rayan's pov:

it's been two years. i terribly miss her.

i have changed my number and i haven't contacted anyone from my family too. I've worked part-time to pay my college fee.

i graduated and started a company. fortunately, my startup turned out to be successful.

i am the CEO of this organisation and i am a millionaire now. i have everything except one which i desire the most.

the one which matters the most to me.

my nora.

nothing in this life can give me happiness except her.

she's the salt of my life. my life is tasteless without her.

she's my life and also my wife. but she doesn't knows it. and i couldn't tell her too. i feel pathetic.

i wonder how's nora doing. we were hardly together after our marriage which our parents forced upon us because our mothers were childhood bestfriends.

little did i know was she is my soulmate and i am going to love this girl so much that i am going to be ready to kill and die for her.

after our marriage, she met with the accident and i disappeared from her life for 2 years because of her health concerns. those were the worst two years of my life.

the pain of waiting. the pain of hope. the pain of separation from your lover. and the pain of love. i love her so much. i am not crying, something just fell into my eyes.

and again, as they say, history repeats itself. those two years repeated and i am again very away from her because she was in coma because of me. i still shiver thinking about the day when i drove her to the hospital.
i shouldn't have asked her "who's he" while she spoke about her dream boy. ofcourse it was me. i knew it. i trust her and our love so damn much that i know she couldn't even dream of any man except me. i just hoped of listening it from her.

i also shouldn't have asked her if she remembers anything. i am such an idiot. i will always hate myself for this.

"sir do you want something more" my assistant said while she leaned over the table exposing her cleavage.

i am not seduced, i am disgusted.

there's only one cleavage i am interested in, in this whole universe.

"I'd really appreciate if you dressed decently" i told her without caring to look at her again.

"so you could rip my decent dress off?" she said while she came closer to me and started touching me inappropriately.

wtf.

"you're fired, get out" i shouted.

this is the fourth executive assistant i am firing this month, but why are all of them so thirsty.

"please don't fire me, i love you" she said while she started revealing herself more.

"i am married" i told her.

"come on, your wife wouldn't know " she said.

i can't tolerate this anymore.

i dragged her out of my cabin.

i come back and throw my jacket on the chair. i am stressed.

nora is the only girl who could ever seduce me even without trying.

i remember all the good times, and also the ones when she was very thirsty. her being thirsty turned me on so much but i have good self control but she doesn't and she's so clumsy and so adorable. my girl.

one night before the accident flashback:

i sneaked into her room through her window again.

"uhmm you're getting too comfortable sneaking into my room from the window" nora said while giggling.

she looks so adorable while giggling.

"i was, umm, i had some work here" i said. well, we both know there's no work.

"let's watch a movie together" she said while smiling.

"what's the genre" i asked.

"umm sci fi romance?"she said.

"sure" i said.

we were on her bed with the laptop on my lap and her head on my shoulders.

there was a kissing scene, i think she always filters the most steamy movies to watch with me.

"give me a hickey" she said cutely.

"did i ever tell you that you look really cute when you're horny" i tell her.

"and did i ever tell you that sometimes i think you're gay because you're never horny" she said.

well i am attacked but cute.

"if only you could see what i do to you in my head" i said.

"show me" she said.

"3 weeks more to go my princess and you'll see it" i said. she was gonna be 18 after 3 weeks.

"okayyyy let's suppose i was 18, what would you have been doing now" she asked.

"ripping your clothes" i said and she started breathing heavily.

"but, i know you're my wife but i could also not ignore the fact that you're a minor" i continued.

"if you wanna do age shaming again then get out from my room" she said. aww my girl is angry.

i took her hand and kissed it.

"you know right that i love you?" i asked her.

"i love you moreee" she said while she kissed my cheek.

and she sat on my lap and wrapped her arms around my neck.

we are close, forehead to forehead, nose to nose. eyes closed.

"my heart beats for you" i said.

"my heart beats for you too" she said.

someone entered the room and she flinched.

luckily it was mubi.

"umm sorry, ummm i interrupted intercourse sorry i mean, i interrupted private moments and your kissing i think i am making it worse i am sorry please carry on " she said, she was embarassed and she was gone in a second.

"she was out with mother for shopping for a wedding, i totally forgot that she's about to come" nora said.

"i make you forget things huh?" i asked while caressing her cheeks.

"i didn't go for shopping because i hate shopping" she said.

"i know" i said.

"is there something which you don't know about me" she asked seductively.

"well, yes" i said.

"what" she was curious.

"i don't know how you moan" i said.

and she was shy.

"okay umm you gotta wait for 3 weeks, now go" she said and i jumped from the window.

i could easily rob and steal 4 houses by all the practice I've got by sneaking into her room.

i looked back at her for one last time before actually going. and she was looking at me through her window.

i gave her a soft flying kiss and she reciprocated before closing her windows.

flashback ends.

i wonder how's she doing. i wonder if she's thinking about me too.

i wonder how her health is. i wonder what her emotions are right now and i really wish i could do something to make her feel good.

but maybe, staying away from her is the best i could do for her and her condition.

god i miss her.

i feel helpless.

i love her so much. and this love is going to kill me someday.

and may i be buried under the ground where she lives.