Avni's POV

Neil has always looked at me with amazement like I am some fairy summoned to help a devil(which he thinks he is and I utterly disagree) rehabilitate into what is know as human. I looked at my sleeping husband who was cuddled up against me. He had his eyes shut and I felt that I could spit up anything that I could never get myself to tell when he is awake. He looked like a baby with his hand loosely knit into a fist. His breathing was so steady and so perfect like this is what life should aspire to be. I ogled at his features. It was like I was recording each and every feature of his face. Starting from the smallest of crease ranging to his dreamy eyes which is unbelievably dreamy. I would bet that any girl would fall prey to them and I was no exception. His hand was around my waist and I had that tinglish feeling like he just touched the correct place but it was embarrassing to acknowledge that fact. I kissed his forehead and he smiled sensing love. He always understands when I shower the smallest of gesture to express my love for him. I slowly realised that Neil was waking up. This suddenly revived the entire speech Neil had given before he doze off.

Neil: Avni I am scared to loose you. You know what I know what it is to see the only reason for you to survive the harsh realities away. I know how terrible it feels to know that you are all alone when you walk down the streets. Suddenly falling weak amidst thousands of people, suddenly feeling like giving up and hurl out in front of all the people present, knowing that their is nothing to lose just a tiny little hope to grow up to a point where losing might also become an option because you need to have atleast something to be capable of giving and I just craved for that "something". I became what I never wanted to be. I would not even wish that for my worst enemy. It is better to leave this world than to live in a world where you know their is nothing to live for. Avni when you entered my life I knew that you were in for something really nasty because I was a living nightmare for you. Making you cry in the company of isolation, making you complain to darkness , compelling you to love a love in a place where words cannot seep into reality. I know for you I am the beast but for me you are the beauty and Mr beast cannot live without his beauty. He needs the red rose to survive and the red rose yearns for the love of beauty so now you know losing you is my nightmare and before I met you my nightmare was to meet someone who would turn so important in my life like you did. So you were once my nightmare and even now you are – my nightmare

just the conditions have differed.

Saying this Neil just caught hold of me and asked for a promise. A promise of lifetime.

Neil: Avni promise me you will never leave me. You will not even dream of all those weird thoughts like that in which you get run—over and whatever. You will always return back to me. Your not leaving me ever. You would not leave me to fight this world all alone or dying would be the only option I would see hypnotised in the feelings of losing the battle of life.

I dindn't know why but this promise seemed so unreal like it would end up being broken. I mean it just did not feel right. As if I would end up crippling this promise. I never wished to but as if I would be force to. Those thoughts of getting run over and all just crossed my mind and I shuddered not because of myself but the thought of Neil. He will not be able to survive this. He would be too broken to be repaired. I don't know why I was being engulfed with these thoughts. These ill ominous thoughts just kept evading my mind. A vision had also flashed in my mind which made me sweat in such a pleasant weather. A white shrouded dead body lying with me under it and beside it was another dead body and that was of........Neil. Some people were gossiping about how Neil suicides after knowing of my death. That thing had risen the horrors in my heart. It created havoc like it never did. The only thing I would want after death would be his happiness and if I end up being the one to snatch away his life then I would be rendered restless even as a soul. When we fall in love the souls unite. They communicate and they make promises to never leave aside but when the eyes stop to find the person we are seeking for,when they feel the absence of the comfort of that special person then they become mad. Like nomads they look for one glimpse of that shadow following your loved one and when the tempting idea of reuniting with the person you want to find by just getting rid of this body, just gives way to the existence of the word "suicide". For the world it is suicide but for them it is passion of achieving that love of your life.

Don't judge people who are in love because well they are in love and love is a synonym of getting drunk without alcohol. So you know it is not a cowardly work it is a rescue from living a life where you die a new death every morning you get up without that "someone your life has signed contracts with"

Hey I am growing big. I am slowly getting hold of this term "love". No more of that childish girl who thought love as just dating a guy dancing in a few romantic songs and then confession of your feelings. Nah this is not even a 1% of love. It is too huge for that.

Well so end of the matter I agreed to his promise but he was on the verge of dozing so I added "even if not physically mentally always". Neil was already fast asleep. I kissed his cheek and then slept along with him.

We were still in magic land and so Neil looked about a little started at the sudden outburst of light. I don't know what took over me but I kissed his eyes. He stared back at me with a smile playing on his lips.

Neil: Looks like wifey is really happy.Not bad. Huh. Well looks like my stars are favouring. My wifey looking at me with love and this intense passion. Uffff kills me.

I blushed and told him with my swag quotient peaking its limits.

I: Intense passion huh. Well yes I really feel that for someone but not you actually.

Neil actually sat up alarmed. He was lolling on the ground a few seconds back and now he was in the commando position ready to fire. I wanted to laugh but I needed to continue what I had given rise to.

Neil: Avni stop this okay. I very well know that its me...So

I : If you are so dreadfully adamant that its you then why are you so hyped up. Chillax.

Neil: Chillax you are a pain in my ass at the moment.

I literally did not believe what he said. Did he just call me a pain in his butts. Well I have noticed it earlier too that he had a very sexy *coughs. Ass. Still calling me a pain in his ass is indignant. Well maybe he has forgotten who is the boss. Its Avni the lady don forever.

Avni: Pain in your ass. You need to have a nice shaped sexy butt for that have you ever seen it before the mirror its strange.

Neil: I am not an owl who has a 360 degree U turn neck that I will see my butt in the mirror.I have a normal neck which can go 90 degrees and don't dare insult my butt. I am proud of them. DO you even know how many girls must have drooled over it. It just adds to my features.

I: Features hahaha. Have you seen my shoes. You don't even deserve a kick with them over there. And features ofcourse they are what spoil the entire decorum of your body.

Neil: Admit it that you love each and every thing that is mine.

I: You know what there is something lying over there. I think its yours.

Neil turned to look and found nothing and again looked at me questioningly.

I: your brain.

Neil: Avni.

I: Oh sorry. My bad. You need to have a brain to lose it.

Neil: Avni......

I: What I know my name is Avni unless you forgot.

Neil: You know what talking to you is equivalent to striking you head on wall.

Avni: Wow Neil then you must be headless in this case after all you cannot help but talking to me.

Neil: Fine now do you intend to go home or stay here.

I: Well my intentions would be understood if u find me following you or staying back. With this I slumped and sat on the grass.

Neil let out a sigh.

Neil: Avni don't force me.

I: No you can go alone. Its absolutely fine.

Neil: And do u think I will ever be able to leave you alone.

I looked up when he said this emotional line and then again looked down. All of a sudden I felt that someone scooped me like ice cream as I felt the masculine arms wound round me. My cheeks touched his and it instantly flared and courtesy his perfume and that manly scent I was compelled to close my eyes and control myself or I might end up being a watery mess. Neil was just like those heroes carrying his damsel in distress to safety. This was so damn cute. Neil opened the gate of the car. I don't know how he makes me feel like feather and managing to open the gate. He safely put me on the car seat. I looked front pretending to be angry. Neil actually fell prey to my acting. He pressed his lips on mine. A small peck and sat on one knee.

Neil: Avni I love you more than myself. I am sorry baby. I would never quarrel with you. What you say is my final verdict. Promise.

He made a puppy face well what attracted me more was that his eyes were a little watery. It did'nt take me a second to slide down beside him and wipe of the lone tear.

Neil suddenly became a different person all together making me wonder whether my hubby is suffering from split personality or not.

Neil: Awwwe Ani I knew that you would be terribly impressed with my acting.

I practically smacked his head. He groaned a little.

Neil: Avu it hurts.

I: Well what hurts is still unknown to you when I make your mango pickles and pack you and send you to my in laws stating that there son has not made it in one piece, then u will understand.

Neil giggled.

I: What's so funny.

Neil: Life. Its damn funny. It makes you go through such whirlpools. Remember the last time we came over here. We were two strangers having no hope of making through a relationship whose base would be love. Infact my heart was poisoned with hateful stuff like to make you suffer and now........ Life is a joke. It really is but look at us now. We are still fighting but do you know what these fights stand on-intense care, affection and all sorts of emotions that have the ability to make you find elixir.

I kissed his cheek and opted to not speak. My silence told a lot.

We sat in the car. Neil switched on the radio.

It was RJ Siddhart. I just loved the way he spoke. When I was struggling with my love for Neil. Fighting for its existence. I had given him a call during his programme when he would clarify all doubts, and asked him whether I should live for this relationship. He had started by asking a question that actually answered all my doubts.

" DO you think you can make through this life forget about the next birth and all without that special person. Do you think that you can live with the burden on your heart that you left without trying. If yes then go for a path which would never dare to cross that person's but if its a no. Then buckle up your seat belts to come across each and every step he takes and make him acknowledge your presence.The journey is going to be difficult but if you know that life without that person is anyway death then atleast die trying to let him know about your love.

I was deeply mesmerised with his words that I was left dumbfounded.

This time he was just talking of random stuff about how weather and a person's mood are influenced. It was pretty funny. I l giggled while Neil smiled. He had been stealing glances since we got in the car. At times blushing and smiling sheepishly. Maybe he just went nuts. I need to consult a psychiatrist for this man urf my hubby. Though to tell the truth I like this madness in him. It makes him so different. Like so adorable and practically the most unique person in the galaxy. I caught him red handed when he was trying to catch glimpses of me.

I: Neil I am your wife only. You can look at me as much as you wnat but please not while driving or we might end up in tomorrow's newspaper.

Neil was like "what"

I nodded.

I: a couple driving down the way of their house but unfortunately did not make it till there and to our astonishment it was the Khannas. You know breaking news for people which they will cherish with tea.

Neil: Avni you are just too much.

I: I know too much of goodness to handle.

All of a sudden Neil parked the car aside. I looked at him questioningly.

Neil told huskily: Wifey has been playing don don for long. Now hubby needs some love dose.

Saying this Neil was nearing me. My heart was thudding. The boom boom sound of it made me fear that it might explode. It was skipping beat after beats and unfortunately I had no control over it. The very moment his manly scent washed against me I know I was gone. I was head over heels over this guy. I had forgotten that time could travel becoz for me it had stopped. Neil had crossed the gears and now he was in my boundary where I was safely tucked in with the seat belts.

I closed my eyes because I was scared of losing my sanity by blazing under the intense stare of his eyes. Phew the air conditioner had no effect on me. I was getting so heated up. I had lost my voice and I knew I would barely croak.

Neil invaded the part on my neck. I don't know how to explain just maybe what I call basking in the love. Our moment was interrupted by a passing bus where people were whistling at us and making their views known about passionate moments. I closed my eyes in embarrassment while Neil chuckled and winked at me.

In a few hours we reached home. It smelt so perfect. It smelt like home because Neil's fragrance prevailed over it. That manly aura. I may not acknowledge the fact but I like the arrogant hunk Neil also. That manly aura about him that makes his entire personality so unique. But ofcourse too much of this might end up being a toxic mixture. But on a whole the dominalting Neil Khanna like the mad possessiveness was treat to watch.

Neil came up to me and informed me.

Neil: Avu there is this party we are going to. SO would you like to accompany.

I simply nodded. This was going to be fun. Atleast I was cent percent sure of not experiencing what I had last time Neil and I went to one of his parties.

I was a little into my thoughts while I noticed Neil getting all hiked up with phone calls drowning him and he constantly repeating the agenda, project details and what not. He cutely squinted his eyes . I smiled. These days I smile a little too often because of him. He makes my day worth living. He really does. I love him 1000 and I really do.

Suddenly I felt like my head just swooned. I faltered back but tried to appear steady. I wanted to call for Neil but it was as if I was silenced. Neil looked at me once while I was getting dizzy. Even if I wished to tell Neil about what was happenening with me but to get him bothered and trigger off his over protective hubby attitude was not the best option. So I just pretended that nothing happened and that something had fallen and I was picking it up. He seemed to have been convinced so he looked the other way. I got a little tensed but then I remembered that it was because of my skipping meals so often. If Neil comes to know of this then I am gone. He would make sure that I finish off food for 200 men all alone. So I had to take care of my health even if it is not for me but for the man of my life-my very personal Neilu.

He always had trust issues when it is entrusting me with my own health. I have felt at times when all of a sudden Neil would get up at 2 or 3 o'clock in the morning and check my forehead with squinted eyebrows mumbling and praying that I was not having fever. And ofcourse I was not because I was completely fine but Neil just loses his sanity when it is my health that is under consideration.

Suddenly I felt like my heart landed up in my mouth. I felt this plethora of emotion rendering me shaky and unstable. I had lost my voice long back. I was facing all those emotions that make you go crazy when your mind forgets how to process itself. I had forgotten that humans need oxygen to survive. How can I be feeling so utterly hopeless about my activities. I felt Neil holding me from back and his grip slowly becoming tighter. He had his face dug in the crook of my neck. His scent was making me feel those bubbles surging up in my body. This was intense. Suddenly I felt like it became dark or rather Neil placed his palm on my eyes. It was soft,,tender and it gave me so much of relief. His usually strong and ready to fight hands could mould so tender when it was on me. It was safe like my home was protecting me from the heat that can act detrimental for a flower. The coldness of his fingers running through my spine. It was so heavenly. It was like I was in some ocean deep inside the depths of the undiscovered waters but there was no risk of being trapped in whirlpools because I know he is there-My Neil will always be there.

Neil:You know Avni, the first time I saw you I did not know whether my eyes were fooling me or not because you looked like some mystical figure who would vanish anytime. Your existence was possible was also something very farsighted for me but here you are forever trapped in my arms. Remember you are the culprit. You hypnotised me with love so you will have to be by me always and always....

I could not get myself to tell much. I just whispered: I love you.

Its good to say these 3 words often because not all things are well understood. They need to be pronounced for bringing a smile in the lips of your loved one. It is the most beautiful feeling in this world. Love is a treauured feeling. Not many people are fortunate enough to feel that emotion surging through teir veins. When everything gets blinded and the emotion engulfs you. When the only language you speak is love and your activities are replicates of love. The only thing that hovers in your mind is the person who has ended up being the owner of all the love one can possibly have. In reality there are only two feelings that can be gifted to another person while some like anger, jealousy just enables you to burn in your own fire but love and hatred can be entitled to someone. Love is capable of making your life a fairy tale. Love stories can easily become your dream but for it to be given the shape of a fairy tale it needs undying effort. I did not speak much but the small formed sentence-I love you, told enough. It had the emotion bottled up within me. That's all.

If there is anyone who is running away from love then it is the biggest loss you can ever incur in you lifetime because love is the only emotion unlike anger, jealousy, hatred which can or rather will be embedded in your blood however badly you want it to be gone.

So everyday celebrate love with that one special person by always promising him that everyday this celebration would be an integral part of life.

So guys party time. Well are you sure that it would be a happy happy easy going chappy. I mean the upcoming ones. Well spoiler: Nope it won't be. It's going to be a story changer.

Well an important milestone of the story.

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