Gulf's POV

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I was feeling warm and cozy as I slowly woke up, a ray of light was peeking from behind the curtains that shined on my face so I turned to the other side, I wanted to return to sleep but a certain feeling made me slowly open my eyes, the first thing I saw was that my hand was on top of a man's bare chest, I glanced up to find that it was Mew which made me relax, wait why did I feel relieved? Mew was holding me so close to him and I was sleeping on his left hand noticing that I was also shirtless

I stayed still as memories of yesterday started coming back bit by bit, I felt my cheeks getting hotter while I kept blinking, my heart started beating so fast just like yesterday, I can't believe we did smth outrageous yesterday and it was my fault, well that evil man's fault to be more exact but I was the one who asked Mew to help me, he warned me but I kept telling him to do whatever he wanted, I really went crazy yesterday

'how can I face Mew after yesterday?' I thought to myself, wait, I should be furious right now, I should be yelling and hitting Mew, he just did whatever he wanted all night long, I should be hating Mew, yet, I'm only embarrassed and relaxed as if what happened was so normal between us... It really somehow felt good... I must have gone crazy... I tried to slowly move away without waking up Mew but my body was so sore that I ended up groaning a little, I quickly covered my mouth but it was too late

"Gulf?" his deep low sleepy voice echoed around the silent room as I slowly turned to face him, I was so embarrassed that I couldn't look him in the eye, he slowly sat up looking down to me while I was laying there without any movements

"I'm sorry" he suddenly said with a depressed apologetic tone

"I should have took you to the hospital or at least I should have controlled myself" he sounded so sad and regretful, he was blaming himself and was about to move

"it's not your fault!" I quickly held his hand making eye contact, I was so shy but if I don't say anything now, we will surely drift apart and he may even leave to go back to London and I don't want that to happen

"I should be thanking you for helping me" he looked surprised for a moment

"but I did an unforgivable things to you, I lost control and..."

"it can't be helped, you also must have smelled the aphrodisiac a bit, besides I was the one who asked you to help me and to do whatever you wanted"

"still, you must be feeling so disgusted and scared right now so I should lea-"

"No! I won't allow you to leave!" I was taken aback by what I just blurted out but I really don't want Mew to go away

"Gulf, you are trembling" he said with a very sad voice

"I'm not disgusted nor scared, I'm trembling because my body is sore and I'm feeling so weak, my back hurts too, I was silent earlier because I'm extremely embarrassed, you already know that I've never done smth like that before" I explained looking away

"so you don't hate me?" I glanced back to see that he is seriously worried and sad, I smiled

"I said this yesterday too, I will never hate you, I would prefer that you have me than that man, actually I'm glad that my first was with you so in case that man may get to me, I won't feel completely terrified and traumatized, if this may happens again, I will still choose you P' Mew" Mew looked stunned for a minute then a wide tender smile appeared on his face

"thank you, I was really concerned and was ready to be kicked out by you, whatever happens, I promise I will take responsibility, I will never leave you Gulf, never" I chuckled

"what responsibility? We are both man so there is nothing to be worried about, but I do need some help P' Mew"

"of course, I will do anything, btw you can just drop the P', you called my name so many times that it's feels weird to be called P' now" he smiled making me smile back

"alright, well, as I said I feel so weak so can you help taking me to the bathroom?" Mew jumped taking away the covers, I was still completely naked so I turned away hiding my tomato face, he came slowly carrying me, the moment he did, I felt some liquid sliding down my thighs, Mew looked flustered while I covered my face

"sorry, I should have used condoms although I don't have any" I glanced to find Mew looking guilty while he slowly walked

"ne-neither do I so don' worry about it, anyway, stop apologizing, we both lost control, the only one to blame is that bastard, and like I said, I'm glad that it's you who helped me"

"you are so understanding Gulf, I promise I will take care of you and take full responsibility"

"do whatever you want, just stop feeling guilty and never blame yourself, and of course don't ever leave because of this" my heart suddenly skipped a beat when he showed me a pure sweet smile, even his eyes were happily gazing into mine, making me so conscious looking away, this must be because of what we did yesterday right? I'm just feeling embarrassed and conscious of Mew because we broke all walls

As soon as we got to the bath, Mew helped washing me up from head to toe, he even helped cleaning my ass which was so awkward for both of us and somehow turned me on a little, even Mew looked embarrassed and got hard a little, he is Bi so I think it's natural for him but why am I feeling it too? Maybe I also I'm a Bi and I wasn't just aware of it after that accident with that psycho, either way, I don't care, I'm glad that Mew saved me and he is with me

After finishing our bath, Mew cleaned my room, and cooked for us, he stayed close to me the whole day since it was hard for me to move, he even had to support me to go to the toilet, by evening I started feeling better and was able to walk around, my hips still hurt a little but the pain was fading away

"ah, now I remember, even though I missed a day, no one contacted me"

"I called your father yesterday before driving you home and told him that you well feeling a little unwell and will be resting for today"

"I see, thanks, I really can count on you in everything, you are the best"

"I think you should rest tomorrow too"

"nah, I'm fine, another good night sleep will do the trick, but it seem that evil amn has finally started approaching me"

"I never thought that he would use such things to get you, even restrooms are not safe, let's stick to each other from now on"

"of course, ah but it seem he muscled up a little since the last time I saw him"

"so it mean he was training to get even stronger than before, this is getting serious Gulf, we need to tell your close friends and parents, just tell them that a psychopath is after you, so that they can be on guard too"

"you're right, you too Mew, tell your parents just in case" Mew nodded assuring me that everything will be fine, he must have sensed how worried I am, when it was time for sleeping, I turned off the light and laid on the bed, yet I couldn't help but remember everything that happened on my bed, all the details were swimming inside my head, the kisses, the infinity moans, even how I was feeling back then, all this was making me flustered and I couldn't sleep so I shyly went to Mew's room

"may I sleep here?" I asked going in, he sat looking widely at me with a messy hair

"of course you can but may I know why?" he said standing up

"when I laid on my bed I couldn't help but remember what happened yesterday and I couldn't fall asleep" I stated averting my eyes, Mew looked shy understanding me

"I see, you sleep here I will go to your room" he said was about to leave

"you will feel restless too so let's just sleep here until we forget about that incident"

"you will be conscious of me sleeping with you too so just go ahead and lay do-"

"Mew stop making excuses, I said I'm fine so let's go to sleep" he stared at me while I laid down facing the window, without saying anything Mew also laid down facing the other way, there was an awkward silence between us, I didn't notice this before, whenever I'm this close to Mew my body completely relax, I feel so safe and comfortable, his warmth and the sound of his steady faint breathing makes me so calm and at ease as all worries fade away

Unconsciously, I found myself yearning to be closer to feel his warmth as my body was sliding back as if it was pulled by a magnet, aside from all embarrassing things that happened, it was the first time for me to sleep so well and so deep yesterday, when I felt our backs touching we both flinched, my mind was telling me to move away but my body refused and stayed glued to Mew's back, I expected that he would feel uncomfortable and move away yet he surprised me by what he did next

"if you hate this push me away" he said turning around and holding me closer by the waist, my body went stiff for a moment but soon relaxed, Mew's body heat and smell were so close and alluring yet very calming as if I was surrounded by the Lavender flowers, well, my heart was beating loudly and I was afraid that Mew may hear or feel it and I was even feeling butterflies tickling me in my stomach but I didn't want to leave his embrace

Mew held me a little more closer that I could feel his breath on the back of neck which made me shiver once, it was ticklish and it somehow felt good at the same time, this is not supposed to happen, I was supposed to get angry at him and send him away but I can't, this feeling of wanting to keep Mew all to myself is controlling me, I keep surprising myself with those thoughts but I can't deny that yesterday incident opened to new door for me

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"Gulf... wake up Gulf... Gulf" a gentle soft voice called me, it was so close to my ear, since I was feeling so comfortable and enjoying the perfect heat that engulfed my body, I refused to open my eyes and just moved closer to feel cozier

"you must be feeling so good right now but you need to wake up or you will be late Gulf" the soft voiced rang in my ear as I felt a hand slowly and tenderly brushing my hair, I slowly opened my eyes to find that Mew was already awake and looking to me

"good morning, did you sleep well?" for some reason I didn't get surprised by how close we were and how he was still brushing away my hair

"'morning, yes, thanks to you, what time is it now?"

"it's past 7 and half" I quickly sat up

"what?! I can't believe I overslept, why didn't you wake me?" Mew also sat up moving his left shoulder and stretching his hand

"I've been waking you up for 20 minutes now"

"sorry, I don't know how I ended up sleeping on your hand, I'm sorry"

"don't worry about it, hurry up and get ready" Since that day, things have returned to normal, the only change is that I started sleeping with Mew every day, we got so close since there was no walls between us anymore, on the other hand I really became so conscious of Mew and his surrounding, I started noticing how others were trying to get close to him and how he became friendlier and will keep smiling to all of them, how they even get touchy with Mew and what shocked me is that I was feeling irritated and... Jealous?

If I have to describe Mew now, he is very handsome and stylish, everything fits him so well that makes him the center of attention especially that he started smiling a lot, he is well build and tall, very strong and intelligent, well physically, he is perfect, his personality changed a lot, he became so amicable, sympathetic, and polite, not to mention that he always has been kind and wanted to help the weak, he is understanding and trustworthy, if I have to name a bad thing about him is that he became overprotective and keep nagging at me if I go somewhere alone without taking him with me

/** That's Love Gulf, I'm so happy to know that **\ Luke

/** you finally realized your love feelings for Mew, congrats **\ Noah

That's what his friends Luke and Noah said when I send them a message asking them, so it's true, I did fall in love with Mew, no, it's more like I've been in love with him since way before and that incident was the last push for me to finally realize those feelings, I still can't believe that I actually fell in love with a man but I can't deny my feelings and I know it's only for Mew and no one else

Now the important question is, how am I supposed to deal with those burning feelings that suddenly surfaced? I don't deserve to be with Mew, I caused him so much trouble and he got hurt so many times because of me, he surely deserve someone better,  a beautiful kind and understanding girl with whom he can create a family and live happily with them, I think I must lock my feelings away and act normally as before, I hope that Mew won't notice anything

Can I really do it?