It the loss of the other,who gave up on someone who would never give up on you

 Avni's POV

We got out and Neil showcased his most ungentleman type behaviour. He just walked out of the car.He did not even open the gate.But then if these trivial matters affect me at this rate then in a week my heart will be reduced to sawdust.My thoughts were broken when Neil's voice hit me.

Neil:Oh! hello madam Tussauds.Are you planning to spend the rest  of your life in the car.Ooops for walking you need mental coordination and for that you need a brain which can guide you but unfortunately your skull is hollow and brainless.

I actually stood speechless.My mind was playing all the times I had talked to him.trying to figure out the reason for his soooo cordial behaviour.I chose not to answer him and so came out of the car.It was time for grihapravesh.I stood outside with my husband who did not have a single emotion on his face.Actually his face only has two modes of emotions-angry and blank.I hate it when he is blank.He is very rude when he provoked to speak and to tell the truth after the engagement day he has only these two emotions.The worst part was that I was having the feeling that he is planning to stay like this for quite some time now.I stood almost like a statue and auntie oh sorry mom brought the vessel filled with rice and that plate with red vermillion on it.With the corner of  my eyes I tried to figure out what my expressionless husband was upto.I saw that he was trying to get that turban off his head and on succeeding he just ran his hand over his ruffled hair.My heart skipped a beat.This guy sure looks hot.No he is not hot.Atleast that's so not what I would like to say at this stage.I rolled my eyes and then kicked the vessel and went right into the plate.I walked out of it but was finding difficulty in walking.I looked at Neil for some help but he just stared at the pillar without a care.Then I heard 

Shweta maa say:Neil,go help her to your room.

He just gave her a whatever look and then a very irritated look and then told:"mom I guess the first thing a human is taught is how to walk so she can very well do that and if not then you know what to call her."

I did not get him so I sputtered out a "what?".He looked at me blankly and said "Inhuman"

I stood dead at track.That moment my heart was split into two.One part was urging to slap him across his face and the other just wanted to give way and express all my frustration by howling and crying."what did I ever do to him was the only statement hovering in my mind.I silently wobbled my way but this just had to happen.I flipped and fell down.I let out a scream.I surely had sprained my leg.The last time this happened I could not dance for a week.Great! now I do not even have my escape-my dance.I tried getting up but failed miserably.It was then that I felt two warm hands tracing my waist and helping me get up.I shuddered at his touch.I limped and suppressed a scream.I looked at Neil.Oh!boy how can a person keep such a straight face all through out his life.It was then that he went lower.I had one arm snaked around his neck nd the other travelled to my knees.He picked me up in bridal style.

he whispered:You know what you are so dumb to have thought that I am a fool.I very well know that you are acting to gather sympathy from me and make things your way.So don't ever think that you won.I am doing all this for my parents.

I did not know how to react.He just judged my character and assassinated it without a care.I did not find a single reason for him to think this way.I clung on to him but really hurt.I WAS HURT.I never thought that this was what he meant when he wanted to hurt me.He was taking me to his room while I felt so empty and so confused.I just could not conclude why he thought that I had come to act out scenes in his house.I wanted to build a home just not a house with bricks but Neil never understood.My leg was hurting so much.A tear drop was threatening to come out and unfortunately it did.It struck Neil's hands and he looked at me with that same expression but with just a little more softness in his eyes.I stared back at him.I looked right into his eyes to tell him that he was breaking me.He looked at me.The eyelock was so intense.I felt like he was diagnosing my heart.Then suddenly I saw him smirking.

He lowered his head and said"Awwwww baby,does this hurt.Is something breaking inside.Guess what I just do not hell care about it.This was something I earnestly wanted.I had warned you but you walked straight into hell.So welcome to hell Mrs Avni Neil Khanna.This is going to be so interesting.I promise you are going to be crushed like a barbie doll.

Now he got me.a fire lit in my eyes and I answered after a long time:Mr Neil Khanna the emotions which you are talking of and have already planned to destroy are so strong that you can never reach them.You need humanity to reach them which is something you definitely lack and yes thanks for the lovely welcome.The truth is that a time will come in your life when you try to reach out for people who love you but they will reject you .Before any of that happens reassemble your wrongly aligned brain.Finally you cannot break me unless you love me.A person is hurt when a person who loves you breaks you into pieces and not when someone who has a stone instead of a heart,promises to hurt you.

After my long speech Neil did the weirdest thing.He dumped me on the bed and a muffled scream escaped my mouth as I whimpered in pain.It was hurting a lot.I was in dire need of a shake and massaging but I tried ignoring it.It was then that Neil started to laugh like he had gone crazy.He laughed so hard that I felt so eerie.I was getting scared.A cold chill ran through my spine.He caught hold oh his tummy and laughed.

He said between his laughters:emotions with a bonus of humanity.Rejection,love...you are such a lunatic.

I said:At the moment you look like a lunatic.

Suddenly he stopped laughing.His eyes reflected so much darkness.I shifted back nervously.He climbed on the bed and approached towards me.I could not even get up and run.My leg was hurting so much that I almost wished to cut it.On the other hand Neil came close to me,so close that his breath fanned my face.I forgot to breathe.His proximity was killing me.He went over me in the sitting position itself while I sat under him.His legs were parted so that they did not hurt my legs.It was then that he kneeled down.He removed my hair which was on my shoulders.My breath hitched.He whispered as the air hit my earlobe.

He said:Do you want to see what is craziness.

I tried not to have my voice quivering and thus said:Neil please get over me.

He smiled a victory smile.

He said huskily:If I wanted I could rip your clothes and rape you.You could not even complain but no.Not so fast.We will surely have some meaningless sex but not today.At the end of the day you are no use to me. So if you could please my manhood then atleast I will have some reason to keep you in this house.

I murmured:I am not your mistress.I am your wife.

Neil:Yes you are not my mistress as of now but would be very soon.

He bend and placed a sloppy wet kiss on my shoulder.

He said:It would be fun fucking you.

I replied:Do'nt play with me because I very well know how to protect myself.

Neil smirked:lets see.