I'm that kinda mood where I feel like cringing at my old self so I'm looking back at my middle school shit (7th and 8th grade for me because my town's middle school only has those two grades in the school for some reason)

Here we go

This is me in seventh grade and I'm 13 in this picture

As you can see, I haven't aged a goddamn day

Literally the only thing that's changed is my hair

THAT'S. A. FUCKING. MOOD. ESPECIALLY. AT. WORK. BECAUSE. OF. ALL. OF. THE. KIDS. AND. THEIR. NEGLECTFUL. PARENTS. THAT. THINK. THAT. IT'S. MY. JOB. TO. WATCH. THEIR. LITTLE. SHIT(S).

(I really dislike children so... lmao)

Except the "I like to smile" part because I'm pessimistic af

This is like several pages back but this shit fucked me up and snatched my wig clean off like damn I remember looking at this and thinking that it was such a long time away and now I'm fucking graduated like shit man where the fuck did the time go

Look at all these people I can't stand lmao

Fun fact: I'm sitting next to one of my ex boyfriends in this picture

We dated on and off a couple of times and we broke up for good after he left me at our winter date to go home and play Xbox

Yeah, um, I've dated really shitty people lmao

There's no other pictures of me in the yearbook because I didn't do anything besides go home every day and watch YouTube, play video games, or write and didn't do any sports or clubs lol

Jk I lied there's a group shot of me in choir but you can't really see me among the sea of people so... lmfao

Onto eighth grade oh boy

Still haven't aged a goddamn day

I'm 14 in this picture

Again, ugh, the long hair

I had to scribble out my last name since I don't want the internet knowing what it is lol

Yay I'm next to people that I actually like

I don't talk to either of them simply because I drifted apart from them when I switched schools at the end of tenth grade and attended that school for eleventh and twelfth grade

Ew it's me in swim with the worst fucking coaches ever

Literally the only reason I did it that next year was because they didn't coach that year

But then I quit for good after my mom broke my spirits by saying that I wasn't good enough for the team and that I wasn't ever going to get better and whatnot lmfao

Oh yeah there's another group shot of me in choir but again, you can't see me among the sea of people

Had to scribble out the name of my school this time because I don't want creepy people finding out where I live

Also if you look really closely, you can see that I'm wearing a couple of Rainbow Loom bracelets that I had made because Rainbow Loom was the shit back in those days

I still have that piano one because I'm still proud that I actually managed to make it dammit

Gross I'm next to another one of my ex boyfriends

And to think I was trying to get back with him at this dance ew smfh Bree wtf were you doing I know you were pining over lost love but goddammit girl no he told you that you were too skinny and tried to convince you to gain weight with him so that the two of you would be a fat couple together (long story short lol)

Again, I dated really shitty people

And of fucking course I kept turning down the only decent guy that liked me because I liked this dude and wanted to be with him and by the time that I realized that I still liked the decent guy (we had dated before and only broke up because he thought he was going to go to another school) and told him that I still liked him, he told me that he was moving back to Oregon (that's where he's from) so I was really fucking depressed for like the longest time because of this but then he came back in ninth grade and my dumbass shy self was too scared to try and rekindle things so now three years later, I still think about him every now and again and miss him and wish things would've been different and whatnot

Okay moving on from one of the main sources of the depression that I had all throughout middle school

Yes, I bonded with my eighth grade social studies teacher over cat videos

It was great and I miss him so much

Literally one of the best teachers that I've ever had

Oof awkward because I didn't really like this teacher way too much because he always tried way too hard to be cool and hip and failed miserably

The "stay gold" thing gets me because (I didn't mention this while talking about seventh grade oof) literally pretty much everyone in our grade was obsessed with The Outsiders when we read the book and watched the movie in language arts

That shit fucked us up lmao

All of my language arts teachers have loved me for some reason

This one was probably my favorite tbh

I honestly feel really proud to say that four years later, I'm still writing, just like she wanted me to keep doing

Alrighty, I'm gonna end the throwback here

There was a lot of shit that I didn't talk about like going in depth about my depression and obsessions and stuff like that

But maybe I will another time

Alright I'm gonna go and head to bed (after playing Animal Crossing: Pocket Camp because it's the only game I'm actually devoted to) since it's 11:20 PM where I am right now and I have to get up early since I have work at 7:30 AM

Goodbye