Rian pov:

6month has passed and here i am in NY getting my new life started in a country where nobody knows me starting fresh as Kang Rian. I decided to study for buisness because i was just too dark for fashion. I thought studying business was for the best. However Jeongin came to study architecture something i never would have thought he was interest in but it turned out he was. Hyunjin came here for business also since he said he had nothing in mind for a future job.. apart of me told me he decided business just to stay beside me so i wouldnt be alone and i was truly thankful for that.

Hyunjin was beside me all the time he even rented the apartment next to mine that was fine up untill he and jeongin decided to stay together and untill he decided to confess his feelings toward me. He told me he didnt expect anything of me after telling me his feelings but he just couldnt hold it in himself and he wished that i wouldnt get awkward with him afterwards, it was awkward at first but he just acted so natural that i came to be fine with it.. i liked Hyunjin but my feelings toward him was of familiarity and comfort not feelings of love even if i t was feelings of love i would never give it a chance.

Because love is not a good thing at least not for me. I have never seen love surrounding me what happened to both my  dad's were because of their love for my mom .. i didnt get parental love nor even much friendship love so how would i give something unfamiliar a chance...? Never

Enough of hyunjin and me, to tell you  about Jeongin i had nothing against him we even hanged out sometimes as three but somehow it was just awkward when it was only two of us. I never knew the reas of this awkwardness but yeah..

And After the time that has passed i was fine now i was completely broken but was no longer drowning so it was fine. I no longer felt suffocated so i was glad  I officially grew up and gone stronger

And here i would end my story because right now all the hidden parts of me had became exposed and through all the pain i was able to find me my true self.