PS:not proof read

I could not understand what was happening.All I knew and cared about was about the almost unconscious love of my life,Neil.We were sitting on the floor.Neil was blabbering stuff which I could not make any sense of.Tears blinding me and tension seeping through me.I was losing my nerves.It was then that I felt two warm hands leading their way across my waist.I felt an unusual relief surging through me.I am supposed to feel hell scared but he has that effect on me.I could feel him rising a little.He just wanted to make himself comfortable.He dug his face in the crook of my neck.I felt butterflies in my stomach.I could spend my life in this position but right now my duty was to be the protector.I had to be Neil's shield.I would protect him from any danger that would dream of touching him.I slowly tried to raise him up.He was a little too heavy for me.My first attempt went really bad.He toppled right over me but as I knew Neil would never hurt me whether he has his senses or not.He fell on me but did not give his entire weight.He had his eyelids half open.It was the first time I could see him this close.He is definitely the replica of a greek god.His mesmerizing eyes which had the ability to hypnotize me,his sharp nose fitting his personality and ofcourse his lips.They definitely gave me a hard time.Everytime he watered his lips or bit them my breath hitched.I was actually swimming in Neil land with him right over me.It was then that I noticed that even Neil had his eyes open now.He was also staring at me or rather my lips.I became conscious and thus bit my lips.This was a habit of mine.Neil still gazed at them.I was glad all this was happening in the secluded part of the pub.Neil ran his hand over my face.I had my eyes closed by now.I could sense his breath nearing me.Soon he was so close that my heart beats were racing like anything.It was then that he whispered"you are mine just mine.You are my very own Mrs Neil Khanna.Only I have rights on you.No one can see you the way I do.No one....no one...no"With this he reduced the gap between our lips to zero.His lips were working magic on me.The gentle motion made me go to some unvisited land.I was so occupied that I did not realize that he wanted access to my mouth.I slowly parted.His lips still passionately working on me.His tongue slowly entered.It tasted so perfect.His taste accompanying with the alcohol.This taste was making me go dizzy.It was as if the alcohol was also affecting me.It was my first kiss.I did not know how to react.What to do,how to feel,how to make him feel but all I knew was that I had to go with the flow.Our tongues were entangling.This feeling was out of the world.After a few minutes of passion overloaded we left each other.I was panting so was he.After we relaxed I again made an attempt to get him up.This time I was successful.I was blushing like I never had.My lips were feeling extremely light and also as if someone else owned it.I gave my first kiss to the love of my life.I looked at Neil.He was smiling sheepishly.He looked like some cute child who had just earned his favourite chocolate.We finally got out.It was really cold out.Better then it was in there.

I told :Neil its time we go home.Please get in.

Neil looked as if he was lost in deep thoughts.Then he shook his head like a child and said:NO

Neil:I won't go with you.I will go with anyone but you.

I asked:and why is that so.

Neil:you broke my trust.I won't go with you.

I really wanted to debate over this but I thought it wise to let it go.After all he was not in his senses

I looked at Neil but I found him going away rather aimlessly.I ran towards him and stopped him.He looked at me questioningly.I quickly dragged him right into car.He just would not sit.Damn him always adamant.

I said:Okay we will listen to all your complains.Done

Neil:No I won't go home.They haunt me.

I:who

Neil:The truth of my life with whom I always play hide and seek.

I witnessed immense pain in him.The fun loving Neil which I just saw vanished into thin air.Only a broken child remained.

I:we will conquer them too.I am with you.We will drive all your fears far away.

He listened to me intently.

Neil:Done

He sat in the car while I drove.I thought of taking him to my favourite place in the city-magic land.

I was driving while Neil was saying things that made my heart skip beats.

Neil:Did anyone tell you that you are the most beautiful girl in the world.

I somehow managed to not knock the car into the tree.

As I heaved a sigh of relief I felt a warm body advancing right towards me.I looked left.It was Neil.He was very close to me.I forgot about the car about anything.He had already crossed the gear so one can well imagine how close he was.He came towards my lips and then took a sharp turn in the right you know toward the crook of my shoulders.My hair brushed on his face.He whispered"If not then let me tell you that you are just not beautiful you are also the hottest."I could not control anything.I was losing it.After that Neil pecked on my cheeks.He lingered his lips on my cheeks a little too long.He was venting out all the sexual tension he had for so many days today itself.I quickly took control over the steering while my cute adorable husband out there looked out of the window like a child.I knew he was blushing.

I could do nothing but smile.I really wanted this Neil.He is just so loving.I wanted this Neil who did not care about the world but did things without a care.A fun loving person.

My chain of thoughts broke as Neil asked:how much time is left.I am so bored.

I replied:Its in the outskirts so that is why its taking a little longer.Just wait.

Neil:oooo but why are we going there.OOO I know but I did'nt know you were so eager to have children.

I reacted as if I had just heard someone's dead news.SHOCK.

I stammered and was unable to say anything.Though I did say:No..no I mean why..

Neil again came close.Why did he have to get this magnet right now when I am driving.

He said"Awwwww baby don't stutter.I can promise you that you will have a really good time.I can show you that I am better than him."

His face sort of darkened on the mention of this'his'

I chose to ignore this "his".

The car screeched as I applied the brakes in front of my magical land.

I was actually surprised that Neil was silent for 5 whole minutes.It was then that I realized that the alcohol was taking toll and he was dozing off.I woke him up before he settled himself to sleep.I needed Neil to see this.I needed him to barren his heart whether it was with senses or not.

I helped Neil out.He looked at everything or rather diagnosed everything.Magical land is magical becoz it has got a beautiful shimmering lake in front.This was guarded with luxuriant fields.It has got fairy lights that makes it the most soulful place on earth.I could connect with myself here maybe I could connect with Neil too.

Neil entered behind me.He slouched on the grass.He was in a half sitting and half sleeping position.He looked so serene and relaxed.I knew that he had forgotten the world.All memories were flushed away so he was so happy.I did not have the heart to drag him to the reality again but I had to.

I saw Neil raising his hand.I took his hand while he made me sit beside me.None of us spoke.I was basking in the warmth of love.He slowly shifted his head on my lap.I did not know why but I lowered myself and gave a feathery kiss on his forehead.He closed his eyes smiling.I really love to make him feel loved.I had never seen this Neil who wanted to be loved without any hesitation.I caressed his head.After some time he broke the silence.

Neil:Why are you doing this when you know that you will also leave me.Why do you want me to have such a heart break that I would never be able to heal again.Avni it hurts.It really hurts to think about seeing you with someone else.You sharing....

He could not complete becoz of his sobs.He was crying.I felt as if someone drew a sword right into my heart.Like literally.I drew his face towards mine.His face was opposite to mine as he had his head on my lap.I placed my forehead on his.

I said:Shhhhh no more tears.I am not leaving you.Never.If I have to leave you then I have to give up on my heart.Now tell me can a body function without its heart.

Neil:No but...

I:trust me Neil.

Neil:I don't trust on TRUST.

Avni:Neil your past wounds will heal.I will heal them.

Neil:then what about the ones you are giving me now.

I thought that Neil was talking of his unknown feelings for me.He is naming the incapability of not being able to understand his feelings as betrayal.

Avni:Neil we will get over this thing very soon.You and me.ME and you will defeat the evils within you.

Neil smiled and said lovingly:promise.

I again kissed his forehead and said:Promise

Neil:Avni do you love me.

He suddenly said out of nowhere.I was caught off guard but I calmed myself and replied:Yes I do.

I know that he is so heavily drunk that he won't remember a thing tomorrow.Only a few glimpses max to max.

I studied his face.He looked satisfied and happy.

I could not resist.I also asked him:what about you.Do you love me?

My question remained unanswered.I looked at him.He was fast asleep.The alcohol finally took toll on him.I slowly put his head on the grass.I went a little down and cuddled myself against him.I had my ears pressed on his chest.I could hear his heart beats.They seemed so peaceful.They were enough to calm me down and take me to a even more magical a land.I could feel him shifting towards me.I felt so protected.I slowly entangled my one leg with his,taking him to be my side pillow.The silent ripples in the water and under the moon we slept.I never felt better than this.I never had a better night.I also knew that I won't have any dream the reason being that I was living my dream tonight.My life begins with Neil and it also ends with Neil.Today I also realized that I was hopelessly in love with my husband-Neil Khanna.

hello everyone.So this is my duty to inform yeh Neil chant ghanto ka mehman(2nd time I am saying this).

I am sort of happy with the response in the last update.Idid not start off with the angry Neil in this update but the upcoming ones would really be filled with twists.

Lastly did you guys like drunk Mr romeo Neil.