Bismillahi Rrahmaan Rraheem

09 November 2018

In my novel, A Blissed and Blessed Arafah I had wrote about a Muslim girl who has memorized the Qur-an and recites five juz's a day so as not to forget her Qur-an.

Then, Sister khadija_Taqiya may Allah bless her commented that, "how pure will her heart be". That comment had touched me and I learnt something great that indeed Qur-an purifies heart.

I recommend to all who are struggling to gain thabat (steadfastness) to start by reciting the Qur-an regularly. It helps a lot as you purify your heart from all evil and misguidance.

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(إِنَّ الَّذِينَ قَالُوا رَبُّنَا اللَّهُ ثُمَّ اسْتَقَامُوا تَتَنَزَّلُ عَلَيْهِمُ الْمَلَائِكَةُ أَلَّا تَخَافُوا وَلَا تَحْزَنُوا وَأَبْشِرُوا بِالْجَنَّةِ الَّتِي كُنْتُمْ تُوعَدُونَ)
[Surat Fussilat 30]

Indeed, those who have said, "Our Lord is Allah " and then remained on a right course - the angels will descend upon them, [saying], "Do not fear and do not grieve but receive good tidings of Paradise, which you were promised.

The Holy Prophet ﷺ said “These hearts become rusty just as iron does when water affects it.” On being asked what could clear them he replied, “A great amount of remembrance of death and recitation of the Qur’an.”
[Tirmidhi, Abdullah ibn Umar narrated]

The greatest karaamah is STEADFASTNESS because Allah has never honored a slave more than Allah helping a slave to do what He loves and is pleased with.
-Shaykhul Islam Ibn Taymiyah

Right now, I feel so miserable,

I keep doing deeds that are unacceptable,

How could I dare,

Miss my fajr prayer,

Why did I go back to chatting to that boy,

I feel so bad that I treat my tawbah as toy,

Why did I return?,

To do handshakes with non-mahram?,

Despite my tawbah, which I thought was strong and tight,

I still spend hours to gossip and backbite,

Watching movies all day and night,

With each passing hour I drift away from divine light,

Despite promising that I won't repeat,

I keep listening to music, enjoying each beat,

If in my place, this was you?

Tell me please what would you do?

Its just recent when I promised ArRahman,

That I'd be steadfast on reading Qur-an,

I even started doing extra swiyaam,

And that one night, I did witr and qiyaam,

Boy! Those days so high was my Imaan,

I never thought from this path I would turn,

Seeing me now, I really can't believe,

How I quick I managed to retrieve,

Trust me I am feeling so low,

My journey to obedience is painfully slow,

I try to talk to Allah in seclusion,

Cause' I know He always has the solution,

Then I see a message sent out of the blue,

My friend is saying, 'glad tidings to you',

The text says, 'Dear, Allah loves you.'

'Even his Jannah is waiting for you.'

'When things are tough',

'And the path seems rough',

'To him, never stop to return',

'There is a reason he is called ArRahman',

'Force your soul to pray and READ QUR-AN',

'And Allah shall revive your Iman',

'it won't be easy, that I will tell you',

'but you have to understand that it wasn't meant to '

'For Jannah is way too valuable',

'for one to enter vaguely, without surviving the struggle',

That has really shaken me inside,

Down my cheek, I feel a tear slide,

I get up and make ablution, 

This time with a more firm resolution,

I am heading back to my Lord,

Through every little act and deed I can afford,

Right now I would read even if a single Qur-an verse,

I will repeat Astaghfirullah from dawn until dusk,

The boy I'll block and clear all chats,

Along deleting all my music tracks,

For qiyaam' I'll set alarm on my phone,

I won't backbite, and its fine if that means I'll have to sit alone,

And asking Allah's help will be my biggest prayer,

It soothes my heart to know He is ever there,

I will do it now with a strong intention,

And even if I fall, I will re strengthen my resolution,

Because I know it is worth,

That He be pleased me when I am leaving this Earth.