"Appa..?"

What is this with dad coming here? What is this these luggages...

"Mr. Cha please take my things to that room" he said before looking back at me.

"Are you staying here appa?" I confusedly asked.

"uh.. well yes at least for the time being" he said as he didn't even look at me.

I already knew it, that he wont stay with me here

But...

The fact that he said it himself

And

The fact that he didn't even look at me...

"arraseo, welcome back appa" I faked a smile before turning around and going upstairs.

It has been 5 years that we have been living apart since that guy have got catch and been sentenced.

More than being happy that I am finally living with him again..

I was sad..*

I was sad, because once again.. *

Once again I felt like a stranger being with him.*

And all I wanted to do was to avoid him because I didn't want to feel any kind of negative thoughts.

Because after all

He is my Father.

And nothing can change that fact.

*Dinner Time*

Awkward..

"Rian-ah, for the time being don't go to school it's dangerous. "

"but nothing ever happened during school time"

" I already informed your school, just do as I say"

*from the first day why is he deciding whatever he wants?..*

"Why?, Why should I not go? Why is it dangerous?" I asked , I just couldn't hold it in this time I wanted to hear the reason that I have never heard of.

If that reason does even exist

"I told you its dangerous, stay at home so the guards can watch you better"

"if school is also dangerous

is there even a place for me that is .... Safe? "

"Rian its all for your own good" even when he says that...

*I still don't feel any worry from him..

It's just like..

He is taking me as a responsibility and no more.

"Excuse me first, I got to study" I couldn't help but tear up as I turned around to leave.

"I told you it's for your own good! Just listen for one time!" he said as he punched the table angrily .

I was afraid.

Of this him.

But I was happy that he wasn't hiding himself and finally got angry at me.

But tears didn't stop coming down.. I hated this weak me.

The flashes of our happy times with mom came to me and I couldn't even face this new him.

"He is out of prison.. that's why, please listen to me rian. I am your father and I cant see you in danger" he said in a sorrow tone as I turned behind he was my dad again.

The really caring him of 5years ago.

"he might kidnap you again"

"I am not afraid of him any longer dad.. our life couldn't get more complicated and worse than this" I smiled through my tears as he looked at me.

"Instead of hiding try to tell me the reasons. Then maybe....
Maybe everything will be better."

"I am no longer the 11 years old rian, I am now 18. During this 7 years I grew up. I don't want to hide any longer. I want to face the danger you are talking about. So please don't hide anything from me any longer" I looked at him once again and went upstairs.

And from that day on, the tunnel of secrets slowly started to lighten up.

How I wish that I would have never tried so hard to understand.

How I wish I would have always stayed as the clueless girl that just lived the life she was ordered to..

This wasn't what I wanted by knowing the reasons.

This wasn't what I wanted by knowing the secrets.