I jumped awake to the sound of knocking on my door. Kiri did too put he pulled me closer when I tried to get up.

"Kiri, let me up." I told him.

"Nooo~." He whined, and I pushed him off of me. I slid off my bed and went to open the door.

"Hey girl!" Mina said after I opened it, behind her was Denki and Bakugo. I moved aside and they walked into my room. "We bring gifts!"

"How you feeling?" Denki asked me.

"Better." I said. "A little numb."

"Is that normal?" Mina asked and we all sat on the floor, except Kiri who stayed up on my bed, and the shadow figure that stood in the corner of the room.

"Yeah, I'll slowly come out of it over the next few days." I said looking away from it and Bakugo handed me something wrapped. "What is this?"

"It's food dumb ass." He answered me and I squinted at him. "What?"

"You poisoned it didn't you?" I asked him.

"Yes." He said.

"Cool." I said unwrapping it, before taking a bite. We then started watching movies.

"Oh I also got you this." Mina said as she pulled a jar out of a bag. "It's a lavender candle, the girl at the candle shop said it works really well to calm nerves and all that."

"Thank you Mina, I appreciate it." I said and lit it. "My mom used to burn some of these around the house."

"Did they work?" Denki asked.

"I don't know." I said. "Home was never really a calm place for me to begin with."

"Why's that?" Kiri asked and he hung his head over the side of my bed.

"My parents were always fighting when I grew up." I said. "My Mom always wanted to try and find new ways to fix me. But my Dad wasn't interested in spending that kind of money. Eventually he left, and my Mom kind of lost it after that. She got tired of me having to change schools constantly because the schools didn't want to deal with me being a schizophrenic. She didn't either."

"But you joined UA." Bakugo said.

"Wasn't entirely my choice." I explained. "I mean yeah it'd be cool to be a hero and all that, but I always knew that I wouldn't be able to make it because of my problems. But my Mom told me that I had to join UA. Because here is the only place that'll put up with me along with getting me out of the house."

"You're Mom sounds like a bitch." Bakugo said, and I snorted.

"Yeah." I said, and stared at my food. "I'm going to go for a walk." I said and stood up.

"Do you want us to go with you?" Denki asked and went to stand up.

"No, no." I said. "I wont be gone long, you guys just keep watching movies. I won't be gone long."

"Oh okay." Mina said. I walked out of my room and down the hallway.

I walked up the stairs and up to the roof, where I stepped out into a cool breeze. I walked over to the ledge of the building and ran my hand over it as I walked. I looked out over the city and watching slowly as lights turned on in all the buildings one by one. I stopped walking, and jumped up onto the ledge and sat with my legs hanging over the edge.

A pair of arms wrapped around me and I jumped as I turned around.

"Kiri?" I sighed. "You scared me, what are you doing up here?"

"I told you I wasn't going to leave you alone." He said into my shoulder. With those words the shadowed figure materialized next to us and I looked at it over Kiri's head. I felt myself panic a little, at it's sudden appearance. I had never seen it appear before, it would just suddenly show up in between blinks or when I turned my head

"Kiri, I'm okay." I told him and he hugged me a little tighter. "Okay, maybe I'm not. I don't know."

"Tell me." He said and put his chin on my shoulder.

"When I have a depressive episode, I feel anything and everything." I told him. "I feel all of it so fast, that it almost makes me numb. But being numb, sounds better than this. Even though, I would rather feel this than nothing."

"Why?" He asked and I felts tears fall from my eyes.

"Because feeling this, means I'm still human." I said, and my nose started to get stuff. "That despite me being schizophrenic, I still have the ability to feel things even when I feel out of control."

"You're not out of control." Kiri told me and I laughed, laying my head back onto his shoulder looking up at the orange sky. "You're not. Your brain is. I've watched you switch emotions faster than you could blink, but you keep your control on it as best as you can. You don't let it get you, not without a fight at least."

"I'm just tired of fighting." I sighed.

"Well then I'll fight with you." He told me, and I leaned my head against his. "If you feel like you're spiraling out of control, come find me okay. No matter time of day, I'll help you."

"Trust me, I'd become a burden at some point." I told him.

"No you won't, I promise." He said and pulled away from me enough to look me in the eye. He was serious.

"I'll keep that in mind." I told him.