Read while listening the song. The song is just magic. His voice is just so beautiful.

Avni's POV

I woke up with a start and looked about to find something familiar but I panicked when I realised I was somewhere else. I closed my eyes to stop the series of panic attacks I was going to experience. My eyes swung open and now I was looking right into a pair of soft brown caramel coloured eyes. They were filled with fear, worry and as if seeking forgiveness. Suddenly all that happened( I don't know when) came flooding back to me. I wish I could forget about them but that was near about impossible. I felt like everything was imploding. I detested the fact that I had to face Neil this soon after what happened. My system demanded time. My mind was still whirling and I knew that me standing would result in me crashing on the floor. The veil on the Pandora box just got lifted and life again got complicated. I was still not bared to all the secrets but just a few characters starring Neil's life who procured a devastating effect on him. I spend all my time trying to shield him from his own demonous version of life and a single encounter from one of the trivial or maybe important characters of his past practically blazing him to flames. My feelings were not the one demanding notice it is Neil's. I did not know how I was going to act. Should I put on a show that I got haywire and he got lucky that I forgot a thing or should I act like I am oblivious to the fact that questions were practically slamming on to me.

I let out a groan while Neil was immediately by my side helping me up. It was then that I spared Neil a few glances because that was the maximum I could do. Looking into his eye just did not fit in with our current status.

Neil let out a sigh and finally broke past the chilly cold slab of awkwardness.

Neil: You better now?. You kind of passed out in the cafe. You were tired and that took a toll on you.

Whoa is he actually trying to put all the events in a chronological order with the hope of exiting the main show stealer of tomorrow's show. The entire encounter drama. So this is what he wants- to persuade me to forget all that or rather just tag it as a dream something seen in the hang of exhaustion. Well what he does not realize is that I don't remember all that happened in bits and tatters. I remember everything vividly and explicitly inscribed in my brain.

I sighed and did not reply. I was disappointed. I had practically devoted all I had to get just one thing. His trust. Right now he is doing a fine job in slamming it on my face that I don't deserve enrapturing his trust. I have spend eons to first shove the fact that I blindly trust him and then later made him believe that. Now I see it crumbling right before my eyes. I was never wrong when i said he had a dark past hidden amidst the chaos of the chilly winds of NY shoveling on the window pane. He just wanted to hide it. The hurt was not pitching because I was not considered as a person deserving of knowing but what was piercing is that I was tried to be abstained from the very fact that he had a past here. These are the time when I think I don't know the beautiful figure carving right before me. His eyes seem foreign and his actions are home to a even stranger land. I don't feel the heat insinuation and neither do I feel safe. Its an imposter thought to think that sharing the room with a man whom you barely recognise would make you feel cocooned into safety. I felt uncomfortable to be entrapped with him intruding my private space.

Neil: Avni say something. Your scaring me.

And it hit the most damaged chord in my heart and my heart squealed out in exasperation.

A tear ran down my eyes and I finally voiced out what I had to say. A single question channelizing all my frustration.

I : Why?

Neil looked a little confused and his eyes were also like porcelain now. Polished, refined and susceptible to hiding everything now. His eyes were betraying me now Even they spoke the language of lies.

His silence fueled my aggression now. I stood up however wobbly I felt.

I: You don't want to say. Fine but don't you dare lie on my face that you have nothing as a past. Come on Neil I did not have the chance to even remember about who the hell was Ayan my rapist. You know what misunderstandings it bred to. Right now we have the choice to sort everything out but what you are doing is just designating you as an idiot and a very weak person.

Neil: avni you know nothing.

I: Exactly my point.

Neil: Avni please rest you...

I: Just shut up okay shut up.

Questions screamed like banshees in my brain. Who were Alex and Ben. Who was Selena? Why was he known as KillerBeat? Bloody hell. Like I am ever getting answers. I strode out of the room leaving Neil to deal with his emotions on his own. I freshened up and then took my meds. After that I pampered myself with some real good pancakes. I just love the chef out here.

After that I went in the bedroom to see if Neil was still there where he was not. I knew it. He would be in his study. I went there while Neil was talking over his phone.

Neil said over phone "I would be there bastard. And trust me your gonna repent that I even set foot on that crap place. 16 NYC road huh! As if I will ever forget. Watch me when killerbeat swings into action."

I was almost scared to enter the room. He looked so ferocious and the aggression in his eyes was nothing like what I have ever seen in his eyes. His soft caramel coloured eyes had taken the heinous shades of darkness. Yet I entered the room not really caring much about the frustration, zests of anger bursting about Neil. I heard him sigh while I went to the cupboard to take my laptop. I felt him behind me but not letting out a single reaction that might weaken my stance right now. I was dead serious when I said that I had to know a little of what he has been through otherwise it would just mean living with a man whom I love but not being able recognise as someone safe.

Suddenly Neil held my wrist and then turned me slowly.

Neil: Avni I swear I will tell you everything. I will exert my soul out to explain each and every event of my past. I won't even stutter knowing that their might be chances of you looking at me indifferently. I will tell but you got to trust me with some time. I need time.

I sighed in defeat.

I: Fine but I just need answer to one question. Is their someone waiting for your return for 5 years.

Neil: Avni I cannot tell anything right now just give me time. Just be patient okay.

The last of the strings of patience and diligence to know the truth were asail and my temper snapped. I pushed him with as much energy stored in me to accomplish the task of moving him. I again pushed him while Neil struggled to be on foot and not totter. He was surprised and the profound shock was totally evident in his expression.

I: Just cut the crap Neil. All my life I have waited. Waited for you to realise your love for me, waited for you to even acknowledge me as your wife. Waited for you to reconcile your mistakes. I am sick of waiting. You know what you don't even know what it takes to believe in patience when the sole reason why you are being patient might just be a big illusion. What do you think it takes me just nothing to hang on to your mere sentences of "being patient and all". It fucking cost me all that I have to be at your pace. You lie to me, you commit blunders, you hurt me, FUCKING YOU ARE THE ONLY PERSON WHO AFFECTS ME IN EVERY NEGATIVE WAY POSSIBLE . You don't want to tell fine but don't you dare lie on my face.

For the first time I did not even have tears in my eyes it was just pure rage. He was hiding everything for me and if I don't know right now then I am a fucking goner.

Neil: I know I am a mere excuse of a human being and I don't even deserve being with you and let alone the fact that I have lied to you on multiple occasions but both of us know one thing I love you. I cannot really tell you any extent of my love but just that I am in love with you. I am protecting you from the worst phase of my life and just try trusting me for one last time and I won't fail you. I will tell everything but right now its just too early. Give me a few more days. Please. The men you saw are dangerous. Bloody even I am dangerous but that does not change the fact that I won't ever hurt you.

I: guess what I am having second thoughts whether you even love me or not because lets be honest Neil you have'nt really been the epitome of a perfect husband and fuck the idea of perfect. I don't believe in perfection but the imperfection also has some traces of truth. What truth do we share? A hidden past.

This time Neil look petrified and angry.

Neil: I told you I am not hiding anything. Its just for a few more days that I am not disclosing the truth. And me not telling some crap stuff about who I was earlier does not tag me as the guy who does not love you. Come on Avni you speak rubbish when you are angry. Just blow off some steam, you don't even realise how these words are gonna affect us later.

I just muttered a whatever and raced past Neil. I hate fighting with him and I also know that I spoke utter nonsense. He loves me and I know that. There was no other reason why he was so concerned of his reputation before my eyes spiral down. Suddenly the address 16NYC road flashed on to my mind. What if I sneak up there behind Neil. I might just get some hint to what is happening. Atleast my sanity would not be threatened. I can go there and hide or whatever. The plan seemed very cool. I took my meds. I was not feeling like shit. Infact I was okay. The doctor was also like I could do all kinds of activities but in a restricted way. I am usually locked up in the room so idle is what I usually am so it would not kill me if I go out for some hunting. I heard the door clicking and I knew he was about to leave for office. I heard a knock on my door. I said "come in" .

Neil came up to me and kissed my forehead and said: I am leaving for office. Take care and I love you. And yeah trust me okay. Please.

I nodded my head without resorting to fighting and all. Becoz I would be a huge dumbass if I say that he does not love me. The way he looks at me gives me the shivers. Like all he ever wants is me. He fucking scares me and makes me wonder if I deserve so much love. I just should not have bursted out into hysterical fits of anger.

It was 5:30 now and I called Neil's office to know whether he left or is still in the office. I got to know that he is preparing to leave. I had already asked Evelyn the brand new friend or rather acquaintance I got here,about the address. She scrunched her nose in distaste. She was an extremely beautiful woman and it won't be a surprise if she was one of those models doing parades in bikini and practically landing all men in an ocean of their own drool. Okay she was that pretty. She was actually an LA designer and all. Her building is the next closest structure to ours. I went to let people know of our existence in the locality and as everyone knew this was the posh side and their were huge sky scrapers she was the likeliest person to be bestowed with my visit. Like Neil had bought the entire building there were other people following the same trend too. She sat in the exclusive beige coloured couch and her expression clearly told that she would never trace the steps of the address I just told.

Evelyn: Christ Av that is basically the shadiest place you could find in the entire of New York. Like this is progress right from the richest part of the city you want to pay a visit to that place. You don't even want to know what goes about there. I would suggest you to dig the idea of going to that place 6 foot underground. Dah! The people out there are not the best form of human kind. Trust me on that.

Okay I did get some filling in and I did realise about the degree of threat that loomed over that place. My transport well that was another question. Okay I will drive the car. Well this entire thing was actually igniting my adrenaline hormones. My heart was pounding on my rib cage with excessive force.

I wore simple jeans a V necked black top. I covered myself with a thick leather jacket so that I don't freeze into some slab of ice. I pulled my hair into a tight pony. I definitely was not going to show that I was some weak damsel in distress.

I rushed down and the elevator pinged open. I planned on a hideous black Audi which looked like it knew how to fly when in dire need. I hopped in and the ignition was alive now. I pushed in some gas and I was on my way. This was kind of scary I had to admit because jumping into the oblivion never really topped my to do list.

I was nearing the location and it was actually nowhere close to the picture I stuck in my mind. Like there was no dark alleyway leading into stinking pathways. Infact it was a very decent looking road and actually looked aggressively expensive like dangerous with a touch of money and power. I looked about and suddenly my eyes fell on two bouncers who were guarding a huge door. That was 16 NYC road. I could hear screams and shouts evading the street. People were entering and all of them not looking intimidating. Infact if I was not wrong I spotted a few college students too. I parked the car a little far and waited for Neil's car to come screeching in the parking lot. Soon enough I heard a Lamborghini stop a little front of me. Neil got down and it was time for me to swing into action. I tiptoed my path keeping close by him. Neil entered without a care like neither of the two bouncers gave a shit whether he went in or not. When I came in front I was not exactly welcomed but then money knows its work and I was soon in.

The shock that I got on entering was stronger than a thousand volt. Holy crap the place was actually a fighting circuit. All the people were cheering and hooting while there was a huge man making his opponent close to a human pulp. He was beating mercilessly and blood bespattered on the ring. Everyone was waving " GO rider beat him deat" Those were actual banners. Well it would be much more civil if they go into police custody and get themselves palpitated. This was well I did not want to name this. Fights that too illegal circuits were never my thing. And the last place I wanted to be stuck in was some NY illegal fighting circuit. I kind of knew that they were popular and the entire world might know about this but the immense political hindrance and money transactions kept police sirens away. I looked around and saw a guy with a tattoo same as Alex and Ben. That dragon tattoo. The guy had a lot of piercings and was not really a person who would welcome questions. He was huge like a little shorter than Neil and he had those killer intimidating look that can make a person he addresses pass out. The place was more than packed. I was getting squashed by some crazy teenager shouting his lungs out trying to get the man who was getting beaten try his luck. Well people also did some betting on fighters so it was understandable why he had this undying fervent wish of the other guy to suddenly switch on some super power moves and slash his asses off.

It was too suffocating for me to take and I spotted a door and want of some air got the better off me and I found myself inside it. I panted a little and I saw that I was actually in some locker type of room. It was the room used by the fighters to freshen up and prep up for the fight. Suddenly I heard noises and I definitely had no time to act on purpose so I did the next best thing. I hid behind a locker. I peered a little

and then I saw a red haired girl swirl in. She was dangerous and that was the first adjective that crossed my mind. She was like a fire burning right at the core. She was dead pale but her features clearly stood out and told the world to watch out. Her stance were itself aggressive. She was like a tempest of disaster and danger strangled in an island of turbulence. Her hair swished past her while her eyes- they were gorgeous and stormy grey. They were icy chilly cold and the ignition of her demeanour was iced because of those eyes. She tied her hair in a bun and it was clear she was a fighter. I did not find myself questioning whether she was a spectator or fighter. She was definitely the one who loved to pounce on her prey and rip it off to get what she wants. Intimidating was an understatement. She carried an air of dignity and power like an empress. She was different. Absolutely. She ripped a bag and brought out her punching gloves like they were treasured jewels. They were her admiration and pride that she shouldered beautifully. Her face was tinged with a little of red. And her slightly tanned skin shone in the trance of flickering light. Suddenly my train of thoughts screeched to a halt when I heard a voice. A very familiar voice like ghostly familiar. Neil.

Neil's eyes were emotionless yet stiffened with too much of sentiments. If that was possible. His lips quivered a little and he was shaken which was clearly visible.

His lips parted and he murmured: Selena.....

The girl was stupendified and she stared like she just witnessed a person from the tomb unleash into a real avatar.

Selena: Nick...

Neil chuckled: You know I am Neil and Nick just never suited me.

Selena: But I love Nick.

She said with great firmness and the sincerity was startling. She was like a tigress right now, proving her point to the shallows of the universe.

Neil: I am truly in love Sel but its not you. What I had with you was something strong but what I feel with her makes my nerve shake.

Selena was silent. For a second I could see the facade of strength, valour breaking. Vulnerability making close ripples about her heart. I could hear my heart pounding. I felt the pain to be in love with this man and being told that I was not needed. I know he loves me and he does not love her but at the point I heard the few drawing an end line sentences of my life. I felt my root rattle. Coz at that time Neil did not really care about me. Hurt was something beyond the dignity of my explaining.

Sel: You cannot do this to me. You love me.

Even her last line tottered like hell. Like a question because what I could see in the eyes of Neil was nothing but sympathy. Her being the strong, bold beyond questions woman sympathy shook her and cracked her heart. I felt it. What she was feeling was real. The truth was that I was not even jealous or celebrating that Neil was clearly stating out that I mattered more than anything else for him.

Neil: I am married to the love of my life. She shaped my life Sel. I can give up anything for her in a heartbeat because the lines crossing my pulses showing that I live is actually when she breathes life in them.

They were heavy words and I could not crash harder in love with this man in front of me.

Selena: And you did not find it necessary to give a bloody phone call to ask whether I was dead in some estranged place or rather in some dark alley. You did not care after the crash. You were fucking nearly killed while I was in coma. You just left giving me a bucket of empty promises to ponder on. To fuck my life on those promises which were what a few chain of words said in a trance.

Neil looked down while Selena was controlling a lot of emotions. Anger, hurt topping them while the weight of her tears were blinding her as she tried to keep them from daring to roll out.

Neil: Those were before all the shit. We were already falling apart.

Selena said sarcastically: Oh really...the very reason why I got myself killed to save you. I seem to be a really big fucker that I found it necessary to save the guy with whom I was sharing a quoted falling relation.

Neil: Sel in short I have moved on and I wanted to see to it that you were okay since we already discussed how you put my life before yours and trust me Sel you are a lot better than having a mess like me in your life.

Sel: It was not my fault Nick. It was not my fault that you had to go through all that.

Neil: You were definitely an accomplice.

Sel: Nick we should talk you sure cannot love her when I know what we shared was the purest, most genuine thing the world might ever have witnessed.

It was a plea while Neil looked at her his decision clearly inflicted in his truthful eyes. They were no more deceiving.

Neil: Sel I love you as a friend. I am sorry. I had to make this clear. As clear as broad day light. Its time for us to open our eyes and squint our eyes out fetching the reality. We are not meant to be. What we had is a breathtaking time we had and it better stay that way. I cannot think of life without Avni. She is everything. My moon, my star, my sun.......the reason why my heart pounds against my ribs.

Selena finally let out a tear. It fell on the porcelain floor while her eyes a similar pool. She was devastated. She waited for 5 years. Chanting the name of this one guy. She would need time to heal. She needed time. That was the only remedy to close a few open wounds but I mentally said to myself that I would not make it a doable task for any person to further play with her wounds.

I actually could not understand a single thing about what was happening but a few parts totally got me.

Suddenly I slipped on the perfectly polished floor and banged onto the cupboard. Now I was in for something nasty. Two pair of eyes bored into me and I fell my heart sink when Neil looked at me with betrayal. He definitely thought that I must have followed him because I was scared that Sel might make a move on him.

Selena looked at me with intense scrutiny and a dirty glare while Neil now had disbelief.

I knew I was going to hate what was coming next.

So guys you must have got the point that Neil mentioned that he was not into Sel. Lots of mystery and lets not talk about the cliffhanger. Selena's character is a very strong one even Avni is bold but this is like in Sel's nature. Like she emits dominance, attention and everything. She will need some time to adjust but when she does oh god she will rock.

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