Rian pov:
As i opened my eyes starring at the white room infront of me i felt lifeless..

The only question swerling in my mind was why? Why did it happened to me out of all the people in the world?
I glanced at my left and what i saw brought  a flash of pain through me

Jeongin..

What was he doing here

After all this things how am I supposed to face him, apart of me felt ashamed my dad being the reason of the death of his uncle and cousin

And a part of me felt hurt knowing that he came to my life with a goal of aching me while i saw him as the only hope of finding happiness again with a friend after losing yuqi.. i should have known who he was when the day at the rooftop he changed right after getting a call by someone called bangchan... what a fool i was to not even think about it..

The door opened and i came face to face with an eyese widened boy stood frozen before grining wide and rushing towards me.. what he did next got me frozen

Hyunjin ... hugged me

Something i needed more than anything in a situation like this...

but i couldnt hug him back i just cried in his embrace

"Am so thankful you waked up and am so sorry you had to see something like that all alone" he told me and i couldnt help but cry more in his embrace as i grabbed his shirt for support

I could sense jeongin was awake and staring but that was the least thing i could care about now

As he broke apart he kissed my forehead and told me he would go and call the doctor but that meant staying alone in the same room with jeongin and i wasnt ready to even look at him so i grabbed hyunjin's hand and silently shook my head asking him not to go

He looked at me for a moment pure saddness and pity showing in his eyes as he nodded and asked jeongin to call for the doctor and he went without a word.

And me and hyunjin were left alone my eyes was just burning wet

"Rian am so sorry for your loss, we shouldnt have left you alone that day or else you woudlnt have been kidnapped. And these things woudlnt have happened in the first place" he said lowly cupping both my hands in his and kissing it letting tears drop from my eyes

" hyunjin i have a question.." i asked so quiet i am even suprised he heard me but he nodded

" what happened to the boy? The one who kidnapped me.." i asked but was stopped as jeongin came inside with the doctor and nurses behind him

I looked at him and i felt drowned in pain..

The doctor showed his saddness for my loss which was a complete act but what do i say.. he checked a few things and smiled telling me am recovering well but he stopped before leaving

" i just want to say dear your wound is not your fault but your healing heart would be your responsibility and i hope you stand up strong" he smiled and left and i sighed as i cupped my own face

"Where is Mr kim and Mrs jung ? My guards ?" I asked no one in practicular but jeongin decided to answer.

"They are busy with filing charges again chan and getting ready for the funeral" he asnwered with his dark eyes on me..

My eyes locked on him i found myself angry

" what are you even doing here ?, to see in what pain i am ?to see if i would break down?" I asked i myself surprised by my harsh attitude but i was hurt and angry at him

" rian he has been here since the accident he hadnt left for the past 2 days. He was equally worried about you as everyone" hyunjin tried to assure me but i found myself chuckling with the tears in my eyes

"Equally worried as everyone else? Excuse me but i dont have anyone to be worried about me all my life is just a drama with passing by actors who leave the scene when their roles end.and he was a really great actor he should probably be awarded"i found myself saying looking in the eyes of him

He  sighed as he messed his hair and asked hyunjin to leave as alone he hesitated but left outside anyway

"Im sorry" was all he uttered

" what are you sorry for?For what jeongin?" I asked trying to calm myself  and he sighed

"I never acted infront of you rian hell i never faked anything. At first i had pure rage against you i hated you with my all for what happened to my uncle family and for the pain i had to see chan oppa in everyday.." he seemed so in pain when he was talking that he stopped midway but continued anyway

" but i swear i never acted, with you i was always me and only me. I even told you i came here with a purpose. What i am sorry for is because at first i judged you thinking you were the same as your dad but you were different.." he sighed looking at me with sincerity that brought tears into my eyes

How can i hate him..

"Rian i swear i didnt know chan kidnapped you or i wouldnt've let it happen to neither of you i only told him that we are out to brighten your mood little did i know that happened .. i am sorry i know you may nay be able to forgive me for it but i just wanted to know i was worried hell about you and am still scared and worried about you And i care for you" he said and i just couldnt look at his eyes so innocently looking at me

I should hate him, i must hate him, i must push him away. I trusted him. After yuqi he and hyunjin became my onlys.... we were build on a fake bond even if it turned to a natural bond ... a fake bond could never become a trsutful one

I cupped my face in my own hands and cried continuously

" i.. i just cant believe ... you - chan ... chan killed my dad *sob* he ... he ruined his own life ...*sob*  he became a murderer because of my dad ... how could i ask for his family's forgiveness*sob*..." i couldn't continue talking because of my sobbing and tears, i felt like i couldn't breath feeling like i was drowned in a sea but i wasn't dying

His embrace and hug was something i needed so much, i couldnt care less about showing my weakness infront of him anymore and i couldnt care less about pushing him away because at a moment when i am at the bottom i just need someone to hold me up i needed it desperately

"But uncle! You cant tell her now! She is in a shock already!" We heard a voice outside my room clearly loud enough for it to catch our attention as we sensed it was hyunjin's voice

"Get away hyunjin, i wont let my niece  endure all the burden for someone like him!" This voice.... where did i hear it
I couldnt think straight as i was still sobbing because of all the tears i shed i looked at jeongin who was still  holding me for support and he was as confused as i was but he patted my head telling me to calm down as he went to check what was going on outside between hyunjin and that man

And when the door opened my eyes widened

I knew i heard that voice before

It was him..

He was back

What did he want this time? I lost both of my parents there was nothing remained... and i was no longer scared