2 months later : rian pov

2month has passed since my life had gone upside down, i have gotten better by better i mean crueler tougher and heartless so these kind of things wont break me anymore.

I gave all the wealth of my parents under control of mr kim and mrs jung. I didnt want to get involved in the dirty works they did so i decided it was for the best

It has been a week since i finished my exams and i could say that even through all these troubles i was gladly able to do good in my exams. I plan on enrolling at a college in New York if i get accepted maybe study business or fashion completely two different majors right? Well idk really what i want to become

I have met all of hyunjin's family, they were all so loving and kind to me that i felt guilty. I was the daughter of the woman whom ruined their brother or uncle's life yet they still accepted me with so much love.

I got to understand park insuk better now. It was hard to call him uncle not because i hated him but because it was awkward and still felt unreal to me, hyunjin however always stayed beside me i was so thankful for that.

During the past two months i have only met jeongin when i went to school for the exams. He would just stare at me and not utter a word. I kind of felt guilty for showing him the cold shoulder but i needed time. When i looked at him i just felt sadness and guilt and i remembered yuqi and chan.. i made sure mr kim and mrs jung will cancel the lawsuit against him and told him to get a good lawyer for him cause the reason the bright oppa turned out that way was dad's fault. They disagreed first but later agreed anyway. He got 6 years sentence out of guilt I couldn't go n visit him..

But today was his birthday and a part of me told me to go I brought a cake for him and with hesitating steps walked in

I waited and waited till chan came, his eyes widened when he saw me and he stood frozen in his place. My heart was beating so fast i thought it would burst. Would he want to meet me ? Wouldnt he get upset at me? I thought to myself before shaking my head and getting up with the cake in my hand  before lighting the candle

" i wished i could have done this in a better place, i know i dont have the right to do it but u are still the oppa i cherished for years so... happy birthday chan oppa.."i said before looking up and seeing his eyes teary. As i looked at him like that with these clothes on my tears also showed

"Make a wish my hands hurt from holding this cake so long" i frowned to change the mood which made him chuckle as he did what i said and blew on it making both of us smile before sitting

"Rian..." he muttered and i knew he wanted to apologize but he didnt have any reason to. Am more than thankful he doesnt hate me after all of these

" oppa am the one who should apologize, am so sorry and ashamed of everything my dad has done not only to your fam but to anyone out there.. am not asking for you to forgive him i will never but i wish you would let go of the pain.. am so sorry i wasn't with you during the hard times. I was such a coward" i said as i wiped at tear before cupping his left hand in mine

He looked up before getting up to  hug me, i was surprised but hugged him back soon after

"I thought you would hate and despite me I thought i will never be able to see you again.. you were all that was in my brain for the past two months and it was killing me to not know what you were thinking about... i am just so— no am so thankful rian  am so thankful to you" he said his voice cracking becsuse of his tears and it broke my heart hearing him say this things

Chan was the oppa me and yuqi looked upon all the time, he was a really admirable oppa he was always there for us protecting us. He would stand up for us whenever a student bothered us. He was the best friend anyone could ask for

After a while of just sitting in silence watching him eat his cake I decided to speak up

"Oppa actually i plan on enrolling at college in NY maybe dtudy fashion or business so if i get accepted i may not be able to visit you for a long time , i just wanted to say... if i dont visit its not because i hate you or anything you will always be the oppa i admired and i promise if i got accepted i would visit you every time i come back to korea for visit" i smiled as o looked at him, he stopped eating and just looked at me sadly before nodding with a smile

"Jeongin also has plans to enroll there in business.I am happy you wont be alone" he said and my eyes widened

"What?! Jeongin? NY?" I uttered and he chuckled

"Yep,i know you have been avoiding him but open up because he cares about you so much. You are all that he talks about when he visits me. I dont have the right to ask you butForgive him. He didnt have intentions of hurting you by lying " he said and i nodded hesitantly

Jeongin... i never thought of studying together in the same department...

" i dont hate him.. its just oppa.. its kind of awkward, i dont know how i should act.. you know i never liked showing weakside infront of others but he saw me at my weakest and now its awkward" i frowned and he nodded

" i know that well, you avoided me for a whole week back when you were in middle school just because i saw you crying in a corner" he said with a smile which made me blush

" gosh oppa how did you even remember that?!"