. This is my address. Herandel sts. lot 2 blk 4. See you soon. :-)]

That was fast. I thought. I chuckled but the crowd was serious. I cleared my throat and continued.

I quickly took my car keys and drove to the address. It was not so hard to find his house.

It was huge, and elegant to human eyes.

[I'm outside your house. Are your parents around?]

[Yeah, I'll be there. They're not home, on vacation.]

It took a minute when suddenly the door unlocks and revealed the one and only Hoseok.

"Hey. You alright?" He asked making his way towards me.

"Yes. I'm fine. So, are we going to talk outside or inside? " I sarcastically asked.
He chuckled at my tone of voice.

He wore a black sweater, brown jeans and a high-top converse. He also wore a cute smile on his face.

I never thought he would be this special to me. A tear falls from my eyes as Hoseok's mother started to whimper. I'm going to finish this. You can do it Y/n.

"Uh. Yeah. We better go inside, it's pretty hot outside." He laughed nervously as he walks me to his house.

As I entered inside, the elegance and the huge doors are placed well and it was very well organized. The wall was painted in white, the sofas are silk black as well as the rest of the furniture.

Woah. That was my first impression.

He was my everything. He always has been my everything. I look at the sky. Thank you for everything Hoseok.

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After a year of being friends, we got to know each other more. I fell deeply in love with him. He was unique, should be treasured and he was my happy pill.

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"Hey, Y/n. I have a question for you. And I want an answer. I expect a yes from you." He said. As I was fixing my hair up. He stared at me intently. In a very serious face.

I cleared my throat. I finished fixing my hair and look at him straight in the eye.

"Yeah, sure." You replied in unexpected way. As he placed a hand on your shoulders.

"Y/n. Will you be my girlfriend?" My heart beats a hundred times a beat. I feel goose bump all over my body, I feel happy. I gladly smiled at him.

And said. "Yes." He was the happiest man on earth. He placed his lips onto mine, I can feel a smirk playing on his lips.

I can feel the energy between us both. I can feel the chemistry going between us.

"I love you." He said, I smiled.

"I-" I was interrupted by the vibrating of his phone. I can see his annoyed face as he took out his phone out of his pocket.

"You know. Let's get coffee first then I'll go to our dance class. Want to come and see me dance?" He said with a satisfied smirk on his face.

His smile was the first thing I loved the most. It always made my day great.

"Sure. I'd love to." I replied and we darted to my car and he started driving to the studio.

He was a dancer before, I love how his body works, his movements and his creative dance moves turns me on. He's perfect for me.

*plays the boy meets evil*

He started dancing as other six boys watched him dance.

I was mesmerized at his sharp movements. He was really good.

That day... was perfect, every single second was perfect. It was then...

"Do you like it? My practice?" He asked out of blue. You were staring at him the whole time.

"Nope. It was lame." I replied with a smirk. He pouted, he then smiles widely and started tickling me.

Shet.

"S-stop~!" You plead, he continued to tickle your sides.

"Take back what you said first." He said, still tickling my sides.

"No!" You bravely replied.

"Fine then, I'll kiss you if you don't take back what you said." He said. You just blinked twice.

"fine. You're still lame. And boring" I'm dead. You thought as you stared at Hoseok's angry face, a smile appeared on his face and lean in to peck your lips, you giggled at his respond.

"How adorable. Won't you two quit flirting in front of us? It's so cringes and it hurts us." The tall one said with envious face.
"Yah! Hyung. how come you can have a girlfriend but not us?" One of them pouted.

"Yeah. Why do you bring her here anyways."? The pale one said with his arms crossed.

"Because I want her to see me dance." Hoseok said with a smirk plastered on his happy face.

He was once a happy guy. He loves music and he love to dance too. That's one of his unique personalities.

I loved him.